damnit. the house alarm just went on 10 minutes ago and it wont stop.. its freakyy damnit. anywayyy...i bought my Converse shoes today! found out theyre called chuck taylors. hehe. damnittt. imagine a shoe called... beatriz dings hahaa..nope nvm. im going back the day after tomorrow...arriving on the 3rd at 2am.. me and chris are gonna go to orientation on saturday..damnit mellys having a new year party tt i was spossed to go to.. and shes getting Caracal to play..hahaha..tits was soooo jealous i swear.. he was like "damnit they suck..if i see them im gonna bash them up.. i wanna go to see how bad theyre gonna be" ahaha.. moron.

i still have pretty much to do...i needa buy hwee lis earrings..get my cole haan bag..get the hat from urban outfitter on melrose..orer the stuff online..get the pants from express.blabla. damnittt.but im happy to be going back.. yepp. tmr morning have an appointment to do my eyebrows at 11am.. wonder how im gonna wake up.. we went shopping today.. at beverly center..and before tt all 3 of us gotta bigass scolding frm our parents cuz we had no more money to go shopping. and we cried. haha. yeah. anywayy..i bought a pair of jeans.some skirts..some shirts..haha i gotta shirt form Bebe.. that says "bebe". yesyes, self inflated ego... hahhaa..i wanted to getta playboy bunny shirt but i had like only 10 bucks left...shit.

we just came back from dinner at Houstons..damnittt the barbecue ribs are yumyumyum.. miehe. ok nvm im talking about things you dont really care about..haha..yup..gonna go now..catch yall soon hunss jag alskar dig

yoyoyo..its 2am cant sleeeeeeep damnitttt. al green rocks ma socks damnit! humhumhum..i miss someone :(. mahal kita

heylos..today my outfit was totally ^punker mannn..miehehe.all hot pink and black..anyway..snoozed till like 1pm..then we all went out to montre park to eat...ended up eating vietnamese food..and then we went to Petmart for fun..was looking all around for the snakes..but they didnt have snakes!!! damnit. i wanted to get a crocodile gecko..but everyoe else thought it was so nasty. fuckit. then we went to target..then me and my sister went to wash our hair..my sister did hers curly while mine was poker straight..i miss having straight hair. :(.ook yeah...i have straight hair..tts cuz i rebonded it.. but its growing out naturally curly again.. damnit. i neeeeed to rebond my hair again when i get back..which is in like another 2 weeks or soso..

note to self:
-rebond hair when i go back
-buy my Cole Haan bag
-finish buying christmas presents.. (yeahyeah i know christmas is over..)
-go to abercrombie and buy more offems coolass shirts
-buy new Converse high-top black and pinks
-order Dashboard confessional messenger bag for sch
-order rock steady ring
-confirm Pacsun shirts

yup thats about it for now

wasshhhuuuppp ma niggass!? im sudddenly on the kick listening to Al Green and Frank Sinatra..yep. tts just mee...o0o i love "baby its cold outside"..its such a cool song..damnit. well tts it actually..besides tt we went out for dinner with the quee family..yupyup.. cant wait to get back to singapore amore

just ate lunch..its about 3pm here..me dad mom and tits went to farmers market..but before tt me and mom went to pick some stuff up and buy her things..damnit. people were staring at me all wierd cuz my pjamees were like pink white red and orange stripes hahahah..anywayy..ooh yeah last night after we ate javaneese food..we walked out of the restaurant and the wind was sooo strong.. they had this board on the roads to advertise..and the wind kept blowing it away..hahaha..so my dad tried to stop it but it blew onto the street and broke into 2...hahahhahaa..damnit. my sisters such a bitch goddamnit..she acts like a freaking 7 year old..arent older sisters supossed to be the cooler understanding matured ones? maybe she was spossed to be born last damnit. -beatriz te quiero baby

heyhoo again dearies..im dead bored.its stilll like 10 or something here..ive been up for 6 hours damnit.im using my dads laptop in his room and damnit the words are like teenytiny i have to squint to look at the words..and i wonder how he sees cuz my dad is like.. half blind.. hahhaa..oh yeah.. damnit id i mention tt my sister and my brother saw shaquille oneal? DAMN YOU IF YOU DONT KNOW WHO HE IS! hes like the coolest basketball player ever..his house is hhuuggee..he has to drive around his garden just to get to another part of the house! haha..oh yeah..my sister met cameron diaz too! aqnd yesterday we went to bloomingdales..and sarah jessica parker walked past me! yep she was pregnant again damnit. shit. i keep saying damnit. kayy im going to attempt rapping

when i move you move..just like that?
when i move you move..just like that?
(one more time)
HELL YEAH HEY DJ, BRING THAT BACK

how you aint gonna fuck, bitch out me
im the goddamn reason you in VIP
ceo, you dont needa see ID
im young, wild and strapped like G ALI
BLEUGH! we aint got nothin to worry about
whoopass..let security carry em out
watch out for my medallion, my diamonds are reckless
feels like a modget is hanging from my necklace
i pull up, with a million trucks..looking smelling feeling like a million bucks-AH!
pass the bottle, the heat is on
we in the huddle all smoking tt chee an chong
whats wrong with the clubs and the movies boy?
im just looking for a thick young lady to pull.
one sure shot way to gettim outta yer pants
take note to the brand new dance, like this


MIEHEHE. o0o tt feels good. hahha. wtf. me and mom are gonna go to farmers market in awhile...im still in my pjammies..but im just gonna go out inem cuz its AMERICA BABY..noone gives a fuck. haha...goingsta buy ma fresh STRAWBERRIES ..hehhe. hahhaa omg.. my dad just started dancing to this nastyass jazz music..hahahhahaha whheeehhaha

heyhoo huns!!! urgh. its 9am here..ive been up since 4 watching the sunrise..so romanticcc! kk i dont know in wha tway tt was romantic but ...haha ok nvm. anyhoo..last night was the first time since i came here tt i bought something.. miehehe..bought another corset..im suddenly crazy over corsets! damnit. theyre so cool. anyhoo yesterday we wento to play tennis..and it was damn fucking freaking cold goddamnit.

yknow..im so overly psyched about sas..but at the same time.. i wish i had gone to monks hill instead..dunno why. its probly cuz im just too used to local sch and im not used to the diea of international sch .. -yet. hot american guysss!!!!! LOL. hey, i gotta have SOMETHING to look forward to.. hahaha. juls is being a nigger..haha... heard tt you stupid nigger....hahhaa..damnit i miss everybodayeeee :(:(. DAMNIT.
te quiero

i see the sleigh bells ringading dingdingdingalingdingg.
ok i dont know the words...woke up at 8am this morning..surpriseee! hehe. called juls and talked for about an hour..oh last night my sister saw a freaking rat downstairs..and everyone was sleeping upstairs cuz it was like 1am..but we didnt see it again..so its probly living in the guestrooms toilet or something haaha. me my dad and my aunt went to play tennis this morning too...but it was too sunny we could hardly see..yet i was freezing..haha.damnit. so we left after awhile and me and my dad went to the supermarket..damn cold too..then we came home and i had this bad stomachache so i went to sleep.and i had to come down to eat lunch..my dad just made this wierdass lemon sorbet..with mango puree onnit. yeah, my dad cooks. haha. [i can see the look on your face]. except when hes experimenting chilli sauce with orange juice..hahaha.. wonder what schs like..humhumhum. ....?.cant wait to go *beep* my *beep* miehehe. MIEhehehehe..im so happy...dunno whyyyYyY..hahaa have you ever heard of someone lying down to sleep..and when tt person hasnt even touched the pillow..hes already asleep? HAHAHA. yeah tts my dad.. hahahhahaha.. hes such a freaking ..freak. hahahaa. anyhooo. gonna catch my ZZzzZZzs now. see ya around chicas
aloha wau ia oi

yeah. i had to go..we ended up watching cheaper by the dozen..then went to get icecream after tt..tt movies pretty damn funny..but at one point when the dad found the kid tt ran away in a subway station i started crying..i mean not tt bad but..yeah you get my drift. haiz..i slept at 6am this morning..cuz the room was too hot and the radio was too loud..so i woke up at 3pm..yeapp.i dont exactly really have anything to sya. im just boredd..i hate christmas here.

REBECCA CHEONG YOU DO MYMYMYMYMY TRADEMARK EVER AGAIN I WILL MAKE SURE YOU TITS ARE IN VERTED!! MUDDAMUDDASCREWYOU whoooo. anywayy..actually i didnt really mind going to monkshill i can tell you..cuz i was thinking of studying harder..and get to the top of express students..which is gonna be so easy cuz theres oly 1 class of express 1 class normal..then i can get a higher chance of appealing out ..righttt? haiz. but nvm..cuz im not gonna go to local sch anymore..weeehahahha!! my freaking roaming hasnt been activated so i cant sms anyone yetttt...! whalanehhh! (ahlian talk) haha..anyhoo its christmas and we're doing nothing..as usual..like..every year we end up driving around on christmas eve looking for a place tts open for dinner..and then on christmas we always tay at home..the whole family not together..uurghhh. it wouldve been so much better if we just went back every christmas..not tt i hate LA or anything..but christmas and new year here is the most boringest thing ever..cuz noones here..haizz..anyhoo gonna go nowws..

!

whoo! okkk i arrived here like a few hours ago..lost track of time cuz i fell asleep.whooopss.anyhoo its still christmas eve evening nows..haha..urgh..my sisters sleeping too..dad and my brother are either sleeping or out..my mom is with her sister cooking. damnit.im hungry..friendster is all jacked up. damnit. im gonna go eat something..ciaoo.. -beatriz

ps. yoyo everybodayee gonna miss ya'll bitches aiights. call me sometime we HAVE to hang out more often..je t'aime amore

omgomgomgomgomg..in a huuggee rush..im going back to LA..coming back on the 5th..cuz im going to SAS!!!!!!...totally random..my mom rushed into my room at 6 in the morning..told me to get my ass outta bed and pack cuz the flight was in 3 hours..damnit! im still kinda dissapointed about not seeing my friends for christmas and new year...but haizz..but ill be seeing you guys soon i hope. xoxoxbeatriz

i think this is the greatest song ever..

