damnit. the house alarm just went on 10 minutes ago and it wont stop.. its freakyy damnit. anywayyy...i bought my Converse shoes today! found out theyre called chuck taylors. hehe. damnittt. imagine a shoe called... beatriz dings hahaa..nope nvm. im going back the day after tomorrow...arriving on the 3rd at 2am.. me and chris are gonna go to orientation on saturday..damnit mellys having a new year party tt i was spossed to go to.. and shes getting Caracal to play..hahaha..tits was soooo jealous i swear.. he was like "damnit they suck..if i see them im gonna bash them up.. i wanna go to see how bad theyre gonna be" ahaha.. moron.

i still have pretty much to do...i needa buy hwee lis earrings..get my cole haan bag..get the hat from urban outfitter on melrose..orer the stuff online..get the pants from express.blabla. damnittt.but im happy to be going back.. yepp. tmr morning have an appointment to do my eyebrows at 11am.. wonder how im gonna wake up.. we went shopping today.. at beverly center..and before tt all 3 of us gotta bigass scolding frm our parents cuz we had no more money to go shopping. and we cried. haha. yeah. anywayy..i bought a pair of jeans.some skirts..some shirts..haha i gotta shirt form Bebe.. that says "bebe". yesyes, self inflated ego... hahhaa..i wanted to getta playboy bunny shirt but i had like only 10 bucks left...shit.

we just came back from dinner at Houstons..damnittt the barbecue ribs are yumyumyum.. miehe. ok nvm im talking about things you dont really care about..haha..yup..gonna go now..catch yall soon hunss jag alskar dig

yoyoyo..its 2am cant sleeeeeeep damnitttt. al green rocks ma socks damnit! humhumhum..i miss someone :(. mahal kita

heylos..today my outfit was totally ^punker mannn..miehehe.all hot pink and black..anyway..snoozed till like 1pm..then we all went out to montre park to eat...ended up eating vietnamese food..and then we went to Petmart for fun..was looking all around for the snakes..but they didnt have snakes!!! damnit. i wanted to get a crocodile gecko..but everyoe else thought it was so nasty. fuckit. then we went to target..then me and my sister went to wash our hair..my sister did hers curly while mine was poker straight..i miss having straight hair. :(.ook yeah...i have straight hair..tts cuz i rebonded it.. but its growing out naturally curly again.. damnit. i neeeeed to rebond my hair again when i get back..which is in like another 2 weeks or soso..

note to self:
-rebond hair when i go back
-buy my Cole Haan bag
-finish buying christmas presents.. (yeahyeah i know christmas is over..)
-go to abercrombie and buy more offems coolass shirts
-buy new Converse high-top black and pinks
-order Dashboard confessional messenger bag for sch
-order rock steady ring
-confirm Pacsun shirts

yup thats about it for now

wasshhhuuuppp ma niggass!? im sudddenly on the kick listening to Al Green and Frank Sinatra..yep. tts just mee...o0o i love "baby its cold outside"..its such a cool song..damnit. well tts it actually..besides tt we went out for dinner with the quee family..yupyup.. cant wait to get back to singapore amore

just ate lunch..its about 3pm here..me dad mom and tits went to farmers market..but before tt me and mom went to pick some stuff up and buy her things..damnit. people were staring at me all wierd cuz my pjamees were like pink white red and orange stripes hahahah..anywayy..ooh yeah last night after we ate javaneese food..we walked out of the restaurant and the wind was sooo strong.. they had this board on the roads to advertise..and the wind kept blowing it away..hahaha..so my dad tried to stop it but it blew onto the street and broke into 2...hahahhahaa..damnit. my sisters such a bitch goddamnit..she acts like a freaking 7 year old..arent older sisters supossed to be the cooler understanding matured ones? maybe she was spossed to be born last damnit. -beatriz te quiero baby

heyhoo again dearies..im dead bored.its stilll like 10 or something here..ive been up for 6 hours damnit.im using my dads laptop in his room and damnit the words are like teenytiny i have to squint to look at the words..and i wonder how he sees cuz my dad is like.. half blind.. hahhaa..oh yeah.. damnit id i mention tt my sister and my brother saw shaquille oneal? DAMN YOU IF YOU DONT KNOW WHO HE IS! hes like the coolest basketball player ever..his house is hhuuggee..he has to drive around his garden just to get to another part of the house! haha..oh yeah..my sister met cameron diaz too! aqnd yesterday we went to bloomingdales..and sarah jessica parker walked past me! yep she was pregnant again damnit. shit. i keep saying damnit. kayy im going to attempt rapping

