.ya'll this is based on friday.forgotta post yesterday

yeap.didnt go watch mars that night cuz they didnt know where it was..lol.and julie woke me up at 2 in the morning telling me she wqas at the science center looking at mars or something like that.but i saw it from my window..but it was .tiinyy...haha.damn.im broke ya'll.got nine dollars in one dollar coins and i owe hwee li and charmaine 63 bucks altogether.....!!!!! argh.im never gonna be able ta pay it off in a month.diediedie.but maybe my momll gimme more money..i hope..hrmzhrmzhrmz.k i still dunno what to write larhz.anyway, went out with amanda,shi yun, jolene,tsao hui,kiesha,bernice,tara,sufen and lydia yesterday..we walked around and around and took a bussss!!!!!!!! omg we were in swensens and me and jolene saw this totally cuuuteeeee guyy! haha and jolene asked her sis which schools had white uniforms.hahah.we had some shit fantasies tho..haha.ladeeladeeda.argh.im still broke tho...went to play tennis last night! yay.damn fun.haha.

anyway today was teachers day right..yeap.the p3s were pretty good but they were pretty messy too.von jess and cheryl's p5's were pretty good too.they sang kelly clarkson..yeap
vanny gave me this extremely super cute mug! she put our pic on it and wrote something on it too.damn.mustve cost alot.shit.what can i give her back when im shit brokeeeeeeee -beatriz

.watcha gonna do act a fool.

eh people.all prelim papers are donneee!chinese yesterday and totally sucked..five questions in a row were all blank goddamnit.ah wellz.didnt expect to know them anyway.and yo people..mars...(the planet) is coming near the earth so lookout in your sky tonight cuz its gonna be as big as the moon or something like that.i dunno.ill be at yishun with some friends watching it..yep.todays.went out after the paper and took a shitloadda neoprintz ya'll.bumped into hannah ally izzie and celine at heeren.yeah.

took the bus!FOUR times yo!haha.purposely used coins so i could get tha bus ticket.quite spazzed yeah?haha..ah well.anyway.i bought a few shirts today.and when i went home i realized they were all black and white.wierdzzz.

H to tha izz- O! V to tha izz- A! hova ya'll.bleugh.what to write larhz? nvm come back when i have something to write.. -beatriz

.something my cousin wants to tell ya'll.

she popped her zit up her nose!

.its monday.

good news of the week:
got tha invite to 17 mag bday.
managed to finish the whole damn maths paper.
theres pretty pink flowers growing outside my window.

haha the last one was a joke..im not that..bimbotic..haha.sighz.i locked myself up in the room..blasting rock music (now playing "hello again" by hoobastank)to keep me from going to sleep.ive been sleeping like..alot..these days..haha..oh yeah.. hey people go check out my brother's band .globed. at http://www.globed-online.com.they're gonna be playing at 3rd place (dont ask me...i still gotta go find out where the hell it is) some time next month..yep.and they just made their second song yesterday..(they havent been together that long)..haha..named it "little teddy bear" but they havent made lyrics yet.haha.. little teddy bear..what can you write about that?haha.ooh but im so prouddd of them! haha..jkjk.im in a good mood today..!xept i got a little pissed at my mom just now..but..its all good..hrmz.i have no idea what the fuck im tlaking about but heck.as long as theres soemthing to say..type it out.right..haha.....?my cousins telling me she has a zit up her nose.haha.wtf.

wellz.we have this school trip next friday..to see home run.. ya know that movie? about a shoe? haha.actually..nvm..haha.kinda speechless now..........................whats there to write...whats there to write.....yep.okay nevermind gonna eat some lunch nows -beatriz

.unfoolish.

Ashanti - Unfoolish

See, my days are cold without you( and another one)
But I'm hurtin' while I'm with you(and another one)
And though my heart can't take no more
I can't keep runnin' back to you
See, my days are cold without you(and another one)
But I'm hurtin' while I'm with you(and another one)
And though my heart can't take no more
I won't keep runnin' back to you

I think I found my strength to finally get up and leave
No more broken heart for me
No more tellin' your lies to me
I'm lookin' like I got my head on right, so now I see
No more givin' you everything
There's no more takin' my love from me

See, my days are cold without you(and another one)
But I'm hurtin' while I'm with you (and another one)
And though my heart can't take no more
I can't keep runnin' back to you(world premier)

See, my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while I'm with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I won't keep runnin' back to you

Glad to wake up every day without you on my brain
No more will u wait up at night
No more havin' to fuss n fight
I'm proud to say that I will never make the same mistake
No more thinkin' 'bout what you do(and another one)
There's no more me runnin' back to you

See, my days are cold without you(and another one)
But I'm hurtin while I'm with you (and another one)
And though my heart can't take no more
I can't keep runnin' back to you