I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

yayy. bought my dress today..i actually wanted a pink satin one..but everyone said i looked fat innit. :(. its just a black dress from Guess..with a lil lace above the v-neck boobs. ok nvm i dunno how to describe..haha..but. yeah. walked around paragon with my mom after eating....and my heels were SO killing me..the worsest pair of shoes ive even worn...anyway...then we went my aunt and my cousins came.. then we went to dfs..and pinky was there..didnt buy anything tho..haiz. not exactly in the mood to shop.. but i wanted a diamond butterfly ring..which is so damnnassed cool..but its 22000++ bucks mann! yeah..you read it right.. twenty two thousand++..haiz..

oh yeah wanted a bvlgari wallet..and a burberry.. but..i think the prada ones better. damnit. shit the perfumes giving me allergy..perfumes are so cool!!!! i tested so many perfumes but they all smelled like shit..except still jlo but my senses are kinda dead today..and my nose is so itchy omfg...friendsters all jacked up.. asking me to sign in again every 30 seconds..urghHhH.itchy itchy itchy..gonne go next weekened to pierce my BEEEEP! and now my uniforms not so see through..hehehe. PRO liao...oh the uni skirt is like so damn long..im gonna change the uni upside down..gonna wear the shirt tucked out..folded up sleeves..shorten the skirt and turn it into a MINISKIRT..hahahaha..and wear skateboarding shoes...hehehe. so cute righhtt? muahaha. yepyep. might as well have fun while doing what i wanna do for once right ? and hopefully theyre not a every strict sch..yupyupp. haizzz. my eyes are swelling up..omg i hate perfume.............! ciaoo -beatriz ich liebe dich

things went pretttyyy bad today..went to monks hill in the morning..well ill admit..im getting a lil used to the idea of going to sch there..but i guess i just didnt want to go ther cuz i wanted to be with my friends. yepp.and ruis mom was nice enough to come with us.. yupyupp. anyhoo..then after registrating..we went to see st. margs..saw stephanie there but didnt get the chance to talk to her..but i got there and told my mom i really didnt want to go to st. margs..so we went to chij tao payoh..but my mom didnt like it. haiz. i mean..she wants to pt me in a girls sch..so i said chij..but she said monks hill is better.so what to do?! and now at the rate we're going i guess we're not going back to LA anymore. damnit. i left most of my clothes there. yeah and then we went to MOE cuz my english peper..i remembered i shaded 5 questions wrong but its correct on the question paper..kayy tt was very confusing i know..but they said its too late to check the papers..cuz there was a short periood where we were allowed to check our psle papers in sch.. but ms heng never told us about it..whalao..so we couldnt do anything..haiz.

yepp. so tmr we're gonna have to get my monkshill uni..and my books.blablabladeeblabla. hur..todays juls bday..but i feel so bad cuz i dunno wether i can go out withem..

yup ok cant. moms being a total fucker..she doesnt have what i takes to be a fucking understanding parent mann..she doesnt understand anything. cuz shes a fucking loner with no friends.yeah im so bad. but hey. too badd.. making me so frustrated.blaming everything on me.. ok yeah its partially my fault.. but if she put a better sch than monks hill then it wouldve been so much better right? at elast i wouldnt have to worry so muchh. gurghh. wtvr. gonna go... lock myself in my room. maybe ill try something new..like. suicide.

its nerve-wrecking..im sittting here thinking.whats sch gonna be like from now on..everyones gone..urgh.its unexplainable.like..just. yeah. cant imagine anything else....its so fucked up seriously..my mom thinks ms heng didnt want to take me back..but i dont know..im not sure if im even willing to study harder or make an effort myself..because in situations like this i just dont care. then in the end i regret. regret.regret.

well..yesterday after sch..we ha juls cake..happy bday juls btw, then everyone came back to my house..jia,juls,hannah,rui,mei ping,elissa,jazreel, jia en, germaine baby,pei hui..yeahh..and jia ate like 14 packets of my cornnuts i swear..then everyone left..so me rui hannah juls and jia lazed around and we decided to go for lunch..so we went to cine and ate yoshinoya..then went to heeren..left after awhile..yeapp.oh last night i was talking to shaun for like 3 hours..jeez. my bills gonna be no just a bomb..a killer bomb...damnit.in the last 6 days ive been talking for 8 hours already..damn. haiz. ah well. gotta enjoy my friends before theyre gone huh? yeapp. anyway. we're about to leave. nervousnervousnervous..my stomach feels like its all wrenched up inside..urghhHh.

im upset. extremely.

lets just say from now on im a monkshillian. how bad is that? i mean fucking hell..i had all my hopes up for sc..and now it comes shattering down..urgh. tts it. my life is just. urghh.

i regret everything..regret not studying and everything..regret not caring about psle..urgh. sucks. im dissapointing everybody.. this feels extremely bad. it was worse when my mom started crying. ok tt was BAD . urghh. what if everyone theres an ah lian? what if i get raped.? what if everyone turns out to be bitches....???????!?!??!?!!!!!!!!!!!!"2;'2pw;ikegl dds kfglkdr.

my mind is just going crazy. i need by questions to be answered. imm going out of my mind. i need some answers. i need to hold on to my pride..but its gone..to tt one markk..its just.... gone

just came back from sch.. after being there for like..3 whole minutes..woohoo! record. anyway.. my mom made me go cuz she was too out of her head to find out the results..but ms heng said she couldnt tell her even if she knew..so. obviously the results hadnt got in yet...yknow ms heng has this black patch on her face and she tris to cover it with so much makeup..its becomes all.. pasty and..just gross.

[shudderr]

veryvery nervousss! hahaha on friendsteer..damn you should read natashas testimonial..to me..hahaha..she said i was insane and completely crazy....HUH!!! ok yeah tts true...hahaha..cuz this lifes too powerful..to let it go..or something lydat..nelly furtado has the most amazing-est eyes..one greeen one bluee!!! soo cooool! oh yeah this morning i woke up at like 5ish and i started writing testimonials for people..i wrote like..5 or 6..hey its hard work thinking of what to say...haha..hahahahah.haiz. there i go again.. wrote one for ...peter..rhea..judy..natasha..ezra..danielle..derrek....whoa man..7..hahabwahahhaha. haiz. im insaneee!!!!! kayy byebyeee! so nervous im gonna pass out...oh yeah i feel like going..dancing, karaoke-ing, dancing,dancing,puking,running, shopping, weeeeeahahahaha -beatriz

woke up at like 3am.. mom came back from america..haiz. feeling so tired..ive been sitting her since 8..and its 11..shit its 11 already.......! damnit. i rather have mom NOT here. she takes over everything. haizz...whatever lahhhs. eeeep! i said whateverrrr!....did i mention i hate people who say whatever. sheesh. anywayyys...friendster is so slow. jesus. i need to eat manNnnn. haiz... tomorrows posting day!!!!! damnit. what time to go? haiz. gonna go now. -beatriz

just a quick update before i go up to sleep again..damn jetlag. went to eat lunch with dad at funan.. had thai.. and it was so hot i started crying.. hahahhaha. funnyfunny..went to pick bec and mel up..went to cine..wanted to watch a movie but was all wierd times..and we missed the lido one by 20 minutes.. so we walked around.. did starshots.. pretty cool..turned out kinda good..but we had to wait 45 minutes so we walked around again..mel bought this extra cool dice lighter for titss christmas pres..anyway..after tt walked to heeren.. saw shumei.. and i walked over and was like "hey i saw you on the 17 cover" and she just smiled and didnt say anything.. so i was like.. righhhhtt. and i just saidd bye and walked away..haha.yeahh. tabi mustve twacked her head up. went to heeren..and went to the piercing place..thought about it..but needed ID..so couldnt do it.. and sat down at spinellis talking..i look kinda gross today.haiz. i look like a japanese wannabe.. not intentionally..haiz..OH! i wanna go to the sentosa countdown party 2004..its lik 31st 9pm..till 7am on new years day or something..theres gonna be a foam party and fireworks and everything.. but im only gonna be able to go if my cousins go i bet. HUH!. tickets are 25 bucks..anyhoo exhausteddd!!! ciao -beatriz

im so crapped out. no energy. urghh. went for tennis training..3 hours of exhaustion and slavery. haiz. got jing xuan and jillians number..and there was this new p6 girl from nan hua..which means shes obviously going to SC next year.. and the 2 whatever-their-names-are people came.. and theyre part of the group tts gonna decide whether i can go back to SC or not. haizz. so i took out my earrings and dumped it on the floor.. but i forgot to erase my black nail polish......! 2 days. 2days. 2 days. im scaredddd. and screwed. eeeee! sheeeeesh. i need water..my thigh muscles are throbbing. theyre aching. they hurt. they suck. ..oh and this moron of a bec got 2 abs before meee! assshole.


thinking of what to do today.

whoo. went to united square to meet mel and bec again..im under fricken house arrest!!!!!!! nnnooooo. sheesh. i can only go out with my cousins. so i might as well yah? haha they got so offended.. they think of themselves as my last resort.. hehehe. cant sleep..been up since 4.. rui fell asleep on meee...so now im bumming around. with friendster..im so boreddd. sheesh i haven said tt in a long time huh..sighh gonna go now.. ciao -beatriz

when the going gets tough...

GO SCREW YOURSELF MUTHAFUCKA!
haha...just felt like saying tt..haizz..this entry is just to vent..so you dont have to read it cuz youre gonna find it boring but here goes..


cant help it...but..tt song keeps reminding me of him.. sighh..no wait.. its not even a song... its a fucking RINGTONE!..how fucking lame is tt? cant stop myself from thinking about him when i hear Espionage...a ringtone..how can a ringtone control my thoughts?

its wierd isnt it? how i used to think he was my everything...he was my secret.

but now its nothing. an evanessence. a wonder.

but its over now. i dont want to force myself to think of it...but i just do...i cant stop myself..no matter how hard i try...keep thinking..then i remember..about all the times he was a betraying little fuckface. but whats done is done..nothings changed. it wont ever.

why does everything happen to me? when i think my life is perfect because of the privileges i get to being beatrice ding hui qi...my life comes sinking down..below my feet..below existence. my life can never be perfect. ive done so much wrong..so much to dissapoint..so much to laugh about.. so much to cry about.

im caught in the middle

i got out a new notebook..[yes, i have many cuz i collect them].. and i started writing out all my feelings..it was pretty cool to be reading i complete sentences what was all mixed up in your head...sometimes..i cant understand life at all..cant understand other people..and the way they think. tts why they say everyone is different..what would you be doing..? if you thought you werent..attractive enough...or funny enough..or popular..or enough to be somebody? youd think life was a mistake..tt you belonged somewhere else.

how can people think like tt? ok ill be honest..i do tt to.. but god didnt create people to let them think of themselves as an ugly piece of nothing...right?..............right? then youd start cutting yourself..or abusing your mind. and drugs? yknow..if it wasnt for the anti-drug...half the people doing drugs right now wouldnt know what new types to try..right? like the commercials will say... "cocaine isnt good for you... support the anti-drug campaign" or something.. and the person... if, for example didnt know what cocaine was.. he would know now.. and hed try it...its just dumb..somethings work....just not how people plan it..

and some people are so self absorbed..youd wonder how they made it a point to think about other people..the world is just....shmucked up...

ok enough of my pschology shit.. now about my personal life....
my grandparents.. are so...urgh. my grandad put me on house arrest..my grandma calls me every 5 minutes to check if im still at home..my sister left for LA this morning...my grandparents are in malaysia..my bro and mom are in LA.. and my dads at work... my moms coming back on sunday...joyy. the playboy bunny is really cute..its so fun to draw haha.. oh at guitar center did i mention i saw the playboy gibsons? theyre so extra superduper cool..me and rui were talking again just now.. she asked me to guess what she got me for christmas..last year she got me nipple warmers from new zealand. HAHA..yeah..and no, i dont use them.. ;) haha..yeah i dont.. i feel like going dancing ..time to get sexaye..sweaty bodies up against mine..feeling the groove..the beat of the song..
yup.
but not now -`*beatriz

heya! IM BA-ACK!..hehehe...know you missed me *thankyou,thankyou* ..haha...i came back by myself!!! so proud of me.. haizz.. hahaa. had jetlag...so i woke up at like 230..and talked to rui and julie till 5am...! lols.. then julie had to go.. so me and rui talked for another hour..i neeed to go out...i miss orchard... :((...its my baby..