when i move you move..just like that?
when i move you move..just like that?
(one more time)
HELL YEAH HEY DJ, BRING THAT BACK

how you aint gonna fuck, bitch out me
im the goddamn reason you in VIP
ceo, you dont needa see ID
im young, wild and strapped like G ALI
BLEUGH! we aint got nothin to worry about
whoopass..let security carry em out
watch out for my medallion, my diamonds are reckless
feels like a modget is hanging from my necklace
i pull up, with a million trucks..looking smelling feeling like a million bucks-AH!
pass the bottle, the heat is on
we in the huddle all smoking tt chee an chong
whats wrong with the clubs and the movies boy?
im just looking for a thick young lady to pull.
one sure shot way to gettim outta yer pants
take note to the brand new dance, like this


MIEHEHE. o0o tt feels good. hahha. wtf. me and mom are gonna go to farmers market in awhile...im still in my pjammies..but im just gonna go out inem cuz its AMERICA BABY..noone gives a fuck. haha...goingsta buy ma fresh STRAWBERRIES ..hehhe. hahhaa omg.. my dad just started dancing to this nastyass jazz music..hahahhahaha whheeehhaha

heyhoo huns!!! urgh. its 9am here..ive been up since 4 watching the sunrise..so romanticcc! kk i dont know in wha tway tt was romantic but ...haha ok nvm. anyhoo..last night was the first time since i came here tt i bought something.. miehehe..bought another corset..im suddenly crazy over corsets! damnit. theyre so cool. anyhoo yesterday we wento to play tennis..and it was damn fucking freaking cold goddamnit.

yknow..im so overly psyched about sas..but at the same time.. i wish i had gone to monks hill instead..dunno why. its probly cuz im just too used to local sch and im not used to the diea of international sch .. -yet. hot american guysss!!!!! LOL. hey, i gotta have SOMETHING to look forward to.. hahaha. juls is being a nigger..haha... heard tt you stupid nigger....hahhaa..damnit i miss everybodayeeee :(:(. DAMNIT.
te quiero

i see the sleigh bells ringading dingdingdingalingdingg.
ok i dont know the words...woke up at 8am this morning..surpriseee! hehe. called juls and talked for about an hour..oh last night my sister saw a freaking rat downstairs..and everyone was sleeping upstairs cuz it was like 1am..but we didnt see it again..so its probly living in the guestrooms toilet or something haaha. me my dad and my aunt went to play tennis this morning too...but it was too sunny we could hardly see..yet i was freezing..haha.damnit. so we left after awhile and me and my dad went to the supermarket..damn cold too..then we came home and i had this bad stomachache so i went to sleep.and i had to come down to eat lunch..my dad just made this wierdass lemon sorbet..with mango puree onnit. yeah, my dad cooks. haha. [i can see the look on your face]. except when hes experimenting chilli sauce with orange juice..hahaha.. wonder what schs like..humhumhum. ....?.cant wait to go *beep* my *beep* miehehe. MIEhehehehe..im so happy...dunno whyyyYyY..hahaa have you ever heard of someone lying down to sleep..and when tt person hasnt even touched the pillow..hes already asleep? HAHAHA. yeah tts my dad.. hahahhahaha.. hes such a freaking ..freak. hahahaa. anyhooo. gonna catch my ZZzzZZzs now. see ya around chicas
aloha wau ia oi

yeah. i had to go..we ended up watching cheaper by the dozen..then went to get icecream after tt..tt movies pretty damn funny..but at one point when the dad found the kid tt ran away in a subway station i started crying..i mean not tt bad but..yeah you get my drift. haiz..i slept at 6am this morning..cuz the room was too hot and the radio was too loud..so i woke up at 3pm..yeapp.i dont exactly really have anything to sya. im just boredd..i hate christmas here.

REBECCA CHEONG YOU DO MYMYMYMYMY TRADEMARK EVER AGAIN I WILL MAKE SURE YOU TITS ARE IN VERTED!! MUDDAMUDDASCREWYOU whoooo. anywayy..actually i didnt really mind going to monkshill i can tell you..cuz i was thinking of studying harder..and get to the top of express students..which is gonna be so easy cuz theres oly 1 class of express 1 class normal..then i can get a higher chance of appealing out ..righttt? haiz. but nvm..cuz im not gonna go to local sch anymore..weeehahahha!! my freaking roaming hasnt been activated so i cant sms anyone yetttt...! whalanehhh! (ahlian talk) haha..anyhoo its christmas and we're doing nothing..as usual..like..every year we end up driving around on christmas eve looking for a place tts open for dinner..and then on christmas we always tay at home..the whole family not together..uurghhh. it wouldve been so much better if we just went back every christmas..not tt i hate LA or anything..but christmas and new year here is the most boringest thing ever..cuz noones here..haizz..anyhoo gonna go nowws..

