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omgomg. im damnnndamnnndamnnn stupid. im not spossed to eat seafood for 2 weeks righhttt. then yesterday.. i eat dimsum! today .. i eat half a fish! omgomgomgomgomg im damnnn dead lorhhh. must wait to see what happennsss!!! hope i dont diieeee!

anyway. i have officially moved. the next entry ill be posting in any diary will be in my new diaryland.. http://love-beatriz.diaryland.com btw, if you wanna link me.. dont put http://www.love-beatriz.diaryland.com ..cuz it wont work.. you cant put www. dont ask me why..

yeap. smelly melly came to send val back and give me my teuscher chocolates. yumyum! she bought what i wanted and she showed her gayass mudafudging pic of ahem. yesyes. julies now INSULTING ME tt lil bitch.. tmr after sch.. oh shiittt! i have guitar at 430.. how can i fucking make it if it takes so long to come back home goddamnit.

wait. since its my last entry here.. i should. hemhem. make it.. special. bwahaha. hem no serious. new people. new school. new crowd. new friends. new blahs. new blah bllaahhss. hahah.. yeapp. its gonna be pretty different from scgs. from the amazing people i met there..different teachers.. yeahhh. its pretty sad aint it? leaving something youve been attached to for so long? like my maids leaving tmr morning.. and she came up the stairs right as i was about to go down.. and she said "im leaving tmr morning..so im sorry for what ive done wrong to you"...and she started crying. but i didnt know what to do mann. so i stood there and she walked away. .teaches you something aint it?

anyway i better get going peoples.

alrighty..im glad to say..bruising is normal

yay.thought i was dying of infection there. some are probly confused and theyre going.. HUH?!. but some are actually smart enough to figure out themselves whats happening even tho i didnt tell anyone else.yeah.....RIGHT ..YOU?

haha feeling very..hemmm. wierd now. im happy yet confused yet anxious yet nervous yet scared yet. yeahyeah you get my drift. went to the supermarket just now.. someone sent us these yummmmmmyyy pineapple tarts omg theyre sooo goooodddd. not like a normal one. im a professional pineapple tart eater...!!! hahaha. nopenope theyre just so goooddd! yumyum.i was spossed to go see Ratree at far east. but melly helped me ask. im gonna go on friday to see her after school with melly. i hhooppee everythings alright. yeah. scared.

the school schedule is very confusing..like theres red day 1, red day 2, white day 1, white day 2, blue day 1, blue day 2. wtf right. tmrs red day 1..sarah spalding for homebase..trina called me just now and told me tt homebase is the where the geeks are! just my luck. i have cravings for blondies at dkny cafe. damnit.my whole tummy is so happening. everything to do with my tummy hurts. the woorrrssttt place to hurt. forr meeeeeeee. anyway. i gotta go get my diaryland ready..the links, tagboard, etc. catcha guys later yo seeing loving is believing

eeeeeeeekkk. its bruisseddddd

went to sch this morning to fix my schedule and stuff..chris and her family were there as well.. her sisters also going! i had no idea..haha anyway. sadly all the better electives were all full so i ended up with art and strings. tt means i have to play violin in the fucking orchestra. i meann i dont wanna play violin..but my moms forcing me so i dont have a choice right..i wanted to tell her there to change it but i decided to keep my mouth shut. cuz she wouldve made a huggee fuss outta it and embarassed herself.. and me.

whatever. hopefully in the next semester ill be able to change. im thinking of joinng acostic guitar club..and dance club. yupyup. we could take either dance or PE..but dance was full. damnit. did my library card. HAHA tt was funny. at first on the computer my eyes looked one big one small (they always do)..but im lucky cuz it turned out fine. MIEhehe. yup got my uniform but lucky for us the only uniform is the SAS shirt..and anything navy blue for the bottom..and whatever shoes. just no heels. slipper also can! hehe.