i wanna do so many things..but dont have the time.. anyhoo.. yesterday arrived at noon...went home then after i took a shower i went to paragon to meet bec mel and michelle gg.. im now officially her maid. .... haha yeah..ate lunch and walked around.. i finally bought my bras... MUAHAHA. oh yeah in las vegas.. we were on the way there.. and my brother was driving.. and halfway we stopped to get gas.. and when he got off the seat.. there was a chicken bone on the seat... hahahahahhaa... we were like wtf who ate chicken? but noone did.. and tt was seriously damn frikken scary...anyway..im gonna go get some breakfast.. i havent ate for...20 hours.....! -beatriz

barabubabuhh...im lovin it
k nvm tt was lameee... anyhoo.. im in las vegas nowss! but damnassed boring.. cuz the resort has NOONE! its deserted mann.. cuz its the week before christmas so theres not alot of people...haiz. yeah anyway.. yesterday we drove up here in the morning.. took 6 hours..and we stopped at the outlet malls on the way.. didnt really buy anything..yeapp..then we arrived at Caesers palace..shit i have no fucking idea hoow to spell tt word...

yeah then we watched celine dions concert thingy at 8.. its was pretty cool actually.. they have WINGS! the dancers.. yeahh..oh then haha after tt me and brother went back up to the room...and on the way to the room he hit me.. so i used my plastic bag to hit him back...and hit him on the face.. then tt idiot ran and locked me out of the room..and didnt want to open it for 5 minutes...i was so goddamn pissed...and i was banging on the door and shouting and the room next door was like complaining...and this old couple was staring..then after he let me in i was like wtf is your problem.. and i started punching him.. so he punched me back.. and i was like wtf grow up fucker..and i walked out of the room.. hes a seriously big jerk.. haiz whatever anyway..this m.orning we went to this mall..and i bought 2 pairs of tightass shoes! from zara and joey..they have zara in las vegas! damn. ... yeahh..and today we came to ritz carlton resort.. which is so fucking boring i can kill myself..theres alotta shops in this italian-lookalike village... but theyre all empty.. HAHA. yeahh..tmr we're driving back to LA!! woohoo. but im going back to singapore tmr night so.. yeahh.. cant wait! then after christmas were coming back to LA.. damnn..

DASHBOARD CONFESSIONALLLLLLLL!!!!!!!! theyre so yum.. the singers so hot.. damnit. im gonna go now..-beatriz*miss all of youuuuuuu!

heyas. its saturday afternn heres..havent been doing much lately.. bumming around..sleeping..haiz..wel tmr we're gonna drive up to las vegas...hehe.oh but bummer.. i dunno how im gonna get back to singapore!the flights are all full..and it takes 2 days to get back.. and i have a week to get to posting day! damn. ah well. then too bad. yknow its really sad here cuz on every street.. theres a homeless person sleeping on the ground.. yeah its really saddd..haiz.

its the first time ever.. and i actually miss singapore..miss my friends..my dogs.. my house..girls night outs... haiz. everyone else is having fun in singapore while im stuck here washing dishes and crapping around. and the worst part.. after posting day. (if i even get back in time).. on the 24th im gonna have to come back here for another week.. tt means ill be spending christmas on the fucking plane!!! how gay is tt? im so fuckstrated. ok frustrated. my moms so ridicolous. she hates me. she literally wants to see me die and go to hell...not tt i dont mind being away from her... but i rather see her suffer.. then die . like maybe i can put her on a bed with plugs attached to her mouth.. for a month. muahah. whoops shes back.. see ya soons -beatriz

rudolph the red nose reindeer..had a very shiny nose..

haha im in the christmas-sy mood right now..cuz i just watched Elf with my brother.. HAHa damn its a goodassed movie..i was laughing so bad..yeah you can imagine tt huh. haha yeahh..yesterday me and my mom went to Urth cafe again.. had brunch.. cuz i woke up at lunchtime again.. and my brother went driving again.. yeah so i just ate a bagel and got so totally pissed with my mom.. i mean seriously..she never lets me make my own decisions.. which im old enough to..and she never takes no for an answer.. which is totally annoying..then we went home for awhile.. my brother came back.. and we went to play tennis in the evening.. and it was so cold and i was there standing in my thin mini skirt..haiz. yeah before we left i got into another huge fight with my mom. a real dumb one. i didnt bring my tennis shoes.. so i told her..and she totally lashes out on me.. like "WELL THEN GO FIND ONE!" i was like.."jeez chill..where am i spossed to find any tennis shoes?" and shes like "WELL TTS WHY IM ASKING YOU TO GO FIND ONE!" i was like "damn..fine..stop shouting ..sheesh" and she looks at me all pissed and shit.. what the hell man i was just telling you i had no shoes.. so i go to the back and i find one pair of shoes..bring it to her and say "are these tennis shoes?" shes like "NO! THERES ANOTHER PAIR!" i was like no. and shes like "THEN GO UP AND FIND ONE!" blablabla.. damnn. shes got serious shouting problems.. maybe shes like menopausal or something.. haiz. whatever. anyway. OHYEAH my god.. my maid found out my dog was pregnant.. like 7weeks pregnant.. damnn. anywayy.. they took the baby out of her stomach cuz she wouldve died if they gave birth to them. damn i miss jellybean. yes, jellybean is her name if you dont know. haha..i dunno..my dad said he wanted tt to be her name cuz she kept jumping up and down........? my dads kinda loose in the head anyway so...yeahh. im freezing my butt off.. ciao -beatriz

wassup homieeez.. haha..did i forget to say tt we saw simon cowell and tt woman diane something from the jlo movie.. damn.. if you live in LA youll see like at least 3 stars in a month..which is so cool ainit? yeah anyway..we went to westside pavilion last night but we had 30min till the shops closed.. so tt sucked..anyway i was looking at the C4s in the vans store..damnnn theyre tighhttt..but i was broke so i went out looking for my mom and my brother but i couldnt find them so i walked around till everything closed..oh bought some presents in ltd*too.. hannah youre gonna like your undies. hahass.. yeapp.. then i saw my mom and i got screwed cuz she couldnt find me and my brother went to look for me.. haiz. anyhoo today we went to Melrose again.. me and my brother walked up and down the streets..bought some shit but some stores just smelled so bad we had to walk out.. and after tt we realized they were 2nd hand shops.. damnnn..yo ill blog tmr morning.. im tired as hell -beatriz

yoyo everybodayeee! its sunday noon here...we just went to the farmers market again.. bought some fresh strawberries and honey and stuff. YUMMM! anywayy..on friday night me and my brother went to watch Honey.. OMG its fucking good.. the music was so cool i wanted to stand up and dance...! haha.. anyway. yeah its really cool and jessica alba is so purtyy..shes hot as hell yeah then we went to eat dinner in hollywood.. drove up and ate thai food.. there was these singers and haha one of them was elvis.. like with the shining stuff going on...haha and 20inch high platformss.. lols. yeapp.. then yesterdayy.. we went to ...where? urmm oh yeah we went . oh shit i forgot. well last night we went to bayside.. and i bought some cool shit in american eagle oufitters.. damnnn i miss shopping in LA. theres so much more shiet .. american eagle..abercrombie..von dutch..pacsun..vans...GURGH. i wanna live here mann.. whats the point of having a house here when you only stay in it half a year? and everytime we come.. either the house or the cars or something needs to be fixed..something always needs to be fixed..

haiz. whateverrrss...yeahh oh my brothers always crypt walking.. so the other day he bought a tape on c walking.. and after tt he didnt dare to crypt walk in public again cuz the tape said if you crypt walk in america.. you might get shot.. hahhhaha.. cuz every gang in america has a different style.. LOLS. yeah so now he chickened out. OH YEAH when we washed the car the other day i drove it! hahas. yeah for like.. 20 seconds. lol. cuz my bro was too scared id get caught by my mom or id crash. yeahhh. hrms. ah wells. tata fer nowws! -beatriz*te quiero

heyys finally went to lawrys last night! yumm..OH and the waitress thought my nails were cute! MUAHAHAHA hot pink and black ... anywayy we drove all the way to burbank/vannuys just to eat krispie kreme! so good..bought a dozen.. and 3of us sat there eating and when we were leaving we bought another dozen to eat tmr morning.. haha..oh yeahh the scariest thing happened today.. we were on the way back home after breakfast.. and then we were at a traffic light.. and there was this car which was like.. slanted halfway on 2 lanes..then we saw this policeman on the side and a lady like really reall frantic..then we looked inside the car and the old lady tt was sitting next to the lady was dead in the car.. jesus tts so scary...i mean like.. imagine youre driving with your mother and she suddenly dies right next to you in a freaking car... damnnn. anywayy. shit i just freaked myself out.. anywayy.. yeah then we came back home and me and my brother washed the new car.. OH YEAH did i forget to say tt last night we were locked outta the house? yeahh. my mom left the key inside and she closed the door.. and she already put the alarm on and everything.. so my brother drove us down century city to a locksmith.. so we went back and the locksmith guy came..and he had to drill open the door.....haha yeah. jesus yknow when he bent down.. i was standing behind him.. mann you could see his fucking asscrack..i was like..damn..yeahh. it was fucking cold and i had to stand there for like 20 minutes or half an hour yeah it doesnt sound tt long but sheesh when you stand out there it fucking freezes your boobs. um. yeahh. anywayy.. i think we're gonna go down to century city to watch Honey. YEAH! -beatriz

woohoo got my lowdunks!

hehehe..pink and brown yo! miehehehehe. anywayy..yknow i hate my habit of saying 'jesus christ'...cuz everytime my mom does something stupid wihch is pretty often i always shout 'JESUS CHRIST WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM??' haha.. then i start laughing.. and people start staring cuz theyre probly offended...and theyre christians...oh.. even worse..staunch christians ...uhm hmm. anyway..yeah my brother managed to get his driving permit today.. like.. after another 4 hours of waiting...yeah hes happy.. acting like a retard laughing more than usual..but anyway we went to the grove yesterday.. bought some cool shirts.. PINK AND BLACK! haha..MUAhahahahhaa..hahahha... yeahhHh. kinda losing it now...ate apple pan for dinner last night! yumyum.. the guy like... always remembers our family cuz my parents have been going there fer like...15 years.. before i was born.. cool huh? haha..yeahh...went to melrose today..bought a van dutch cap! woohoo. then my brother stole it. they had some cool shit but they were all like 40us for one friggin shirt so i didnt get anything.. tts like.. 80bucks sing for one? yeah about there. damn.

o0o i love the commercials here..theyre so damn funny.. haha.. anyway..then we went to the supermarket... my brother thought he saw seth.. seth coen. tennis camp. totally hot but totally short. HAHA. tt sounded jacked up.. but yeahh..then we went to Urth cafe... saw tt actor... urmMm. the black actor..forgot his name.. yeahh Urth cafe always has all these celebrities going there.. cooool huh. then went to buy lowdunks! yayyyyYyYyy. cool shiet. OH but i was gonna buy my black and pink vans damnit. nevermind. ill have both! woohoo. im on this WOOHOO roll now. oh shit. i think my brother just drove the car out with my mom. damnit. without me. damnit. -beatriz*