See, my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin' while I'm with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I won't keep runnin' back to you

Some say the X makes the sex spec-tactular
Let me lick you from your neck to the back of you
shiverin', tounge deliverin
Chills up that spine, that ass is mine
Skip the wine and candlelight, no Crystale tonight
If it's alright wit' you we fuckin' (Tha's cool)
Deja vu, the blood spark, finger fuckin' in the park
pissy off Bacardi Dark
Remember when I used to play between your legs, you
begged for me to stop
Because you knew where it would head, straight
to your mother's bed
at the Marriott, we'd be lucky if we find a spot
Next to your sister, damn, I really miss the
way she used to rub my back when I hit that
way she used to giggle when your ass would wiggle
Now I know you're used to suites at the Park or Meridian
Trips to the Carribean, but tonight no ends.

You must be used to me cryin', cryin'(Oh Oh and another one)
While you're out bumpin' and grindin
But I'm leavin' you tonight

See, my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin' while I'm with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I can't keep runnin' back to you

You must be used to me cryin', cryin'(Oh and another one)
While you're out bumpin' and grindin'
But I'm leavin' you tonight (Oh and another one)

.rock my saturday night.

i felt a little better after typing all that shiet down.i feel glad i let it out.but i dunno if its the right choice.i might risk something i may never get back again.but im gonna just forget about everything and get on with life.but i have doubts.i had a dream last night and i woke up crying.thats not normal right? and the thing is i cant remember anything about what i dreamt of.cant remember a single thing.nope.really cant remember.but i keep wondering if i think about it so much that..i wake up crying about it.i really dont know..

anyway.im not gonna think about it so much.but of course i cant really control my thoughts can i?

---

Ashanti - Leaving (part 2)

If you were me, what would you do
Always a lie and never the truth
Now as for me, Im movin on
You'll always be, my baby


Baby, I just gotta let you go for now
Thought I could take it for a while
Maybe youll make it back around
Baby, I just gotta live my life for now
Cant see me changin for awhile
Hope I could make it back around

Anything that I want, I could get it, boy
You know you turn me on and on
Thats why I switch my frame of mind
Of bein' there when you call; always on time
Im lookin to spread my wings and party
Everything and for everybody
Need my space, my time alone
Its like our hearts dont match no more
Still anything that you want, you can get it, boy
You know I still got love for you
(In court I plead the 5th)
My baby

Baby, I just gotta let you go for now
Thought I could take it for a while
Maybe youll make it back around
Baby, I just gotta live my life for now
Cant see me changin for a while
Hope I could make it back around

When you was cheatin
You was probably thinkin
I won't sense a thing,
But love got funny ways of catchin up to lies
Your lies can't look me straight in the eyes

Im not surprised
That you can hurt me, baby
but why me, baby?
Just let me breathe and
I'll fly freely

If you were me, what would you do
Always a lie and never the truth
Now as for me, Im movin on
Youll always be my baby

Baby, I just gotta let you go for now
Thought I could take it for awhile
Maybe youll make it back around
Baby, I just gotta live my life for now
Cant see me changin for awhile
Hope I could make it back around

Yo, yo
Why in the world would you wanna leave me, girl
Is it somethin i did
you felt that wasn't right home
I know a bitch can do bad on her own
Youre not alone
The way you hurt me, baby

Shit why me, baby
I be in pain a little But I live without you with the love
it as long as long as it lets u go you feel the
need to go bak to me baby who else would to hold you
and sex you crazy

R--U--L--E
Come on back and holla at me

Baby, I just gotta let you go for now
Thought I could take it for a while
Maybe youll make it back around
Baby, I just gotta live my life for now
Cant see me changin for a while
Hope I could make it back around

Baby, I just gotta let you go for now
Thought I could take it for a while
Maybe youll make it back around
Baby, I just gotta live my life for now
Cant see me changin for a while
Hope I could make it back around

If you were me, what would you do
Always a lie and never the truth
Now as for me, Im movin on

Youll always be, my baby

---

so onto normal..life..i just came back from a movie.. freaky friday.. it was pretty damn good i gotta say ya'll.about a mother and a daughter's love.yeah.haha.youre thinking "why the hell would you wanna watch that?" yeah actually its kinda like my relationship with my mom.we dont understand each other..ya know? i mean, im sure im not the only who feels that way.which average kid doesnt wish her mom would stop ruining her life? yeap?haha damn.now i wanna learn the guitar.i know a bit actually.like 5 seconds haha.pathetic.im listening to ashanti now.. (the first cd)and what im feeling now can totally relate to her lyrics.. like the lyrics up there..and the others.you should go check'em out ya'll.well.thats enough for me.im gone -beatriz