!

whoo! okkk i arrived here like a few hours ago..lost track of time cuz i fell asleep.whooopss.anyhoo its still christmas eve evening nows..haha..urgh..my sisters sleeping too..dad and my brother are either sleeping or out..my mom is with her sister cooking. damnit.im hungry..friendster is all jacked up. damnit. im gonna go eat something..ciaoo.. -beatriz

ps. yoyo everybodayee gonna miss ya'll bitches aiights. call me sometime we HAVE to hang out more often..je t'aime amore

omgomgomgomgomg..in a huuggee rush..im going back to LA..coming back on the 5th..cuz im going to SAS!!!!!!...totally random..my mom rushed into my room at 6 in the morning..told me to get my ass outta bed and pack cuz the flight was in 3 hours..damnit! im still kinda dissapointed about not seeing my friends for christmas and new year...but haizz..but ill be seeing you guys soon i hope. xoxoxbeatriz

i think this is the greatest song ever..

I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

yayy. bought my dress today..i actually wanted a pink satin one..but everyone said i looked fat innit. :(. its just a black dress from Guess..with a lil lace above the v-neck boobs. ok nvm i dunno how to describe..haha..but. yeah. walked around paragon with my mom after eating....and my heels were SO killing me..the worsest pair of shoes ive even worn...anyway...then we went my aunt and my cousins came.. then we went to dfs..and pinky was there..didnt buy anything tho..haiz. not exactly in the mood to shop.. but i wanted a diamond butterfly ring..which is so damnnassed cool..but its 22000++ bucks mann! yeah..you read it right.. twenty two thousand++..haiz..

oh yeah wanted a bvlgari wallet..and a burberry.. but..i think the prada ones better. damnit. shit the perfumes giving me allergy..perfumes are so cool!!!! i tested so many perfumes but they all smelled like shit..except still jlo but my senses are kinda dead today..and my nose is so itchy omfg...friendsters all jacked up.. asking me to sign in again every 30 seconds..urghHhH.itchy itchy itchy..gonne go next weekened to pierce my BEEEEP! and now my uniforms not so see through..hehehe. PRO liao...oh the uni skirt is like so damn long..im gonna change the uni upside down..gonna wear the shirt tucked out..folded up sleeves..shorten the skirt and turn it into a MINISKIRT..hahahaha..and wear skateboarding shoes...hehehe. so cute righhtt? muahaha. yepyep. might as well have fun while doing what i wanna do for once right ? and hopefully theyre not a every strict sch..yupyupp. haizzz. my eyes are swelling up..omg i hate perfume.............! ciaoo -beatriz ich liebe dich

things went pretttyyy bad today..went to monks hill in the morning..well ill admit..im getting a lil used to the idea of going to sch there..but i guess i just didnt want to go ther cuz i wanted to be with my friends. yepp.and ruis mom was nice enough to come with us.. yupyupp. anyhoo..then after registrating..we went to see st. margs..saw stephanie there but didnt get the chance to talk to her..but i got there and told my mom i really didnt want to go to st. margs..so we went to chij tao payoh..but my mom didnt like it. haiz. i mean..she wants to pt me in a girls sch..so i said chij..but she said monks hill is better.so what to do?! and now at the rate we're going i guess we're not going back to LA anymore. damnit. i left most of my clothes there. yeah and then we went to MOE cuz my english peper..i remembered i shaded 5 questions wrong but its correct on the question paper..kayy tt was very confusing i know..but they said its too late to check the papers..cuz there was a short periood where we were allowed to check our psle papers in sch.. but ms heng never told us about it..whalao..so we couldnt do anything..haiz.

yepp. so tmr we're gonna have to get my monkshill uni..and my books.blablabladeeblabla. hur..todays juls bday..but i feel so bad cuz i dunno wether i can go out withem..

yup ok cant. moms being a total fucker..she doesnt have what i takes to be a fucking understanding parent mann..she doesnt understand anything. cuz shes a fucking loner with no friends.yeah im so bad. but hey. too badd.. making me so frustrated.blaming everything on me.. ok yeah its partially my fault.. but if she put a better sch than monks hill then it wouldve been so much better right? at elast i wouldnt have to worry so muchh. gurghh. wtvr. gonna go... lock myself in my room. maybe ill try something new..like. suicide.