LOL went to disneyland yesterdayyy!!! hahaha..damn funn!..yeappPp...went with tits and kat..lol we went to pick kat and her mom up at the hotel.. and halfway my mom ate some mints.. and shes all like "ew i dont wanna smell like toothpaste" so she opened my window.. and jesus..the window couldnt even close.. and i was fucking cold ahh..kayy anyhoo we went fer lunch... then went back home and we went to disneyland! haha.. the ride there took like a fricken hour.. we used to go there like all the time when we were young.. then we kinda outgrew it.. but it was SO fun..we took the rollercoaster like so many times...sat right in front the last time on tt ride.. and christ.. after we got off i couldnt feel my face... hahahaha...it was so fucking cold..yeahh... i wanted to buy my big Nemo.. and my wierd hat.. but i didnt wanna walk all the way backk..cuz the last ride we took.. was this water ride.. and we didnt know we were gonna get that wet..haha..sheesh my pants were all soaked..CHURROS!! gahhHhH...yumyum.

went there fer like...6hours..but it was too dark and cold..so we came back home..oh and bought those lollipops.. yknow the swirlyswirly ones? haha yeahh..tittys bought the bigass one..cuz he liked the color haha yeahh then all of us wanted to go to pinks.. but the line was so super extra long..so we went to this japanese restaurant..oh yeah today was such a waste of time.. we went to DMV.. my brother was gonna take his written test for his drivers permit.. waited 30min in line for a queue number.. then the lady said itd take another 3 hours to reach his queue number...sheesh so we went to eat lunch at this small ribs place...yumMMm...cornbreads good.. anywayy..then we went back to dmv..and my mom just HAD to drive the car with the screwed up window..gahh so she made me sit in the car waiting for another hour..so i had to go to the newpaper stand to buy a fricken newspaper to read...then they came back and said tt he couldnt take it cuz my dad wasnt here to sign this shit dunno fuck..what the fuck right? whallaoooehh...haiz. so dumb. but ah well..so tmr my moms gonna try again. but its not gonna work anywayy so i dunno why the hell she bothers..

sheesh everyones getting new emails now im so confused..i dont know who they are...damnnNnn. i neeeeeddd to go shopppiinnngggggg. kayy im too cold..gonna go eat dinner -beatriz*missyall!*

HELLOWEEE!

damn. still cant believe im back..anyhoo0o yesterday we went to eat krispie kreme at century city fer breakfast.. YUMMMM! damn good.. its really nice doughnuts..anywayy...all 3 of us sat there eating doughnuts drinking coffee yumyummm then we went into macys..bought real cool initial things.. every shop almost is doing the initial thing.. they make shirts bags underwear everything with crystalled letters onnit.. whoo tt was confusing anywayy.. then went to abercrombie.. stuff aint tt nice anymore cuz its winter but bought a shirt saying LOVE MORE haha.. then we walked out and saw kat and her mom.. bellas sister.. and anywayy then we went to the supermarket... O0o0ooOo0o i lovveee the US supermarkets theyre so cool.. muahahah...yeahh then... TOFURKEY!!! lol... i kept saying tt over and over again yesterday cuz its so funny.. its like.. a vegetarian turkey.. made of tofu... HAHAHAHHAAHAHA. haha.. funny..yeahh then me and my mom went to do our nails.. did it BLACK AND HOT PINK bwahaha...but it looks pretty retarded cuz the whole nail is hot pink and the tip is black.. but i wanted black then hot pink at the tip.. but ah well..its still black and hot pink.....!!!!!! bwahaha.OH YEAH im wearing black and pink nowww! muahahhahaa. whooooOo having bad jetlag..fell asleep at the nail parlour yesterday and i couldnt wake up.. OOPS. haha..oh yeah did i forget to mention tt i saw jaz and jia at the mrt station before i left fer the airport? yeah i did.. my mom wanted me to go to popular to buy books to study over the hols.. so sad right? must do sec1 work on HOLIDAY MAN..but i wont do it i can tell you.. cuz she asks me to do 3 hours of work everytime i come.. but i never.. haha..cuz she doesnt even remember wtf... haha

mann theres such cool movies showing here... jessica alba's in Honey.. DAMN cool.. saw the trailer.. shes this dancer.. and the movie has all these cool dance routines...then Paul whatshisname from fast and furious in Timeline.. HES SO HOT.. and blablabla but i gotta go eat breakfast nowws! ciao -beatriz**

happy thanksgiving everybodayeee!!!

hees. just came back..and the radios playing adam sandlers thanksgiving song... "turkey...turkey..i love to eat turkey! yes, i love you too..turkey for me..turkey for you..lets eat the turkey in my big brown shoes! wrap turkey in aluminium foil.. my brother likes to add some baby oil.. turkey for the girls and turkey fer the boys..my favourite kinda pants are corduroys "

hahahaha...its funny shit.. anywayy, the flight was 20 hourssss! damnnn..haha watched a whole lotta movies....dickie roberts:former child star, how to deal, freaky friday ...damn i cant remember the rest.. anywayy, damnn its so good to be back here..its pretty cold too haha...but the house is pretty creepy cuz theres mouse traps like..everywhere..cuz we had this problem with rats..and they like..scratched our doors and everything so its pretty sick...i was too scared to go to the bathroom cuz the rat mightve jumped out and bit my ass.. LOL. haha yeahh..watching simpsons.. LA TV IS TIGHTTTTT..yeahh i like the commercials hahaha..kayy nvm im wierddd..anywayy, hannah and julie came to send me off at the airport.. they went to watch Duplex at 10 in the morning WITHOUT ME..went to plaza sing WITHOUT ME and took mrt to the airport WITHOUT ME ..hahaha..yeapp..i wont complain cuz they were sweet enough to even send me off.. i mean WHO would wanna send me off? ME? ME?!?!? hahahahhahaa...im being so damn lame. godd.. kayy anywayy, go check this out..yupPPpp.. gonna go nowws.. its like ermm..bout 815 nowws..KRISPY KREME! KOOKOOROO! LAWRYS! IN-N-OUT!! PINKS!!! muahaha...catch ya laterz! -beatriz

yoyoyo everybodayeee http://www.geocities.com/shefukkenlurves_me/shoutouts.html

not everythings done yet.. in a big rush.. gonna leave nowws! buaixz will update soon! -beatriz*love you!

i gotta tan!!!!
woohoooo. anyhoo. went fer tennis yesterdays...played for like eight hours...tiredd lahss..tts why i slept at like 830 last nightss..haha anywayy..played at east coast with the sch team..lol it was pretty funny cuz i was the youngest one there... so all the secondary girls were like..tooo nice and hyper..haha kayy anywayy...met alotta people too... ann marie,cheryl,jie zhen,jerusia,kelly,jing xuan,amanda,adelyn,shu mei and urgh all those others cant remember theyre names.. but ann marie was like reallyreally hyper..lol..she laughs soo much anywayy..we played a few games then a few of us walked to macs fer lunch..and it was by the beach!! hahass..

julie and jia you still owe me a trip to the beach

anywayy...after that we played more games...reminded me of tennis camp.. damn i wanna goo backkkk...haha yeah played 3 more games and after tt sat there eating apples haha...i realized everybody hates the coach.. cuz they find him an arrogant asshole.. i mean yeah he is haha but hes kinda nice...but heck..he shouts at everythingg..anywayy...after training... went to paragon to pick mom up and saw mong yi, stacey and vanessa...lols..yeahh..then went to ruis house.. cuz her mom wanted to give my mom some bibles.. LOL.. my mom..reading bibles?!?!? haha.after tt just went home showered and went to sleep..URgH.

in exactly 5 hours from now id be on the plane to LOS ANGELES BABY!!!woohooooo...yeapp leaving today.. sadd righttt? gurgh gonna miss everyone..but ill be coming back in 3 weeks..so dont be THAT sad.. lols jkjk..yeahh..my blogging inspiration is gonee... i have nothing to writeee... shitt. kayy wells see yaz soon babess! -beatriz*luvyoudears!*

t h i s i s m e

dunno where tt came from.. haha.. anyhooo..ally hannah jia and julie came over after lunch and we went to heeren at like 430ish and it took like a hella lonngggassed time to get there.. traffic was so ..like..huge.. haha.. anywayy..i bought icecream sandwich once i got there :) yyummm. oh man the sotong sticks and the curry puff from old chang kee are so seriously yum.. o0o now i want somee... hahass.. kayy anywayyy..we walked around abit.. took like 4 neoprints.. oh and something totally wierd happened.. i was like throwing away my drink before the last neoprint.. and once i turned back around this girl appeared behind me and she was like
"hello are those your friends?"
"urm yeah.."
"oh okayy..hello im stacy! you are?" *shaking my hands*
"urmM beatrice.. yeahh"
"oh okayy.. how old are you?"
"um twelve...?"
"okayy..are you a local?"
i was like no..
and she was like "oh okok. then. thanks. nvm. i.... mistook you for someone else"

LOL. madness. anyhoo.. then after tt we walked around again.. but me being broke [im the only one who goes out with ten bucks in their wallets] we walked to taka.. but i bought another icecream sandwich. [yumyum] ..haha and we sat on the stones stoning.. hahass.. yeahh.. then we hahaa.. ally put her sweatshirt on backwards.. so we made herput the hood on cuz it was in front and made her walk from the back of taka to the front.. hahahaha... bwahahhaha...yeahh.. OMG yeahh then ally and hannah were seeing who could stuff the most big marshmallows into their mouths... and ally opened her mouth real big after 7... and everything just totally regurgitated from her mouth into her hand.. it was disguisting.....then hannah was just gross cuz she chewed it all up.. and they both ate it back up from their hands.. fucking sickass people..yeahh...it was...urghhHh. SICK.anyhooo...tmrs have tennis camp... 9-3 at east coast.. thenn.. then what... either jia ally blabla or mong yi and the other p5s......lol.. tt p5 girl mong yi and stacey and shannen and vanessa are like... calling me everydayy... hahass. yeahhHhs.. tiredd. -beatriz*sexy is my middle name bwahaha*

Oh, it's so hot and I need some air
And boy, don't stop cause I'm halfway there

It's not complicated
We're too syncopated
We can read each other's minds
One love invited, two bodies sychronizin'
Don't even need to touch me, baby

Just
Breathe on me
Yeah, oh baby, just
Breathe on me
We don't need to touch just
Breathe


yeahh britney in da houssee. man how can such a good song be wasted on her.....cant sing for fuck..tt songs stuck in my headd...geee..celine came over to get her camera... gave me like 3 cards lol..anyhoooo juls and hannah coming over nowws. goingstabe going out..but whereEeEeeE? damnnn my mom gave me a bigass scolding about my supposedly bad attitude..and shes gonna ground me i think.. cuz she doesnt know tt theyre coming overr..oh we're leaving on thursday fer CALIFORNIA SEXXAYEE!