.frustrated like hell.

had my chinese oral today.didnt know how to say potted plant..so i said the boy was carrying a tree.bleugh.how gay.after my oral i went to my school's secondary open house.it was shit boring yo.me and bec walked around like fuckheads.went to the gym for qhile to jump on the trampoline.but i felt like a moron.so i got off.we went out for lunch after that.well yeah that was all.i slep the whole afternoon again.hrmz.didnt i say that i wanted to do something with my time?haha.what a waste.ah wellz.

and the title?yeah.over these few weeks this month ive been really frustrated over something..yep.

i dunno if our friendship is still true cuz i feel like everythings so...akward?wierd?and any other word to describe it when you dont know whats going on.what to do.sigh.and i dunno if i should do something about it,if i should make the first move.some days we share the laughter..the pain..the conversations..the whatever. but somedays we share complete silence.

she might not know this but i really really think about it all the time.i dont know where its leading to either.my theory's that we're gonna be split up in life some time soon.so why not treasure whatever we've got between us now? .......right?........right???? im desperate for an answer.i need someone to talk to and what if the only person i should talk to is her? i will never know if i dont try right? but...will she do the same if she had this problem?

i dont exactly wanna make a fool of myself.but then again. we're different at some point.different lifestyles.one stuck and one free.different personalities.technically we keep things from each other.but is that true friendship if we keep everything away from each other? not exactly.i wish i could share everything.but i cant.cuz doing something like that..makes me feel like everything about my life.is known.by everybody.things spread.rumours.lies.trying to emphasise on the word lies.sometimes i feel i cant trust her completely.just something i dont think ill share. but theres other things.but theyre all swirling aorund my head now i dont know where to start.i cant go on with this forever can i? nope. -beatriz

.MOSH info.

.concerts.events.

Blondie the phasm tour --- 20th august, wednesday 2003.fort canning park.

Womad singapore --- 29th august - 31st august, friday - sunday 2003.fort canning park.

MOSH --- 7th september, sunday 2003.fort canning park.

17 magazine bday --- 12th september, friday 2003.zouk

Party in the park(perfect10) --- 14th september, sunday 2003.fort canning park.

Halloween horror --- 30th october - 1st november, thursday - saturday 2003.fort canning park

ill keep you updated but so far i wanna go to these yo.

!friday!

finally the weekend yo! my thursday..was...pretty..good..i think.wait.i cant remember what i did.errr.ooooh yeah.okay i didnt do anything much actually..the only exciting thing i did yesterday was.play tennis. haha yeah.havent played for about 2 weeks cuz i was sick for so long.im getting better and better tho.luckily.

anyway we finished school early today cuz we could go home after exams.i went home at 12.30 and blablabla.but i slept the whole day.again.haha.i really need to do something else with my time.lol.*sigh*im kinda pissed.cuz one of my friends told alotta people something that wasnt true.and my bff believes it.so does almost everyone else.can life get any better...?...NOT.im not even gonna bother explaining.well.im gonna go do something.errrmm.yep. -beatriz

.the other half of my wednesday.

hrmz.my whole afternoon was spent sleeping..lol.yeah.my parents brought me to some japanese restaurant for lunch and i was eating the egg thingy? chawanmushi or something.anyway, there was this bigass piece of chicken in it and i was trying to cut it with the spoon..and it flew everywhere.haha omg.i was soo embarassed my dad started laughing and my mom stared at me with that look that said "i thought i taught you how to eat".hahaha.it was pretty funny shit.then after i went back home..i fell asleep and i think i slept for like 4 hours.....yeah..i dunno and when i was eating dinner.. i was drinking and i suddenly choked..so some of it sprayed out of my mouth..hahahahah.everyone at the table was staring at me..haha..i couldnt stop coughing for like a minute.haha.shit.well catch ya tmrz babeez -beatriz

.wednesday today.

man.. "like glue" by sean paul? damn nice ya'll.JAMAICAN PRIDE.lolz.im not jamaican tho.anywayz,we had to show kwok the p3 dance today..we havent finished teaching them the whole thing but its coming up pretty good.except i didnt go to school yesterday so i missed out on some parts of sarajoy's new steps.but we dont have anymore time to teach them..damn.tmr till next thursday's prelims.then we have one more day, friday, but the following mondays the concert..and..sighz..i dunno but we hafta do something yo.

school today was pretty normal..but we didnt do much..all i did was one english and science worksheet for the whole day.haax.yeah.hrmz.that was the first half of my day.now i gotta try to enjoy the second half.see ya laterz ya'll. -beatriz

.btw.

when i mean "tight" skirts...not as in "tight" cuz im fat ya'll.. like...nice?cool?EXTREMELY tyyytteee! lol.