i ate like a pretty big breakfast omg. feel so bloated. in addition to it being the time of the month. urghhh. gotta get my hoochy off the chair and do something! but first i neeeed to go to far east. todayy

uhm hmm. juls gotta blog! but theres really no point adding her link here cuz tmr ill be transferring everything over to the new one. hmm. todayy. went for lunch..chinese again and after tt me and val went to passion to do our hair.. man it was like the Ding familys lady reunion mann..hhaa.. me,val,bec, my 2 aunts..grandmother.hahaa..anywayy. i rebonded my hair again..omg i sat there for 4 hours mann. butt was damnnn pain. val streaked her hair blonde and dyed the others blueish black..hahha omfg the people doing our hair were like damnnnnn funny..cuz my aunt always goes there and she knows them so theyre not shy lahh..damnnn fucking funny..theres a new guy Sam..omg he did my sisters hair..both of us were like laughing like mad damn loud..hahahaaa...and cuz he did my sisters black hair dye..so his hands became all black and it stained so it couldnt wash off..hahahaha.. then he was like "omg! valerie i hate you! chinese new year how to take biscuit!!!!?!" hahahhahahahahaha. omfgggggggg... soo funny. hahaaa. damn im laughing now just thinking about it mann. hahhaahahahhaa. damn. ok. calm downnn.

whoo. ok. haha.aa. ok.

wha my stupid sister right.. never do her homework so she made me sit there for half an hour sticking pieces of paper on cardboard and writing dunno what shit there mann. wtf. labour. should get her to payy mmeeeeee. muaha. anyway. tmr i have a meeting with my counsellor and christina at 9am.. so i better get goinnggg! mwuahmwuahmwuah*

alrighty. ended up not going out fer dinner last night..cuz my cousins had another dinner and i was having baaddd allergy all offa sudden..my whole face was firing up. haha yesterday when we went back to becs house i was upstairs with mel and jazryl..haha omg damn funny the things jazryl does..haha she has this like pronounciation problem omfg hahaa. no she doesnt but she sounds like it..hahaha. esprit becomes ee-spirit. hahaha.. and bvlgari is booger-ee and shes like " boog..booger.. ahya shit lahh.." hahahaa.omg damnnn funny i swear.. patrina smsed me last night so i was talking talking..then she replied back one time "no trina wants to watch tmr. watching lord of the rings now" so i was like huh.. then i asked who it was.. it turned out to be her mom!!!! omgomg i almost died mann..her mom types like a normal teen damnit. my goodddddd. haha pai sei pai seii

we were spossed to watch school of rock later but my parents came back from america this morning so my dad wants to go for lunch. haizzz. buraapapa. ohhh yeahhh. yknow rightt. i created this new diaryland one..so tt i could change to tt when school started ..then i just read chriss blog and realized shes also doing tt! chris if youre reading this arhh dont say i copied you cuz i created it long time aggoo! yeah just wanna get tt clear.

wheee ooo. tmrs orientationnn. then tuesdayyy!!!!! school starts. feels so wierd. humhumhum. gahhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rui called me this morning mann telling me she has a stomachache and shes farting everywhere. ooops was i not supossed to say tt? OOHH YEAHH this retard bec also arh..sms me saying shes farting and damn smelly. whallannn its like i CCAARREE ok nvm i shouldnt complain cuz i always tell people also. hahhaaa.

urghh. cant stop sneezing. my blanket smells like piss cuz my dog pissed on it and im too scared tot ell the maid cuz right before she changed it the dog pissed on it also..hahaa.. so now i have to use a damnnn smelly blanket. damnit. anywayy. this stupppiiddd bec arhh. we go to heeren. which took like 20 minutes cuz of the traffic jamm..then half an hour after we get there..she has to ruch back home cuz she forgot she has tution. whallaoo mann. haiz. shortest time in orchard ever.

oh yeahh! we were feeling ditzy so we decided to take abit of every flavour of gummies in the gummy shop.. 20 bucks..haha. orchard seriously getting damnnass boring mann. oh yeah this morning i picked bec up and we went for breakkfast at tanglin mall macs. and i bought tt stupid orange monkey haha. whoo. tonights italian dinner. hope theres no seaaafooodddddd.

omgggg its like. only 7+ now. feel like im going to school already.. but i havent! so. hehe. school started on the 5th but im only going on tuesday. miehehe. but now my brain calendar is all messed up cuz i keep thinking its still before christmas...damnnn. yesterday i got asked a question like when did it happen..and i was like january (meaning 2003 january) ..and damnit it is january. hemhemmm proves how dumb i am..

mellys bday partayeee 17th...! woohooo finally something not boring.

it hurtsss. :0-*screeeaaammmssss*

ana

behibak

oh yeah. i feel like i accomplished something today cuz natalie called me just now and we talked for awhile and i asked her about her boyfriend and stuff.. and she said they were having problems cuz the school shes in now is like 70 percent lesbians..and her boyfriend doesnt like it but he doesnt want to break. so i gave her advice..told her to talk things out with him cuz if they keep going on like that..itll never work out.