but im only gonna be there fer like.. 20 freakinn days cuz i have to come back fer the posting thing... damnNnN. scared..sighHhh. a babys gotta do what a babys gotta do.bwahaha. okayy i literalllyy have nothingg to sayy...but its the joyy of blogginnnggg. wahahaha. -beatrizz

hrmSsSs. tt kim wakerman woman my godddd. hahasss. it was prettyyyy funny shiet when anna forgot what to say..LOL. saw hwee li, hannah ally bernice ann charmaine izzie elissa kai ling and all... lolSsS. im shit brokeeeeee. whyyYYyyY. anyhooooo after tt went fer dinner at this wierd place.. got damn pissed at my mom so walked out with tits to coffee bean next door at like 1030ish. then chermaine and douglas camee...then val came and kelly just ran over and started strangling me. she smelled like. stuff. haas shes pretty .. loose. in the . never minddd. my key board is damn blardy conking on me...grrRrr. anyhoo. kelly damn farnee...she was complaining she didnt have any friends cuz she saw one of her church friends so she called out his name.. then she said hi..and he was standing there and was like "erRr. do i know you?" LOL. veryyy funnaaayyeee. she was all like... HUH! hahass. yeahh. i dunno larhSSsSs. im soo tirredddedd...blahh. then went home like...awhile laterss...WOOHOO im so happy with what i bought todayyyy... tho i wish i couldve got tt olive green halter which was DAMn BLARDY nice but noooooo i just had to be broke. GAH this fucking keyboard can go fuck me mann. -beatrizz*outrageous

today was pretty badddd. ms heng scolded me instead... bahh. "now, i want no more mobile phones, no more breaking of rules and no more bad company". yesyes. three guesses. ahHhH. omg yknow im so fucking pissed at my mom. i chose all my choices.. i agreed, my mom agreed..it was alll good. but nnnoooo. my mom just HAD to change them without me knowing. MONKS HILL. fucking blardyyy monks hill kayy. can you fucking believe. as FIRST CHOICE. URGH. and i have NO idea what the others are. fucking helloffa pissoff isnt it. yeahh. anywayy, fergeddit not gonna talk about it anymoree. then rachels mom over and told me not to worry cuz id have my friends support and everything...shes nice..known them fer like.. since kindergarten..! after tt...me, jia en , and hui fang were walking along the corridor going down.. and then saw hwee li, kim kan, stephanie and heem hian.. oh godd. it was real sadd. i told them i might not be going to chij withem anymore... since my mom changed everything.. and complained about monks hill.then kim kan started crying.. godd.. hugged her and she just couldnt stop crying.. then hwee li started crying...after i hugged her heem hian started crying.. damnNnnN. [dont worry babees ill call yall soon kayy? love yaz] ....anyhooo, after awhile they went to hand up the option form and i went back to the canteen..then said bye to jia en and everyone.... then went to macs at lido with xue hui, fush and rachel..lolllll realll funny...ate alott.. altogether we ordered like 6 meals or somethin... kayy anyway..after eating we walked around fer abit.. then walked to heeren... took some neoprints.. and wasted money on one of the machines cuz it SUCKS kayy. waste moneyyy.yeahh.. then i went to meet hannah.. and she gave me this reall extra nice cute cool tile..which she designed herself.. like with pics of us and stuff.. and she wrote stuff onnit. damnn nice. [thanks hannah].. then we went shopping!!..bout alottt... spent like.. 120++ hasss. officially broke nowss.. three bucks left.yeapp.

went to livia and both us bought friendship undies ... lol!!!!! also bought a pink tube fer the corset and a damnn nice toga!! hannah got the darker blue one but its not as nice. bwahahhaha i stole it first. thennn we found out we were dead broke... i had 11 bucks.. and she had...well she had enough for her stuff.. then i said to hannah "damn im hoping someone i know would just walk by so i can borrow money"... then she started laughing.. and jolyn chin appeared outside.. hahhahaha. was soo funnyy..hahass..so borrowed ten from her... yeahh.. went to 37degrees and bought 3 shirts... one fer yvonnes bday present..bought temporary red hairdye and this really nice eyeshadow set from basicbeauty.. and we got the heer card!~.got some free shit too..bwahaha. yeahh..bought one pair of damn nice platform shoes..those ones with the laces tt you tie around your upper ankle .... YUM!..thennn bought ermmmMmmmM...yeahh. i cant remember.. hahass.then ally came ... and we went to eat crepesandcream.... chocolate fudge sundaeee yumyumm..after tt walked around fer awhile again and went back home cuz i was like.. about to leak right there and thenn hahahass.. ;) OH which reminds me...last night.. went with my whole family to eat this chilli crab thing at east coast... and after tt...i stood up.. and my whole damn skirt was ALLLLLLL blood... damnnn embarassing... noone really saw.. but it was a hella lot...haass. ooops.yeapp.. then ..yeahhh gonna go noww.. gonna watch anna on gao xiao xing dong nowss! vote fer herr!~ -beatriz*

veryveryyyy hungryyyy. waitinggg to go out fer dinnerrr.. anyhoooo..my moms starting to think im like this screwed up depressed child cuz i used to go out everyday but since yesterday ive been locking myself in my room crying and all tt shitt and i dont wanna go out anymore... hahass yeahhh.. oh i went out fer lunch today.. surprisesurprise.....accomplishment ehh? hahasss. yeahhh. went to this restaurant with my family but there was a long queue [yeahh i had to ask someone to help me spell it] so we went to this other place and decided to da-bao [lol] back home cuz my mom had this reddish pinkish stain on her butt and i thought it was period but when after we bought dinner and went home it turned out to be pen ink...lollllsssss. im back to my own self..hahahhha.as you can tell. cuz im laughing way too much again... waahha. yeappp. was watching the mtv europe awards when i was eating...it kind sucked..christina aguilera talks so retardeddd..and tt purple thing and tt silver shit on her head was just spazzed. and britney spears [in the zone] kinda sucks....like theres 2 good songs outta 14..badddddd. badbadbadbadbad. anyhooo. sleepings funnn :). slept this whole afternn again... shheeesh.. gahHhhhHH. have to go to sch at 8..then after tt tennis training till 11...gahhHHhhhhhhHh. -`*beatriz *im gonna miss all of youuu trueluffneverdies*

cheered up abit..thanks to everyone..ill thankem in awhile...i think ive beaten everyones record fer crying the most number of time in a day... 14!!..yeah you can imagine how swollen my eyes are..anyhooo [what a cool word] haha..after much slacking around..when to starbucks..bought my caramel frappy and oreo cheesecake and here i am now eattiinng bwahahha. sighh...kayy i shall go on to thanking all you babys! :))

thanks to those cheered me up and everything..messaging me to ask if i was ok and stuff... germaine [my whore!!! luff yazz! never gonna forgive you fer makin me cry..hahass] + jessie [see yaz in guitar soon kayy] + hannah + shu ying + rhea + hwee li [nvm hwee, youll be with the others kayy? cheer up dearr] + stephanie + jazreel + izzy + beverly + celine + van seah + heem hian + xue hui + kimkan + jia jun + bernice leong + bernice lim + especially rui [thanks dear luff ya foreversss kayy?] + julieeeee [love yazz baby] + jia en + anna + kelly + rachel and sarajoy + and just everyone else who cheered me up.. this entrys dedicated to you.. luff all of you kayys? gonna miss you guys so muchhh...gahh. im sorry i screwed up and let yall down..ill see all you soon kayyss?

friends are forever -beatriz*mwuah!

kayy im officially a screwup...this morning after i woke up i went to pick up jia and bought macs..then stupid jia said breakfast ends at 1130.but it ended at 11...kayy anywayy..then we went to sch..damn fucking scaredd...at sch..everyone was hugging each other again..yeahh then it was time to give out the results.. :((..omg. me and jia immediately burst out crying..she was so happy she got back in..she was the first one i hugged...gahh..kayy im starting to cry now again.. yeahh my mom wanted me to leave...so she could screw me in peace but i wanted to stay with my friends..she talked to ruis mom..i couldnt stop crying..everyone was crowding around me saying it was okayy and everything..gahh. cant believe i screwed up...anywayy..mrs lee..mrs tay and ms kwok came over to talk to me as well. one mark. gee. i just couldnt stop crying i swear..then me jia rui celine ally hannah and juls sat in a circle and started talking. godd. cant believe how much im gonna miss them..left after half an hour..and then mom gave me big screwing..it was all my fault..my mom was blaming me.my dad was blaming my mom... gahh. cried for 3 hours straight..then people started smsing me asking if i was okayy which made me cry even more cuz i love them so muchh and now ive lost them all. fell asleep fer awhile..then mom came in and told me tt it was okayy...cried again after she left...then called hannah..who was at paragon with ally juls and izzy and stuff...then went to ask mom if i could go meet them...godd she said no can you believe ? i mean..everyone agrees tt friends will help you pull through everything right? godd. she just doesnt fucking understandd. it was so selfish of her. cant believe it. after she said "you still want to go? arent you embarassed? and now theres nothing to talk about!" i was so pissed i was like "what? i cant believe you okayy forget it" and i just ran up crying again...i mean what is her problem...shes so fuckingg selfish. stoned on the bed for awhile...then came down to use the com..and once i saw ruis screen name i started crying again.. omg i regret not studying..i regret living life too much on how i wanted...regret taking friends for granted. oh god.. my dad just came in and i just started crying again..godd. feeling so awful noww.

wanna thank all those who came over to hug and console me and everything..i luff yall kayy? especially those who also didnt get back in..dont worry ill always be there fer you.. :) especially jia and rui.. thanks kayy? love ya to bits -beatriz*tearshavefallen..nowwhat?*

sobb...today was like the saddest day ever...i cried so badd...my eyes hurt so badd...gahh..omgomg it was just the saddest thing everrrr..the first part of sch was just shit..our whole class was dead..prudence were dancing..generosity were dying too.anywayy..we had to go to the hall..cuz mrs.tang was leaving..i mean everybody was practically happy but me jia juls hannah and clapped and screamed when she started crying on stage..it was really sadd...then heem hian started crying..gahh..then anywayy..people were pretty supportive fer mrstang even tho everyone hates tt little fat bitch but haha anyway then blablablaa...everything started happening when i was in prudence and i walked out..cuz everybody was just too happy in there..then germaine walked towards me crying badd and beatrice and stacey behind..yeahh..so i hugged her real tight and asked her not to cry..but everybody was just real sadd so i started crying...like BAD. i think tt was the first time i cried and really meant itt...anywayyy..then hugged beatrice cuz shewas really crying badly..then walked back to courage and saw juls on the way crying too so we just ran and hugged again...gahh it was fucking sad okayy...we couldnt let go..... :(. hate graduations theyre so sadd.. anywayyy..then walked into courage and gahh everyone was crying really badly and especially hui fang...hugged her then jiaen then germaine again then like omg just anybody who was in front of me...then i walked to generosity to find rui jia....then they followed me to courgae they were like "omg be youre crying!" gahhh. haha..then everybody started crying. everyone was just hugging each other...then the saddest thing was when hui fang refused to turn the graduation song off..everybody was just....crying theyre eyes out..so we all formed a circle..holding hands and singing [if they could even get the words out] and just totally crying okay...omgomgomgomg damnnn saddd. people couldnt believe i was crying..hahah...everyone was just staring at me i swear...yayy my whole shoe has signatureesss..yayy..yeapp..and just spent the rest of the day hugging everyone...and the p5s were like watching us laughing..haha they couldnt understand why we were crying so badly..then after sch...we were waiting for my driver to pick us up then these 3 p5s tt i didnt know started saying to me "haiya if you want to cry then cry...dont cry and laugh at the same time lah..make up your mind!" hahah..then i started laughing..anywayy..started talking to them abit..then they were like bombarding me and celine with smses...hahass..theyre really nice..