.yay.

yaayyyy. finally figured out how to put paragraphs. whoop dee doooooooo -beatriz

.same day same thing.

ahhh!i cant figure out how to put paragraphs in this.. lemme try..

hihihi

did i do it? err i dunno.. anwyay..went to the doc again and got FOUR more different meds again..my god..ah wellz.i went with my mom to eat lunch at olio dome..and went to zara.the stuff is all winter stuff...thick coats and shit. and tell me...who would wear a thick fur coat in singapore?lolz..dont see why they bother putting it up for sale either.anyway..i bought some pretty tight skirts and some singlet tank thingies.. real cool..sighz..k that was pretty much my day..got 17 missed calls from kelly and rachel..and gonna have tutoring by a chinese lesbo who has pretty raannnkkk breath yo..buaix.. -beatriz

.tuesday morning.

I remember stormy weather The way the sky looks when it's cold. And you were with me, content with walking so unaware of the world Please don't drive me home tonight, cause i dont want to feel alone. Please don't drive me home tonight, cause i don't wanna go Tuesday morning in the dark I was finding out who you are I took your picture while you were sleepin and then i paced around the room If I had known then that these things happen would they have happened with you? ohh Please don't drive me home tonight, cause i dont want to feel alone. Please don't drive me home tonight, cause i don't wanna go Tuesday morning in the dark I was finding out who I was And if you turned around to see me and i was gone Should have looked outside your window cause the sun was coming up the sun was coming up Please don't drive me home tonight, cause i dont want to feel alone. Tuesday morning in the dark We were finding out who we are Tuesday morning in the dark We were finding out who we are who we are yeah... "tuesday morning" by michelle branch.haa.kinda fits the day huh?anyway, im feeling realllllyyyyy sick.i have to take 5 different medicines a day and it still fucking doesnt workk. shit.i didnt go to chool today tho cuz i couldnt breathe last night and my mom wanted to take me for a checkup or something and take some x-rays or something.i dunno.but im still not feeling that good.ah wellz.blog laters gonna eat some breakfast

.monday once again.

yep, its a monday. ah well. pretty soon its gonne be friday. time actually does fly really quick..yeah.one minute youre enjoying the weekend..next minute youre "enjoying" schoolwork and hardup drilling.yeah.life.anyway..ive been sick for about a week now. i went to the doctor twice and still not getting better. i think the doc said something about having sinus infection. now wtf is that?and my throat swells up or something? shrug.anyway, tits had band practice yesterday..gayle(vocalist),paul(guitarist),hughlyn(drummer),xl(extra who broke his arm).. and some others... the usual.btw, gayle? her singing? is powerful.yep.seriously.it can literally blow you away.shes a reallllyyyyy great singer no doubt.anyway, after gayle left i spent the rest of the afternoon writing out science notes. youre probly thinking "now thats a first". ha.nope..and that was 3 and a half hours yo! man...i dont think ive been that hardworking in my life..ah well.and prelims..hum dee dum. what to do what to doooo. god. its this friday..which is..like..4 days away.3 more days to study ya'll.yepyepyep.im feeling so goddamn bloated.it always happens after i eat...one more cough and im gonna throw up.bleugh. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lalalallalalaldeeeeedaaaaa. im blue dabadeedabada.no actually im pink.okiez see yaz..tutors here. -beatriz

.blablabla.

the oral..went... good. but the rain was coming down so friggin hard..and there were metal shelters around the classrooms so that made it even louder...damn. so i was actually..kinda shouting.. at least i didnt cough..kae anyway.. i cut my hair before lunch today.. and now its... half of what i had before.. god.. haha..anyway im waiting for some people to come over for dinnerrrrrrrrr and im waitingggggg.im kinda stuck right now. dunno what to type. kae nvmz ill just type when i have something to say.gnightz peoplez. -beatriz

.a milestone away.

yeah.first entry.youre wondering how many of these things i have?actually..none that i use.. hrmz? i dunno. i actually blogged 2 nights ago..but i accidentaly deleted everything how gay.kae wellz.. psle oral tmr and i have almost nooo voice goddamnit.yeah.coughing flem and im bloody gonna fail. hrmz. at least its english tmr. not chinese right? *sIgHz* ah wellz.and prelims in 2 weeks. to say im prepared or ive studied would be a lie.no comment.i think i have a problem with studying. well..yeah.. er.. doesnt everyone...? actually to think of that..yeah everyone does. just not as big as mine. does tt sound right? erm. no.yeah well. haiyaz. take a look its on display for you. red hot chilli peppers ya'll.. a milestone away... a..mile...stone..a...way....a milestone away? wtf.im gonna sign off now.. buaix -beatriz