its nerve-wrecking..im sittting here thinking.whats sch gonna be like from now on..everyones gone..urgh.its unexplainable.like..just. yeah. cant imagine anything else....its so fucked up seriously..my mom thinks ms heng didnt want to take me back..but i dont know..im not sure if im even willing to study harder or make an effort myself..because in situations like this i just dont care. then in the end i regret. regret.regret.

well..yesterday after sch..we ha juls cake..happy bday juls btw, then everyone came back to my house..jia,juls,hannah,rui,mei ping,elissa,jazreel, jia en, germaine baby,pei hui..yeahh..and jia ate like 14 packets of my cornnuts i swear..then everyone left..so me rui hannah juls and jia lazed around and we decided to go for lunch..so we went to cine and ate yoshinoya..then went to heeren..left after awhile..yeapp.oh last night i was talking to shaun for like 3 hours..jeez. my bills gonna be no just a bomb..a killer bomb...damnit.in the last 6 days ive been talking for 8 hours already..damn. haiz. ah well. gotta enjoy my friends before theyre gone huh? yeapp. anyway. we're about to leave. nervousnervousnervous..my stomach feels like its all wrenched up inside..urghhHh.

im upset. extremely.

lets just say from now on im a monkshillian. how bad is that? i mean fucking hell..i had all my hopes up for sc..and now it comes shattering down..urgh. tts it. my life is just. urghh.

i regret everything..regret not studying and everything..regret not caring about psle..urgh. sucks. im dissapointing everybody.. this feels extremely bad. it was worse when my mom started crying. ok tt was BAD . urghh. what if everyone theres an ah lian? what if i get raped.? what if everyone turns out to be bitches....???????!?!??!?!!!!!!!!!!!!"2;'2pw;ikegl dds kfglkdr.

my mind is just going crazy. i need by questions to be answered. imm going out of my mind. i need some answers. i need to hold on to my pride..but its gone..to tt one markk..its just.... gone

just came back from sch.. after being there for like..3 whole minutes..woohoo! record. anyway.. my mom made me go cuz she was too out of her head to find out the results..but ms heng said she couldnt tell her even if she knew..so. obviously the results hadnt got in yet...yknow ms heng has this black patch on her face and she tris to cover it with so much makeup..its becomes all.. pasty and..just gross.

[shudderr]

veryvery nervousss! hahaha on friendsteer..damn you should read natashas testimonial..to me..hahaha..she said i was insane and completely crazy....HUH!!! ok yeah tts true...hahaha..cuz this lifes too powerful..to let it go..or something lydat..nelly furtado has the most amazing-est eyes..one greeen one bluee!!! soo cooool! oh yeah this morning i woke up at like 5ish and i started writing testimonials for people..i wrote like..5 or 6..hey its hard work thinking of what to say...haha..hahahahah.haiz. there i go again.. wrote one for ...peter..rhea..judy..natasha..ezra..danielle..derrek....whoa man..7..hahabwahahhaha. haiz. im insaneee!!!!! kayy byebyeee! so nervous im gonna pass out...oh yeah i feel like going..dancing, karaoke-ing, dancing,dancing,puking,running, shopping, weeeeeahahahaha -beatriz

woke up at like 3am.. mom came back from america..haiz. feeling so tired..ive been sitting her since 8..and its 11..shit its 11 already.......! damnit. i rather have mom NOT here. she takes over everything. haizz...whatever lahhhs. eeeep! i said whateverrrr!....did i mention i hate people who say whatever. sheesh. anywayyys...friendster is so slow. jesus. i need to eat manNnnn. haiz... tomorrows posting day!!!!! damnit. what time to go? haiz. gonna go now. -beatriz

just a quick update before i go up to sleep again..damn jetlag. went to eat lunch with dad at funan.. had thai.. and it was so hot i started crying.. hahahhaha. funnyfunny..went to pick bec and mel up..went to cine..wanted to watch a movie but was all wierd times..and we missed the lido one by 20 minutes.. so we walked around.. did starshots.. pretty cool..turned out kinda good..but we had to wait 45 minutes so we walked around again..mel bought this extra cool dice lighter for titss christmas pres..anyway..after tt walked to heeren.. saw shumei.. and i walked over and was like "hey i saw you on the 17 cover" and she just smiled and didnt say anything.. so i was like.. righhhhtt. and i just saidd bye and walked away..haha.yeahh. tabi mustve twacked her head up. went to heeren..and went to the piercing place..thought about it..but needed ID..so couldnt do it.. and sat down at spinellis talking..i look kinda gross today.haiz. i look like a japanese wannabe.. not intentionally..haiz..OH! i wanna go to the sentosa countdown party 2004..its lik 31st 9pm..till 7am on new years day or something..theres gonna be a foam party and fireworks and everything.. but im only gonna be able to go if my cousins go i bet. HUH!. tickets are 25 bucks..anyhoo exhausteddd!!! ciao -beatriz