yeahh..then all of us went back to my house.. `yvonne,jia,juls,ally,hannah,celine`..ate lunch then went to cine...watched "wishing stairs" ..fucking dumb fucked movie....no story line at all..yeahh its scary but its just..dumb..movie ended at 5ish and after tt walked around..and i did a scorpion on my leg!! yayy so nice..and omg..there was this fucking cute guy okey...like cuz we were walking back and forth the entrance doors..and in front of the door there was this teens magazine booth..so when me and jia walked back..another guy gave us a flyer and asked us to come to the teens mag party tmr..so we tk the flyer..and the guy sitting down was so cutteeee!!!!! GAHHhhH.. see juls..even hannah and ally agree.. oh and yvonne.. bwahaha.. then i told jia tt he was damn shuai and he kept looking at ussssss! bwahahah. hes so damn cute i swear. anywayy..then we walked back to heeren but everyone thought i looked damn retarded cuz i couldnt walk properly cuz of the tattoo..hahass..then saw like all the courage cryers lol.. walked back out to the youth park to send jia out at like 7ish then walked back to heeren..met germaine all those again and tk some neoprints and stuffees..there were like 20 people i think.. hahahass..gahh they were going bowling and watching wishing stairs after tt..gahh.then after tt juls ally and celine and me went to macs to buy dinner..went back home and started talking.. hahass...damn. gonna miss them so much i swear. EEEEEEEeeeEee!

results tmr..i swear to godd everyones gonna start a cryfest again..just hope ill see everyone again :)) -beatriz*omg i love all of you to bits im gonna miss you so much kayy?? dont ever take friendship fer granted. see you soon guyys..*mwuah!*

yeahh..GAHHH!! graduation tmr omgomg im so sad.. :(((..im gonna cry..screw my whole class man..we were supossed to practise auld lang syne to sing tmr..so me jennet and yvonne were trying to make them sing..i mean.. fucking graduation is tmr and they didnt even fucking care..they just sat there dying....what the holy fuck kayy...fucking pissed me off...only 3 of us were singing in the class and they just sit there playing stupid fucking board games...yeahh im very damn pissed...fuck them stupid putos...anywayy..before we were let out..since sch ended at 1130 right after the concert...i got so fucking pissed again cuz this fucking kelly yvonne and jessica were so fucking irritating..then they dragged hwee li into it tt made me even more pissed...fuckers.....but tmrs graduation so ill forgive em.....see im so freakin nice right...and i was spossed to go out with yvonne and hannah..but i just walked out of the sch and went with rui to united square. yvonnes such a fucker sometimes. so is everyone else. anywayy..we took a cab down to united...and in the toilet saw abigail and julynn..then this lady came out of the toilet with this small girl.. so i went in... and i accidentaly swung the door onto this other small girl inside..omg..i starting shouting...and even the mother was standing there laughing..my godd..the girl was like "ow"...yeah and someone choked the toilet so it couldnt flush..whoops.
yeahh...then we went to eat macs..god ate so much i was so full...after tt bought ya-kun and we took cab back to sch.. then asked the driver to pick me up from sch at 1.10..see im so smart right..then went to tanglin mall on the way to buy flowers fer everyone tmr...bought alotttttt...like 25stalks...but each stalk is pretty bigg... heeee...then went home...mommie wanted to bring me out fer lunch but i said i wasnt hungry and went to sleep.. haass..woke up at 6ish and started writing the notes...gahh..i think ill cry tmr..nvm ill cry with jia and rui.. :(( hrmsSSssssSs. im so sadd.. gonna play tennis now.. -beatriz*graduationloveallofyou*

you got me lifted shifted higher than the ceiling
and oohwee its the ultimate feeling
you got me lifted feelin so gifted
suga how you get so fly

o0o love tt damn song..damnnn cool sia..haha kk anywayy..sch was pretty fun today...haha..we were like crapping around...so we were making fun of the p5's graduation dance..hahah then i decided to the split-jump off the stage... hahahhaha bad mistake..i think i like broke my heel. hahahah. k anywayyyy..then after sch me and rui decided to take a bus down to heeren to get jessies bday present...the bus was like.. jampacked i tell you..and it smelled pretty badd too.. haha yeah then we bought 2cds fer jess...and i bought 2 britney albums..one fer bec since she asked me to buy for her then tt idiot bought yesterday.gahh. k thennn we went mentally retarded in the neoprint machine...hahaha.....funnyfunnyfunnyyy.
expired milo
haha. urmMm.tt was totally OOP.. [out of point] inside joke.. haha yeah thenn we ate crepes and cream and we were like the only ones in there..hahha..and we ordered 'fiery wings' and the woman thought we said 'calamari rings' hahah so anyway we took it and it was fucking rubber...yeahhh.haha...then at 3ish rui took a cab back to sch and i went to pick up my guitar then went fer guitar lesson..omg darius ..is so lame..haa his jokes are like....retarded...hahahah..yeahhh..anywayy then after tt took cab back home and went to sleep....hrmss..then came down at 8ish and sat at the table rotting watching trl..then mia came....then like at 9 my mom came back [she went to shanghai]..yeahhhHhHh.. yeahh. hahahs. hrmssSSs.mia and calvin are going to sos without meeeeeeee!~. not fairrr..
i wanna go dancinngggggg-beatriz*callmeandillbethereferyou*

hahahahha i was talking to joyce and she was like

"im scared to go to school tmr cuz im gonna have to partner this fat ugly girl"

hahahha then i was like "hi. im joyce...i have wild overgrowing pubic hair that always sticks out of my pants"

hahahaha....and she was like "yeah i dont think that helps... im gonna go up to the 8th graders and say `hi. i have big pubes` hahahhahahhahhahahhaahhahahha........ then she was like yeah and sometimes i have to partner this ape looking girl" hahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhaha

gahaaa. okaeeyy...jia and juls are heeeeerrreeeeeee... jia wont be in 2 seconds. okkkkkaeeyyy....anywayyyyYyYy.went to buy macs and fell asleep after eatinggg...then went to pick up juls and jia.....thennsss hahhaha so fun.. we laughed [and farted] so muchhh hahhahaa. jia was like "its so cold! im gonna fart!" hahahha....she was like doing 5sec long ones hahhaha. k nvm ....ahahhah so goddamn fucking funnyyy....hahaaaaaa yeahhh then i stabbed my eye with the eyeliner brush and started cryinggg hahahahahh so funnnyyy. i have nothing sayyy hrmmsSsssSsSss. yeahHhhh..hahaha yeahh and swammm haha fer like 4 hours till 730...yeappp...hahaha so funnn....hrmmssSSs. yeahh i forgot everything damn thinggg. gahhhhh fergeddit -beatriz*imlovingyou*

i have nothing to blog about but ill blog anywayy.. hahass...didnt go to sch..yvonne and jias gonna kill me...haha but i was too lazy to get out of bed....hrmsSsSs. yeapp. strawberry cheesecake haagendaz is GGgGgooOoOoOoODdDD...bwahahha..me and ally finished all of it yesterday... yumyumss...hannah and yvonne are so mean..................................they were gonna leave me and jia aloneeee last night cuz they wanted to go to far east after dinner to buy togas.......GAH and dragged ally in.........HUH. but they didnt go in the end....bwahahHAHhahHAh. thanks to my persuasion to wait fer me...muahaha. muahahhahahaha. im good. im goooooodddd. hahhaheehah. im feeling highh... i cant stop laughing. i just ate a bigass bowl of trix. tt must be it....ahahahha yeah it is.........hhHHrmMms. my friendsters all screwedup.......cant see some of my testimonials.. :(. jessies bday on fri! oh yeah..im leaving on thursday. or maybe sunday. or something. hahahha i told juls and she was like "thursday and sunday are ffaarrrr wide apart my friend" hahahhahahahaa. juls is a freak. yeahhh. freakooo bwhahahhas.......sighHhHh. JELLYBEAN IS SO CUTTEEEE bwahahhasss. im so bored. fergheddit im gonna go eat macs -beatriz*

hrmmMMs. raped the supermarket again last nightt...FUN. k anywayy...today was thrift shop in school...hahahsss so funnnnn!!!!! hahasss...so hectic and frustrating but it was reallllyyyy funny ...and poor von lost her voice bwahaha. haha anywayy...i promoted the powerpuff girls shit by singing the powderfluff song...hahhahahaha...soooosooosooo funny...during lower primary recess and all the kids were running past me laughing at me.. :( hahaha.. funfunfun...then the choir people were practising and i was doing ballet..hahahha..and they couldnt concentrate and couldnt sotp laughing on stage ahahhahaha..soo goddamnnnn funnyyy.... hahha..the C girls were getting so pissed cuz i accidentaly ripped the soft toy off the wall and it kept falling off hahaahha. ok anywayyy..after sch we stayed back till 3++ thennn carried all tt shit up to backstage and von hannah and juls followed me back home.. then ally and jia came..i dunno we were just pissing around again...hrmsssSsS.. it was sooo funnyyy. but i forgot everything tt happened today. hrmssSSSSs. shit.went dancing in the rain. was going to go watch wishing stairs but stupid ally and jia didnt want to. yeappppppppPPppP. today was so funn....but i still havent went out fer like ....5 days...... haha ive been sleeping everyday omg. sighhhHH.hrmsss. im tired... yawn. -beatriz*hugx`kissex*

b

+*`I feel my wings have broken in your hands,
I feel the words unspoken inside...
And they pull you under,
And I will give you anything you want, oh
You are all I wanted,
All my dreams are falling down,
Crawling around and around and around...


+*`Somebody save me,
Let your warm hands break right through it,
Somebody save me,
I dont care how you do it, just
Stay, stay
Cmon, Ive been waiting for you


+*`I see the world has folded in your heart,
I feel the waves crash down inside,
And they pull me under,
And, I would give you anything you want, oh
You are all I wanted,
All my dreams have falling down,
Crawling around and around and around...


+*`Somebody save me,
Let your warm hands break right through it,
Somebody save me,
I dont care how you do it, just
Stay, stay
Cmon, Ive been waiting for you,


+*`All my dreams are on the ground,
Crawling around and around and around...