wheee! feel so nice. hehe. im pleased with myself. i hafta do this more often. ill be the psychiatrist! heee-haww!

went to check the school out with chris just noww..left after about half an hour or so..the school i really huge..i think ill get lost. gahh. dropped chris off cuz she needed to be back by 5 or something..and by the time we got there it was 445 cuz it takes like a fucking half an hour to get there. then i went home..and after 20 minutes i went out again. hahaaa. aint tt fast? anywayy..went to meet mel..tits..adrian....and mels friends at far east. did something naughty today. muahaha. hemhemhem. went back to mels place at about 7ish and went to eat sharks fin with my people. hemhem. but it was seafood damnit. so i ate like.. 1 mushroom. and one piece of chicken? haha. talk about being FULL.

patrina called me and were gonna hang out tmr. havent seen her for pretty longgg. but ill be seeing her in school..her mom has this badass impression of me. like..yeahhh seriously. i meann..our parents know each other so she cant hate me that bad.. but. ahh fuckit. im seriously tired..normally id be sleeping now..so im sooo beat im gonna go right up to bed after this. and then id be awake at like 3 or 4am damnit. urghhh. this entry is sooo boring im boring myself just reading it damnit. hopefully ill be able to write some stuff actually interesting when school starts

just had lunch. macaroni in mushroom soup. i remember i used to eat it whenever i came home from school and mom wasnt at home to cook. at least 3 days a week.. but sometimes we'd both be out. so its become one of my favourites now..how ironic aint it?

ive changed a whole lot..like. emotionally and psychically..i find myself sometimes crying over ..nothing. id be in bed..almost asleep..and tears start to fall..or id be in the car waiting..and i start crying my eyes out without a reason..and just now.. my maid was mopping the floor in my room and i walked in..jumped on the bed. and just stared. stare stare stare. staring through the walls..through the windows. through everything and i couldnt focus.

this might sound ridicolous but as she was mopping the space i was looking at.. she missed a spot..and my eyes could tell between the shiny wet surface, and the dry. i found myself pondering at how she couldve missed it, why didnt she see it..and when she would make the dry spot wet and shiny. isnt that ridicolous?

yes, maybe i sound disillusioned. or maybe its depression....? is it depression? i never wouldve thought id ask myself that question..

i need a fresh new start. i wish i couldve done this all over again..but i cant so the least a could do is forget about the worrying and clean my mind of the past. 2003 was pretty cool tho. alotta shit happened. but it was cool.

this year, oh no, last year should i say. has been a hell offa joyride. ive changed alot too..meeting new people..realizing how i want to live and what i want to do. getting in trouble. setting bad examples. been judged. but i had my share of fun. but one thing, the latest situation i got myself into. to me at first, was to maybe bring me and my parents closer and learn from this. but actually now.. three of us are miles apart. things between my mom and i..are farfar very far. we shout at each other..we expose to people what is not supossed to be exposed. and right now i dont have anymore respect for her. in the future tho, i know everything that happens now will be to her how she handled me and watched me and she probably will say thats all part of growing up. but is it? and then..me and my dad.. have become. a little tinge closer. note the tinge. we've spent time together..we treat each other fairly. hes happy. im happy. we're both happy. hee-haw.

why cant everything..stop? i dont wanna spoend my last breath full of hate. cries. tears. nothings.

i mean, seriously. nothing ever goes my way. ok yeah i myself know i sound so.. spoilt to say that. but really. the whole world revolves around my sister in this family. shes the oldest. she supossedly knows more..acts older..is more important. yeah, whatever. she always gets what she wants. sure shes this part animal..with the super hot body and the coolest clothes..but her personality doesnt match her sweet face. nonono. her face is fierce. wild. her personality nothing compared to sweet.

do i sound jealous? maybe. sometimes. yeah. never. umm. am i?

dont you wish you could be older most of the time? like. you think the older you are the more priviliges you get? in some cases thats true.. more freedom. more trust. but its hard to grow up. which reminds me. im 13 in three months! is that good? bad? hmmmm.

my childhood wasnt really close to normal..we children got the privilige to travel around the world..buy the cutest clothes and eat all the expensive food..but thats what killed me. my grandfather would treat us to dinners so regularly..i remember he always came into my room to give me candy..when i was sleeping ..hed put it on the table next to my bed. wed buy new gowns for every birthday dinner. especially my grandparents. theyd have great big parties..lots of people.
these are lil pieces of being a child.