im so crapped out. no energy. urghh. went for tennis training..3 hours of exhaustion and slavery. haiz. got jing xuan and jillians number..and there was this new p6 girl from nan hua..which means shes obviously going to SC next year.. and the 2 whatever-their-names-are people came.. and theyre part of the group tts gonna decide whether i can go back to SC or not. haizz. so i took out my earrings and dumped it on the floor.. but i forgot to erase my black nail polish......! 2 days. 2days. 2 days. im scaredddd. and screwed. eeeee! sheeeeesh. i need water..my thigh muscles are throbbing. theyre aching. they hurt. they suck. ..oh and this moron of a bec got 2 abs before meee! assshole.


thinking of what to do today.

whoo. went to united square to meet mel and bec again..im under fricken house arrest!!!!!!! nnnooooo. sheesh. i can only go out with my cousins. so i might as well yah? haha they got so offended.. they think of themselves as my last resort.. hehehe. cant sleep..been up since 4.. rui fell asleep on meee...so now im bumming around. with friendster..im so boreddd. sheesh i haven said tt in a long time huh..sighh gonna go now.. ciao -beatriz

when the going gets tough...

GO SCREW YOURSELF MUTHAFUCKA!
haha...just felt like saying tt..haizz..this entry is just to vent..so you dont have to read it cuz youre gonna find it boring but here goes..


cant help it...but..tt song keeps reminding me of him.. sighh..no wait.. its not even a song... its a fucking RINGTONE!..how fucking lame is tt? cant stop myself from thinking about him when i hear Espionage...a ringtone..how can a ringtone control my thoughts?

its wierd isnt it? how i used to think he was my everything...he was my secret.

but now its nothing. an evanessence. a wonder.

but its over now. i dont want to force myself to think of it...but i just do...i cant stop myself..no matter how hard i try...keep thinking..then i remember..about all the times he was a betraying little fuckface. but whats done is done..nothings changed. it wont ever.

why does everything happen to me? when i think my life is perfect because of the privileges i get to being beatrice ding hui qi...my life comes sinking down..below my feet..below existence. my life can never be perfect. ive done so much wrong..so much to dissapoint..so much to laugh about.. so much to cry about.

im caught in the middle

i got out a new notebook..[yes, i have many cuz i collect them].. and i started writing out all my feelings..it was pretty cool to be reading i complete sentences what was all mixed up in your head...sometimes..i cant understand life at all..cant understand other people..and the way they think. tts why they say everyone is different..what would you be doing..? if you thought you werent..attractive enough...or funny enough..or popular..or enough to be somebody? youd think life was a mistake..tt you belonged somewhere else.

how can people think like tt? ok ill be honest..i do tt to.. but god didnt create people to let them think of themselves as an ugly piece of nothing...right?..............right? then youd start cutting yourself..or abusing your mind. and drugs? yknow..if it wasnt for the anti-drug...half the people doing drugs right now wouldnt know what new types to try..right? like the commercials will say... "cocaine isnt good for you... support the anti-drug campaign" or something.. and the person... if, for example didnt know what cocaine was.. he would know now.. and hed try it...its just dumb..somethings work....just not how people plan it..

and some people are so self absorbed..youd wonder how they made it a point to think about other people..the world is just....shmucked up...

ok enough of my pschology shit.. now about my personal life....
my grandparents.. are so...urgh. my grandad put me on house arrest..my grandma calls me every 5 minutes to check if im still at home..my sister left for LA this morning...my grandparents are in malaysia..my bro and mom are in LA.. and my dads at work... my moms coming back on sunday...joyy. the playboy bunny is really cute..its so fun to draw haha.. oh at guitar center did i mention i saw the playboy gibsons? theyre so extra superduper cool..me and rui were talking again just now.. she asked me to guess what she got me for christmas..last year she got me nipple warmers from new zealand. HAHA..yeah..and no, i dont use them.. ;) haha..yeah i dont.. i feel like going dancing ..time to get sexaye..sweaty bodies up against mine..feeling the groove..the beat of the song..
yup.
but not now -`*beatriz

heya! IM BA-ACK!..hehehe...know you missed me *thankyou,thankyou* ..haha...i came back by myself!!! so proud of me.. haizz.. hahaa. had jetlag...so i woke up at like 230..and talked to rui and julie till 5am...! lols.. then julie had to go.. so me and rui talked for another hour..i neeed to go out...i miss orchard... :((...its my baby..