+*`Somebody save me,
Let your warm hands break right through,
Somebody save me,
I dont care how you do it,
Just stay (stay with me)
I made this whole world shine for you...
Just stay, stay
C'mon, Im still waiting for you

came back from priscilla and patrinas awhile ago...haha. yknow i just went blogging and webbing and reading people guestbks are so fun cuz somewhere there in every guestbook theres bound to be flamers and flooders and people just dissing everybody else...bwahahha.. so damn funnyyy mans.. k anywayy..went to their house yesterdayy.me and pat went to serene to rent videos....then spent saturday night watching 3 scary vids..bwhaha..got damnnnnn fucking scared k...watched

-`*ginger snaps
-`*chuckys bride
-`*darkness falls

hahahaha..damnnn fun.. then stayed up till 1...and we were still too scared to sleepp...the tooth faerie in darkness falls ..whalao her face damnnnn scary kayy....hahhaha..then this morning we went to church..this australian girl cant stand her thinks shes so smart kept shouting dunno whats...sighh..then we went fer lunch at sushi tei @ wheellock place..........i felt sooo sick cuz i ate so much..yyeahh then we went back to their house and crapped arounddd..yeahh. basically tt was my weekendd...finally going back to sch tmrs...haven been back fer a week or something..

SERVICE-EANS THRIFT SHOP 17-19
COME SUPPORT US!!!-beatriz*screwtheretardwhoinventedtampons*

did i forget to mention tt life is a fucking bitch hunting me down? yeah. i think i did.

first of all i fucking didnt go to the fucking party in the fucking park because of fucking everything and everything fucking sucks. sucks shit. after i went to the dentist i went to forum to give vtae her bag and money...ate some fries and left to go pick my up my dad from the office which took life half a fucking hour.. then after tt he made me wait another 20 minutes..then he made me go to vals sch to watch val dance again.. which tk another 45 min..and by the time we got there her fucking dance was fucking over. it was such a fucking waste of time. then my fucking cousin called me and told me tt she wasnt fucking going. omg fuckinghell. then dad didnt let me go either. omg fuckinghell even more. then he fucking made me go to fucking east coast with him to eat. which took another hour... then we went to calvins chalet...then left after like 2 fucking minutes...what the fuck man this sucks shit.

everyone can go fucking suck my shit for all i care

gahhh just had power failure and i typed so much shit out its all lost noww... WHHAALLAAOOOEEHHHH anywayyy.. wha damn tired mann.. just came back from tennis at sec... damn tireddd tiredddtireedddddddhahahahsh. hrms. sorry lah abit madd. IM GONNA DIIIEEEEhrmss..anywayyy........so happy. cuz tonights PARTY IN THE PARK BABBYYY!!! haha. hrmss. gonna wear black corset with pink bikini top and tank inside ....and low waist jeans tt i wore yesterday [yesyes im dirty dont say anything else] anddddddd yeah! but my jeansll probly fall off..yeahh..thennnnnnnnn YEAH!! but should i go to the show first..or the chalet first??..my dad wants me to watch it again cuz he didnt go yesterday.. but if i do ill be watching it like..THREE FUCKING TIMESSS. joyy. hrmss. how ahh....???k nvm. anywayy. later got dentist at 4..then have to go forum drop off vtaes handbag+money.. then watch go vals sch watch show at 6-8..then go to PARTY IN THE PARKKKK!!!! woohhoo its the weekend baby!!hrmss. oh yeah yesterday i went to pick up hannah after she finished sch in my pjs barefooted and eating yoghurt BWAHAHAHAHA... haha.thenwent to serence center fer macs and bought momma a bday cake [see im so nice]..haha. yeahh..then we went to see lion king [my 2nd time]..then she left at intermission with my mom..and i was there with lenny and his parents... he kept taking fucked up photos of me and sending it to my mom.. ahh. then they left awhile after and left me there like a dumbfucking loner mann. anywayy...after tt waited fer cordy and val.. then sent cordy and sam home.. sams so wierd... he suddenly turned around and waved to me.. hahaha. wierdo.

this sarah soon damn wierd also.. on the court she starts laughing at dunno what and cannot stop.. haha sounds like......me. hahaha. k im being damn super extra RETARDED..........................WHAlLAlalalas.hrmss. yeah k then after going home went with my family to great world city crystal jade fer moommies bday dinner **HAPPPYYY BBDDAAYYY TOO YOOOOUUUUUUU********* bwahahahhhaa. k thennn.....then ward ahhs? yeah. haha. k i stink. gonna go take a showeeerrrr!! whahahahaha. -beatriz*trustyourvoicewithin+TE QUERIO BABY!*

ahh haven been going to school but sleeping for 3 days in a row..anywayy by the time i got to vals school her dance was over. whoops. then went to play tennis last night.. yayyy. sighh. going fer tennis training tmr morning. i thinkk. should i go????? lifes getting so boring. i havent even went out fer like..........3 daysssss! surprisesurprise!! gahh i should go out today. but its my moms birthdayy. k ill go out tmr... GIRLS NIGHT OUT!!!! hrmsss. yeah i should go now. -beatriz*saya cinta padamu*

ahhh. just woke up. nothing to say..but gonna have guitar then meeting val for her dress rehearsal..shes doing lion king this year. as a fucking elephants butt. bwaha. anyway, i know i said this before but i gotta say it again...

be at perfect 10 and cocacola's chihuahua dance party
14th nov friday 8pm at fort canning green
entry is free

-beatriz*je t'aime oncore*

gahh..fell asleep crying. as some people know today was a fucking waste of life. i couldve invented a new fucking ice cream flavor and earned a million bucks if not fer today. first there was the mom thing then tt bussing thing then tt maid thing. gahhhhhhhh. life is a bitch waiting to hunt me downn. anyway. i swear to myself im not going to sch this week anymore. if i hadnt gone to sch today and yesterday i couldve gotten my drivers license and ran away from this shithole called home. cried 3 times today. joy. locked myself in my room for 7 hours till half an hour ago. nickelback can really get the anger outta you. arghhh. im locking myself up in my room tmr the day after and till i die of total depression..i called vanny. didnt talk much cuz i just needed someone to talk to...didnt really think she could relate but..yeah. watched fucking anastacia in sch mans. how fucking stupid is tt its a show fer 5year olds not 12 year olds goddamnit. ughh. anyway after sch we were planning to go out but my mom appeared in the carpark to come pick me up..so i had to follow her fer awhile. and then she had to bring my brother to do tt ic shit it was such a total waste cuz she said i HAD to go cuz after tt my dad wanted to bring us out fer lunch. and then after we finished his ic thing we DIDNT go fer lunch omg i was so goddamn pissed. i waited 3hours fer tt woman and...UGH. and then i wanted to go meet jia and julie. then they fucking left without me already and they didnt want to wait for me. and they didnt get off at any stop so i couldnt fucking meet them. then at home my fucking maid put all my shit dunno where and read all my fucking old diaries.. UGHHHH. i shouldve just slit my wrist and died of loss of blood like i told vanny i would. -beatriz*perfectionisalie*

ahhhs. slep the whole day todayy. then went to play tennis with tits chermaine and dadee. saw kellyenes brother kelvin...whalao 2 months become damn fat..not fat chubby..no not chubby..like..meaty.. ahhh fergeddit hes fatter anywayy. still got damn alot of freckles..whalao chermaine play damnnnn good sia..and im damn pissed at them cuz theyre going up to costa sands resort come friday cuz theyre having a freaking party WITHOUT MEEE! . stupid bitches. whalianah my mom is damnnn irritating mansss. i got like 7 bags to give to thrift shop then tt woman scold me fer giving everything away.. whalao then yesterday you still scold me fer keeping so much shit in my room. fucked upp. then my dad came in my room lie down on my bed and eat my ice cream.. then started lecturing me about results.. then i started laughing at what he said which made him lecture me even more cuz i mean...who can take a fat man lying on my bed eating ice cream and licking chocolate off his fingers seriously? haha. its like....damn. ahh. wellwellwell. yeahh tts all fer todayy. thanks fer watching. -beatriz*te amo*

went to sch today fer like. 3 hours.haha. cuz i had...stomachache. yeahh hahah...oh yeah did i forget to mention tt julie decided to be a sugarcane drink maker when we went to newton the other day she slept over at midnight to buy satay...hahha.. then she was standing there watching the old man squash the sugarcanes and she was so amazed. hahahha. OMG im never ever taking a shower in the morning ever ever ever again.. its so fucking colldddddddd it freezes your vagina. hahahha. yeahhhhh. OH YEAH IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARK IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARK IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARK BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA. yeahppppp. got hannah to go with me and bec and melly. and whoever else is coming CUZ IM GOING ANYWAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! muahahahaha..

btw miss you-know-who-you-are if you dont bring back my hat for me then you better get down on your knees and pray tt youll still be alive the next day

yeah IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARKKKK BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAA. and its FREE oh and fer 15bucks you can get a shirt the chihuahua dance party cd and a RADIOCARD!!!!!!!!!!!! i dunno what the fuck tt is but WHO CAREEESSSS CUZ IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARRRRRKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! muahahaha. -beatriz*watchoutpartyintheparkCUZHEREICOMEEEE*

haha...last nights entry was damn screwed up manss. too tired cannot think liaosss..kayyys. haha....AHHHH i want jia freakin juns room manssss...its purple and pink!!!! and her sisters blue and greeen...whoop! its damn nice... damn damn damn damn damn damn niceeeeeee. ggaaahhhhhhhhhhhh. should i say how much it is? nope. i shouldnt right. yeah. shouldnt.hahass. oh yeahhh haha yesterdayss when we were taking neoprints...we were designing them and this whole bunch of malay guys with piercings all over their face hahaha...they like opened the curtain and put their head on the arms and pretended to be very interesteddd...hahaha. then there was this one called lesbo love...and me and hannah were on the top licking each others tongues..hahah then the guy saw and he started woohoo-ing and he stuck his finger between our faces and was like "yeahyeah! very good! very good!" hahahhaha...it was damnnnnnnn funny manss. hahahhaha.. then they were telling us which one was nice and all tt shit..hahahhaha damnnnn fucking funnnyyyyy....hahahahahha...hahahass..and jias dog tried to fucking bite off my fingers.. it was this damn huge golden retriever...and it was just lying there...then i pet its head and jia saw and she started screaming asking me to go awayy...hahaha... then suddenly it jumped up and tried to bite my fingers...omg hahhaha i was scared shitless and it started chasing after me... hahahhaa..shit lahss. ahahahahaahahaaaaaa damn farnniiiiss.....bwahahhhaaha. omg yknow friendster is freaking me out.. i was looking through the gallery and i saw all my sisters and brothers friends and people i know and blablablabla... like singapores so small youll know almost everybodyy...yeah. true ward... last time i went out after dinner fer dessert with fergot who then i saw these 2 gays on a date.. and i saw them 3 weeeks later walking together again outside a hotel.....hahass..sighhh. im so tireddd...should i go out todayyy. stupid jias gonna go swimming again..hrmss. i need to get a fucking tann -beatriz*tequerio*