the choices i choose are always wrong. why cant i get anything right for once?

im awakkeee and dyinnggg. yesterday me and chris decided to go eat macs and tanglin mall.. and then she told me she turned vegetarian..hahaha. so she ended up eating a mcflurry. yepp then we went to cine..wanted to watch ju-on2 but wasnt showing or something..saw chermaine and xl..so we walked to heeren to buy gummies ..and on the way there i saw pugjelly's adam! mels friend val has a suuuppeerrr crush on him..haha... yeah and we sat at the fountain stoning..hahah..then walked allll the way to somerset mrt for nothing..and decided to take mrt back to orchard mrt station which was.. one stop.

haha cuz i was gonna teach chris how to take mrt ..and i thought i brought my ezlink..so i taught chris how to buy one cuz she didnt have..then after she went through the barriers..i opened my wallet..and my card wasnt there! hahahahaha. chris was like... "you idiot! that is ssooo not funnny".. hahahhaa. omg so i had to run back to the entrance to buy one for myself ..haha. and then once the train started moving..i realized we were going the opposite direction ..hahahhaha. we ended up in doby ghaut..then had to take back to orchard..hahaha.ah well it was fun..haha. then we walked all the way to far east and walked around..bought ice cream..then we took a cab back..dropped her off first and went home. and right after i got into the house..my brother and my cousin came in a cab..and right after they got out of the cab..my aunt came..hahaa. yepp. and we all ate dinner. yeah.

tmr. oh no wait. today we're gonna go play tennis..or check out the sch..or something.i dunno. we're both ssooo extra boorreddd! anyone wanna offer us a free trip to paris?or maybe a free shopping spree? huh huh huhhh?!. sch only starts on tuesday for us dude! were having orientation together on monday at 9.. omgomg. i neeeed to dooo somethingggg. i missss girls night outtsss :(:(:(. hannahhh julieee jiaaa alllyyyy come savveee meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

alrightyo. im back in singapore! left yesterday night..just went to sch to give mrs lee my prime donation card..i forgot about it and im the last one who sent it in. oooops. anywayy. me and mrs lee were like talking for awhile..yepyep and shes all..happpyyy and jumpy and ...humm. yeahh. i wanna go out but theres no driverrrr. my brother just went out with my cousin.. oh yeah. my cousin adrian came here from australia..to seeeee. not gonna say. anyway they went out to watch juon2 with her..im ssoo damn booredddddd. omg fuckit mann

hohum. maybe this entry will be longer.. oh yeah. britney spears DID have sex with ustin timberlake actually..justin hinted in an interview tt britney wasnt so innocent after all..and then britney admitted or some shit like tt..it was on the news yesterday..like everybodys talking about it. whatever

omg im becoming a total freak.. im saying whatever. god. yeah ok anyway...im going to be starting sch on 12th..like christina..but im tooo damnnnn scaredddd! so nervous so nervous. but ive got patrina..and christina..and . ho hum. who? lenny? priscilla? my cousin? theyre a year older......! blooo. my dads sick..and he used a whole shopping bag fullll of tissue. snot king. :( tt means i cant go shopping for awhile..im leaving on wednesday most likely..my parents might be staying later so if they are i told them id leave ealier..so i dont know whats gonna happen. i neeeeed someone to talk to damnit. i need like a counsellor or something. damnit. i love you

caught another fucking rat this morning..jesus. but it was toooo cute. it was really sad cuz the clip was right between the head and the body.. and it was just looking up with its beady eyes. ok ill stop disguisting myself.

anyway. oh yeah i did my nails yesterday.. so now theyre green with yellow white and black stripes..abstract art..? yeahyeah whatever. i hate the weather here in winter..its just tooooo cold. and whats worse is the house is tiled with marble..which makes it even colder. damnit. went to niketown today..and gotta snack at Chipotle after that..some kinda mexican grill..yumyum the burritos were yummmmm. did everyone here tt britney spears got married like. 2 days ago? to some jake anderson guy or something.. i think its just sooo stupid cuz she probly just wants to get married so she can say she didnt have pre-maritual sex or something. yeahyeah whatever.

i really wanted to write a long entry..but my moms being jackshit annoying..so i gotta go.. mwuahmwuahmwuah*