i wanna do so many things..but dont have the time.. anyhoo.. yesterday arrived at noon...went home then after i took a shower i went to paragon to meet bec mel and michelle gg.. im now officially her maid. .... haha yeah..ate lunch and walked around.. i finally bought my bras... MUAHAHA. oh yeah in las vegas.. we were on the way there.. and my brother was driving.. and halfway we stopped to get gas.. and when he got off the seat.. there was a chicken bone on the seat... hahahahahhaa... we were like wtf who ate chicken? but noone did.. and tt was seriously damn frikken scary...anyway..im gonna go get some breakfast.. i havent ate for...20 hours.....! -beatriz

barabubabuhh...im lovin it
k nvm tt was lameee... anyhoo.. im in las vegas nowss! but damnassed boring.. cuz the resort has NOONE! its deserted mann.. cuz its the week before christmas so theres not alot of people...haiz. yeah anyway.. yesterday we drove up here in the morning.. took 6 hours..and we stopped at the outlet malls on the way.. didnt really buy anything..yeapp..then we arrived at Caesers palace..shit i have no fucking idea hoow to spell tt word...

yeah then we watched celine dions concert thingy at 8.. its was pretty cool actually.. they have WINGS! the dancers.. yeahh..oh then haha after tt me and brother went back up to the room...and on the way to the room he hit me.. so i used my plastic bag to hit him back...and hit him on the face.. then tt idiot ran and locked me out of the room..and didnt want to open it for 5 minutes...i was so goddamn pissed...and i was banging on the door and shouting and the room next door was like complaining...and this old couple was staring..then after he let me in i was like wtf is your problem.. and i started punching him.. so he punched me back.. and i was like wtf grow up fucker..and i walked out of the room.. hes a seriously big jerk.. haiz whatever anyway..this m.orning we went to this mall..and i bought 2 pairs of tightass shoes! from zara and joey..they have zara in las vegas! damn. ... yeahh..and today we came to ritz carlton resort.. which is so fucking boring i can kill myself..theres alotta shops in this italian-lookalike village... but theyre all empty.. HAHA. yeahh..tmr we're driving back to LA!! woohoo. but im going back to singapore tmr night so.. yeahh.. cant wait! then after christmas were coming back to LA.. damnn..

DASHBOARD CONFESSIONALLLLLLLL!!!!!!!! theyre so yum.. the singers so hot.. damnit. im gonna go now..-beatriz*miss all of youuuuuuu!

heyas. its saturday afternn heres..havent been doing much lately.. bumming around..sleeping..haiz..wel tmr we're gonna drive up to las vegas...hehe.oh but bummer.. i dunno how im gonna get back to singapore!the flights are all full..and it takes 2 days to get back.. and i have a week to get to posting day! damn. ah well. then too bad. yknow its really sad here cuz on every street.. theres a homeless person sleeping on the ground.. yeah its really saddd..haiz.

its the first time ever.. and i actually miss singapore..miss my friends..my dogs.. my house..girls night outs... haiz. everyone else is having fun in singapore while im stuck here washing dishes and crapping around. and the worst part.. after posting day. (if i even get back in time).. on the 24th im gonna have to come back here for another week.. tt means ill be spending christmas on the fucking plane!!! how gay is tt? im so fuckstrated. ok frustrated. my moms so ridicolous. she hates me. she literally wants to see me die and go to hell...not tt i dont mind being away from her... but i rather see her suffer.. then die . like maybe i can put her on a bed with plugs attached to her mouth.. for a month. muahah. whoops shes back.. see ya soons -beatriz

rudolph the red nose reindeer..had a very shiny nose..