hhhheeelllloooowwwiiieeee!!!!!!! just came back from jia juns NEW house mannssss. damn niceeee. anywayyyyy..me and julie didnt go to sch yesterdayyy..haha then i asked julie to come to my house to sleep in the morning.... hahas anywayyyyy..after sch...hannah came over with my famous amos then jia and julie came..then what happened? gahhh. cannot remember...sorry very tired cannot think..oh we swam again.. and i suntanned... and when i got into the sun.. the sun goes away.. when i get out of the sun .. the sun comes out again.. haizzzz. anywayyyyy...thennnn..we were gonna go out fer dinner again budden we didnt cuz.... i dunno why... haha.. then after jia left my dog almost died cuz it chewed up my soft green pillow and ate all the fucking shit inside... GgrggGRgGRgGR AHAHHHhhhHhhHHHhH. thenss.julie slept over.. haha so funnn.... then this morning me and juls went to buy macs at KAP and went to jias house.. damn nice siaaaaaaaaaahh..im damn jealous mann. especially her fucking room kayy.. at night when you on the lights its damnnnn niceeeeeee. anyway we swam again fer like the 4th day in a row.. haha....AH her 2 kittens damn cute... so small.. like the size of....a..a....a.... aiya but damn small lahs damn cute.. one yoda one dunno what.. cringle or pringle or crinkle or dunno what shit lahss... then we went back to orchard at 7 something.. then went back to her house and 9...hahassssss. omg saw this american or latin lady with her husband.. walking around and she was in this black spaghetti.. which was probly like 10 cm short.. and a miniskirt as short as her tank..haha and she exposed her whole belly and she put this damnnn long silver chain as her belly button ring.. and platform shoes like damnnn high. and tattoos everywhere...sighh. whats the world coming to??anywayyyyy then ate at jias house again..haha spongebobbbb..hahahhaahsawejglfhsefgjsdkfgksdjfh. ssighhh. oh i found out how to use friendster liaos.. yayy i so smart.. hahaassss. whalalalla. anywayyyy.. then after juls left and i was the only one dere at like 10 or something my dad decided to abandon me there and not pick up his phone....so i stayed till likw now.. then he come and call me and scold me why i never call him.. haha...hahahah when we were waiting fer my dadee me and jia were going crazeeeeee mansss... then jia go send this stupid messages to julie...haha :

sorry i am bored. my bikini is falling down. i am spinning on the chair.im gonna throw up.i am the bed purposely to fart. like alone only the two of us. i am a crazy lunatic. sniffff..i have lice and i go newton and dandruff in my head. it is very itchy.my dad is going to die. im never giving him my ice cream again.

hahahahha. retarded. hahaha. okayyy im tired i dunno what im typing gnights.. -beatriz*ichliebedich*

TONGUE LICKIN!!!
hahah.nothingnothing.inside shit..lolsss.wah cannot breath manss..just came back from girls nite out v.3!!!.anywayys..went fer guitarr...today spent alot more time talking to darius than playing guitarr..hrms. anywayy..after tt..i cant remember what i did. hrms.

anywayyss. didnt go to sch todays again..then momma woke me up at like...12ish and went to eat lunch at paragon sushi tei.. and bought alott of shit from blood brothers...damn cool. very nice fer going dANciNG.. :):):) ..muaha...thenn. hannah and jia and queefanana called me during lunch and told me they were goingsta meet me at paragon.. then they called 15 min later and they were still in school.. haha stupidd..anyway..so they wlaked to my house.. hannah jia queefanana celine and ally..then i went home and banged the door on hannah..whoops sorry...hahasss. then we shitted aroundd...then we went swimminggg...bwahaha..thens calvin was having band practise so i went to disturb them and sang horribly offtune ..haha i started shrieking..bwahahah..then showered and shitt...messed up my whole room..

girls nite out v.3

then at like..730ish we went to eat dinner at heeren.. but we went to take neoprints ferstt....tk 2...ally was moping cuz she said she lkd badd or somethingg...dunno lahss.. but she cheered up :)..thenn we went to eat marcheee... o0o saw esther... mommas manicurist.. o0o saw her bf.. very ttalll.. wahlao esther damn chio..her face damn cuteee...hees anywayy...thenn after we finishedd...we went to the magazine store.. and the indian guy was talking some gibberish to us..o0o wierdoooooo.then we went out to sit at the stone thingyy.....thennn went back homee... which is noww..the [naughtynaughty] ..bwahahhaha..nopenope nothing...haha.thennnnnnn hannah spat sprite and a whole lotta saliva all over meeeeeeeeeeee....im all sticky now..it just totally exploded over mee...grosss. yuckk my whole house smells like ass.. bwaha. should i go sch tmrs. -beatriz*lickylicky*

whalalas. just took a damn nice shower. heeeees. went ter the fricken zoo today. reminded me abt primary1...haha. actually quite lahs...like alot of other schools were dere also.. anyway..went with von and jess those people lahs.. and walked alotttt...haha and we walked into this snake thing..a walkthrough snake cage-y thingyyy .. hahas damnnnn funny..and blablablasssss.. saw lynn from bowling.. and tt very tall skinny guy...o0o i like trains *calling all angels*. hahas just came on the radio damn nice... anywayyy.. ate roti prata...hees. yummy. they all think my style of eating rotaprata is damn gross..haha cuz i tear it.. then roll it..then dip into curry.. then dip into sugar and eat it.. bwahahaha. what?? nice wards.omg yuckkkk i hate kym marsh shes such a fricken wannabe..

anywaysss..thens saw jia and followed her instead.. haha. they said i was mean cuz i abandoned them.. :(. haha anywaysss. thens we saw this damn big crocodile.. like longer than a car...my god.. rui kept screaming. tt pig. hahas. then we went into the duck enclosure shit.. the walkthrough also.. hahaha. this cute squirrel kept following us.. haha so cute!!!! then i saw chicks and rabbits.. and started carrying it.. OH YEAH i played with a pig :))) it was so damn cute kayyyy..it was black summore.. and this other really bigg pig.. and some lambs...and sheepp.. theyre so mean.. they pierce the sheeps ears and put plastic tags innit. so gross. juls new names queefanana.. whalala.anywaee. then we went to the playground.. hahasss.. and theres this playpool thingy.. and stupid rui wet my whole damn dress.. and after we ate we went back... yeah tt was our zooday..hass. so funn... i thought it wouldve been lammmeee and borrinnng but we ended up being allowed to go aorund ourselves so tt was pretty funn..oh god tt wang lee hom dunno what shit is so wannabe... my goddd yuck the fucking radios playing his fucking shitass song...yay evanessence..anywayy...got guitar with jessie.. bye fer nowss -beatriz*hugx+kissex*

:( heem hian said i wasnt nice :(. anywayyy hahah just nows so funny cuz char accidentaly walked right into the bedpost.. so she got balakoo on her forehead.. then after everyone left..my maid saw and she went crazy mans.. she was like "omg! what happened?? " then she was like running up to get ice.. and she told char to rub her hair on her bump so itll go away.. hahahahaaa..and she was like asking me to "lend" char my hair.. hahahahahah.then she started rubbing chars hair on her bump and char fell back onto the chair.. hahahhaa..and hahahaa.. she was either crying or laughing.. or both.. hahahaha. damnnnn funny.. hhahaha. i wanna go party in the park -beatriz*mwuahs*

bwaahahahahahahahahaha. me julie jia izzy and char and van went to watch uptown girls todayy. at great world. lets see. the movie was funny touching sadd happy and cutee. bwahahaha. yeahh damn funny mansss. izzy is reading this now standing like a hawker showing everyone her vagina. hahahhaa.yesyes. and we were 3min late but oh wells. nice movie anyway. EeeEEEEEEeE. the guy is so cute. bwahahahahaha. jia agrees with me. bwahahahaahahahHHAhAHAHhahHA. im evil. after the movie we went to eat kfc. i ate too much cheese so i have headache. anyway everyones back in my room like messing the whole place up playing in the dark. hahas dont ask. whalalala.i like john mayer. hes ugly but i like his voice :)) damnnn sexaye mans.. muahahhaa. i wanna go to party in the parkk. -beatriz*bwahahaha*

dont just love me,love me

o0o. schs such a waste of time...didnt go. theyre gonna go to sch and drink tea. wtf. anywayyy. i kinda had 3 choices...
-just go to sch
-tennis training at secondary at 8
-tennis lessons with my mom at sicc at 7
ah well. i didnt choose any of them. bwahahahaa. hahaha. oh vanny and me were having this hella funnnnnyyyyy convo last night..on msn with these pple... omg it was so damn fricken funny...i swear..and thne my dad came in halfway ..like not wearing a shirt.. and i was laughing cuz of the convo so he started laughing.
right. and then he picked up my devil stick and tried to stick it up my ass again..hahahah. but it was soosooossooosooosos funny....bwahahahahahaha. im eevvviil. *winkwink* bwahahahahahahah. nothingnothing. inside jk with me and vanny. oh yeah vanny in case your computer conked up last night and you didnt read my gnight message here goes..
**nightynightsleeptightsdearwinkwinkbwahahaimevillyesiamluffluffyouanywaeeeeeetightesthugx+sloppiestkissexmwuah** -beatriz*winkwink*

``considering wether i should go out today or not.. :[

!!ATTENTION ATTENTION!!
wanna spend the evening with hot, sexy, sweaty bodies with no walls to restrict you?
!!come to party in the park featuring the chihuahua dance craze!!
!!14 november 2003 from 8pm onwards doors open 6pm!!
!!fort canning green!!
!!entry is free!!

-broghttoyoubybeatriz

aha. slept again..sheesh. im suck a pig [high5 rui].but i was like lying down on the bed already and then clara asked me to go fer tennis training tmr.. then sarah and yingyi joined the convo and they kept me awake fer like anudder hour. haiz...so slept at 4.30 only till 7ish..and in bed i was bored so i startedd eating twisties..i ate 3packs of twisties..5pieces of icecream...and i ...k hold on

k back. my dad was gonna bang down my door. and when i opened it he said bye. wtf. anywaez.
yeah the point is im eating toooo much. im toooo fat. i have a lil tummy already.yeah i know everyone has one but..mine like sticks outt. sighhh. o0o i like michelle branch *breathe* damn fuckin nice siaaa.

ive been driving fer an hour just talking to the rain..you say ive been driving you crazy and its keeping you away...blablabla if i just breathheee ..let it fill the space between ill know tt everythings alright. k humdeedum. after eating took a shower. and here i am being bored. oh i found a lollipop stick in my shower rack. lol. i used to eat lollipops in the shower. muahahahHAHAHAaaa. im eevil. o0o invisible just came on. i think the subaru dunno pretsa comp is really moronic mans. stand there till you cant feel yer legs with your hand on a car..damnnn sutpid mann. but i like the car.. ;)..my moms manicurist has it..black color..damnnn cool. i like those cars in 2fast2furious..all those personalised stuff. hummm.eee i wanna play tennis. my dad just asked me to go play tennis budden i just tk a shower and im too lazy nowws. too sleepy ;) omg theres really something wrong with the way im typing k..all messed up. oh bernice intro-ed me to tt friendster thing...my sister has it but i dunno what the hell it is so i didnt bother.. k gonna sign up laters.OMG i just remembered. when i was talking to clara yingyi and sarah they told me tt tabi has RETAINED..so shell be in MY FUCKING YEAR. omg. im so. insulted. GAGGGGHHH (pronounced as gah) -beatriz*insultedbutistillloveyounother*