haha im in the christmas-sy mood right now..cuz i just watched Elf with my brother.. HAHa damn its a goodassed movie..i was laughing so bad..yeah you can imagine tt huh. haha yeahh..yesterday me and my mom went to Urth cafe again.. had brunch.. cuz i woke up at lunchtime again.. and my brother went driving again.. yeah so i just ate a bagel and got so totally pissed with my mom.. i mean seriously..she never lets me make my own decisions.. which im old enough to..and she never takes no for an answer.. which is totally annoying..then we went home for awhile.. my brother came back.. and we went to play tennis in the evening.. and it was so cold and i was there standing in my thin mini skirt..haiz. yeah before we left i got into another huge fight with my mom. a real dumb one. i didnt bring my tennis shoes.. so i told her..and she totally lashes out on me.. like "WELL THEN GO FIND ONE!" i was like.."jeez chill..where am i spossed to find any tennis shoes?" and shes like "WELL TTS WHY IM ASKING YOU TO GO FIND ONE!" i was like "damn..fine..stop shouting ..sheesh" and she looks at me all pissed and shit.. what the hell man i was just telling you i had no shoes.. so i go to the back and i find one pair of shoes..bring it to her and say "are these tennis shoes?" shes like "NO! THERES ANOTHER PAIR!" i was like no. and shes like "THEN GO UP AND FIND ONE!" blablabla.. damnn. shes got serious shouting problems.. maybe shes like menopausal or something.. haiz. whatever. anyway. OHYEAH my god.. my maid found out my dog was pregnant.. like 7weeks pregnant.. damnn. anywayy.. they took the baby out of her stomach cuz she wouldve died if they gave birth to them. damn i miss jellybean. yes, jellybean is her name if you dont know. haha..i dunno..my dad said he wanted tt to be her name cuz she kept jumping up and down........? my dads kinda loose in the head anyway so...yeahh. im freezing my butt off.. ciao -beatriz

wassup homieeez.. haha..did i forget to say tt we saw simon cowell and tt woman diane something from the jlo movie.. damn.. if you live in LA youll see like at least 3 stars in a month..which is so cool ainit? yeah anyway..we went to westside pavilion last night but we had 30min till the shops closed.. so tt sucked..anyway i was looking at the C4s in the vans store..damnnn theyre tighhttt..but i was broke so i went out looking for my mom and my brother but i couldnt find them so i walked around till everything closed..oh bought some presents in ltd*too.. hannah youre gonna like your undies. hahass.. yeapp.. then i saw my mom and i got screwed cuz she couldnt find me and my brother went to look for me.. haiz. anyhoo today we went to Melrose again.. me and my brother walked up and down the streets..bought some shit but some stores just smelled so bad we had to walk out.. and after tt we realized they were 2nd hand shops.. damnnn..yo ill blog tmr morning.. im tired as hell -beatriz

yoyo everybodayeee! its sunday noon here...we just went to the farmers market again.. bought some fresh strawberries and honey and stuff. YUMMM! anywayy..on friday night me and my brother went to watch Honey.. OMG its fucking good.. the music was so cool i wanted to stand up and dance...! haha.. anyway. yeah its really cool and jessica alba is so purtyy..shes hot as hell yeah then we went to eat dinner in hollywood.. drove up and ate thai food.. there was these singers and haha one of them was elvis.. like with the shining stuff going on...haha and 20inch high platformss.. lols. yeapp.. then yesterdayy.. we went to ...where? urmm oh yeah we went . oh shit i forgot. well last night we went to bayside.. and i bought some cool shit in american eagle oufitters.. damnnn i miss shopping in LA. theres so much more shiet .. american eagle..abercrombie..von dutch..pacsun..vans...GURGH. i wanna live here mann.. whats the point of having a house here when you only stay in it half a year? and everytime we come.. either the house or the cars or something needs to be fixed..something always needs to be fixed..

haiz. whateverrrss...yeahh oh my brothers always crypt walking.. so the other day he bought a tape on c walking.. and after tt he didnt dare to crypt walk in public again cuz the tape said if you crypt walk in america.. you might get shot.. hahhhaha.. cuz every gang in america has a different style.. LOLS. yeah so now he chickened out. OH YEAH when we washed the car the other day i drove it! hahas. yeah for like.. 20 seconds. lol. cuz my bro was too scared id get caught by my mom or id crash. yeahhh. hrms. ah wells. tata fer nowws! -beatriz*te quiero

heyys finally went to lawrys last night! yumm..OH and the waitress thought my nails were cute! MUAHAHAHA hot pink and black ... anywayy we drove all the way to burbank/vannuys just to eat krispie kreme! so good..bought a dozen.. and 3of us sat there eating and when we were leaving we bought another dozen to eat tmr morning.. haha..oh yeahh the scariest thing happened today.. we were on the way back home after breakfast.. and then we were at a traffic light.. and there was this car which was like.. slanted halfway on 2 lanes..then we saw this policeman on the side and a lady like really reall frantic..then we looked inside the car and the old lady tt was sitting next to the lady was dead in the car.. jesus tts so scary...i mean like.. imagine youre driving with your mother and she suddenly dies right next to you in a freaking car... damnnn. anywayy. shit i just freaked myself out.. anywayy.. yeah then we came back home and me and my brother washed the new car.. OH YEAH did i forget to say tt last night we were locked outta the house? yeahh. my mom left the key inside and she closed the door.. and she already put the alarm on and everything.. so my brother drove us down century city to a locksmith.. so we went back and the locksmith guy came..and he had to drill open the door.....haha yeah. jesus yknow when he bent down.. i was standing behind him.. mann you could see his fucking asscrack..i was like..damn..yeahh. it was fucking cold and i had to stand there for like 20 minutes or half an hour yeah it doesnt sound tt long but sheesh when you stand out there it fucking freezes your boobs. um. yeahh. anywayy.. i think we're gonna go down to century city to watch Honey. YEAH! -beatriz

woohoo got my lowdunks!

hehehe..pink and brown yo! miehehehehe. anywayy..yknow i hate my habit of saying 'jesus christ'...cuz everytime my mom does something stupid wihch is pretty often i always shout 'JESUS CHRIST WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM??' haha.. then i start laughing.. and people start staring cuz theyre probly offended...and theyre christians...oh.. even worse..staunch christians ...uhm hmm. anyway..yeah my brother managed to get his driving permit today.. like.. after another 4 hours of waiting...yeah hes happy.. acting like a retard laughing more than usual..but anyway we went to the grove yesterday.. bought some cool shirts.. PINK AND BLACK! haha..MUAhahahahhaa..hahahha... yeahhHh. kinda losing it now...ate apple pan for dinner last night! yumyum.. the guy like... always remembers our family cuz my parents have been going there fer like...15 years.. before i was born.. cool huh? haha..yeahh...went to melrose today..bought a van dutch cap! woohoo. then my brother stole it. they had some cool shit but they were all like 40us for one friggin shirt so i didnt get anything.. tts like.. 80bucks sing for one? yeah about there. damn.

o0o i love the commercials here..theyre so damn funny.. haha.. anyway..then we went to the supermarket... my brother thought he saw seth.. seth coen. tennis camp. totally hot but totally short. HAHA. tt sounded jacked up.. but yeahh..then we went to Urth cafe... saw tt actor... urmMm. the black actor..forgot his name.. yeahh Urth cafe always has all these celebrities going there.. cooool huh. then went to buy lowdunks! yayyyyYyYyy. cool shiet. OH but i was gonna buy my black and pink vans damnit. nevermind. ill have both! woohoo. im on this WOOHOO roll now. oh shit. i think my brother just drove the car out with my mom. damnit. without me. damnit. -beatriz*

LOL went to disneyland yesterdayyy!!! hahaha..damn funn!..yeappPp...went with tits and kat..lol we went to pick kat and her mom up at the hotel.. and halfway my mom ate some mints.. and shes all like "ew i dont wanna smell like toothpaste" so she opened my window.. and jesus..the window couldnt even close.. and i was fucking cold ahh..kayy anyhoo we went fer lunch... then went back home and we went to disneyland! haha.. the ride there took like a fricken hour.. we used to go there like all the time when we were young.. then we kinda outgrew it.. but it was SO fun..we took the rollercoaster like so many times...sat right in front the last time on tt ride.. and christ.. after we got off i couldnt feel my face... hahahaha...it was so fucking cold..yeahh... i wanted to buy my big Nemo.. and my wierd hat.. but i didnt wanna walk all the way backk..cuz the last ride we took.. was this water ride.. and we didnt know we were gonna get that wet..haha..sheesh my pants were all soaked..CHURROS!! gahhHhH...yumyum.

went there fer like...6hours..but it was too dark and cold..so we came back home..oh and bought those lollipops.. yknow the swirlyswirly ones? haha yeahh..tittys bought the bigass one..cuz he liked the color haha yeahh then all of us wanted to go to pinks.. but the line was so super extra long..so we went to this japanese restaurant..oh yeah today was such a waste of time.. we went to DMV.. my brother was gonna take his written test for his drivers permit.. waited 30min in line for a queue number.. then the lady said itd take another 3 hours to reach his queue number...sheesh so we went to eat lunch at this small ribs place...yumMMm...cornbreads good.. anywayy..then we went back to dmv..and my mom just HAD to drive the car with the screwed up window..gahh so she made me sit in the car waiting for another hour..so i had to go to the newpaper stand to buy a fricken newspaper to read...then they came back and said tt he couldnt take it cuz my dad wasnt here to sign this shit dunno fuck..what the fuck right? whallaoooehh...haiz. so dumb. but ah well..so tmr my moms gonna try again. but its not gonna work anywayy so i dunno why the hell she bothers..

sheesh everyones getting new emails now im so confused..i dont know who they are...damnnNnn. i neeeeeddd to go shopppiinnngggggg. kayy im too cold..gonna go eat dinner -beatriz*missyall!*