so just kiss me

2004-01-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

*mooved

2004-01-12T20:39:00.000+08:00

omgomg. im damnnndamnnndamnnn stupid. im not spossed to eat seafood for 2 weeks righhttt. then yesterday.. i eat dimsum! today .. i eat half a fish! omgomgomgomgomg im damnnn dead lorhhh. must wait to see what happennsss!!! hope i dont diieeee!

anyway. i have officially moved. the next entry ill be posting in any diary will be in my new diaryland.. http://love-beatriz.diaryland.com btw, if you wanna link me.. dont put http://www.love-beatriz.diaryland.com ..cuz it wont work.. you cant put www. dont ask me why..

yeap. smelly melly came to send val back and give me my teuscher chocolates. yumyum! she bought what i wanted and she showed her gayass mudafudging pic of ahem. yesyes. julies now INSULTING ME tt lil bitch.. tmr after sch.. oh shiittt! i have guitar at 430.. how can i fucking make it if it takes so long to come back home goddamnit.

wait. since its my last entry here.. i should. hemhem. make it.. special. bwahaha. hem no serious. new people. new school. new crowd. new friends. new blahs. new blah bllaahhss. hahah.. yeapp. its gonna be pretty different from scgs. from the amazing people i met there..different teachers.. yeahhh. its pretty sad aint it? leaving something youve been attached to for so long? like my maids leaving tmr morning.. and she came up the stairs right as i was about to go down.. and she said "im leaving tmr morning..so im sorry for what ive done wrong to you"...and she started crying. but i didnt know what to do mann. so i stood there and she walked away. .teaches you something aint it?

anyway i better get going peoples.

2004-01-12T16:47:00.000+08:00

alrighty..im glad to say..bruising is normal

yay.thought i was dying of infection there. some are probly confused and theyre going.. HUH?!. but some are actually smart enough to figure out themselves whats happening even tho i didnt tell anyone else.yeah.....RIGHT ..YOU?

haha feeling very..hemmm. wierd now. im happy yet confused yet anxious yet nervous yet scared yet. yeahyeah you get my drift. went to the supermarket just now.. someone sent us these yummmmmmyyy pineapple tarts omg theyre sooo goooodddd. not like a normal one. im a professional pineapple tart eater...!!! hahaha. nopenope theyre just so goooddd! yumyum.i was spossed to go see Ratree at far east. but melly helped me ask. im gonna go on friday to see her after school with melly. i hhooppee everythings alright. yeah. scared.

the school schedule is very confusing..like theres red day 1, red day 2, white day 1, white day 2, blue day 1, blue day 2. wtf right. tmrs red day 1..sarah spalding for homebase..trina called me just now and told me tt homebase is the where the geeks are! just my luck. i have cravings for blondies at dkny cafe. damnit.my whole tummy is so happening. everything to do with my tummy hurts. the woorrrssttt place to hurt. forr meeeeeeee. anyway. i gotta go get my diaryland ready..the links, tagboard, etc. catcha guys later yo ~~seeing~~ loving is believing

2004-01-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

eeeeeeeekkk. its bruisseddddd

went to sch this morning to fix my schedule and stuff..chris and her family were there as well.. her sisters also going! i had no idea..haha anyway. sadly all the better electives were all full so i ended up with art and strings. tt means i have to play violin in the fucking orchestra. i meann i dont wanna play violin..but my moms forcing me so i dont have a choice right..i wanted to tell her there to change it but i decided to keep my mouth shut. cuz she wouldve made a huggee fuss outta it and embarassed herself.. and me.

whatever. hopefully in the next semester ill be able to change. im thinking of joinng acostic guitar club..and dance club. yupyup. we could take either dance or PE..but dance was full. damnit. did my library card. HAHA tt was funny. at first on the computer my eyes looked one big one small (they always do)..but im lucky cuz it turned out fine. MIEhehe. yup got my uniform but lucky for us the only uniform is the SAS shirt..and anything navy blue for the bottom..and whatever shoes. just no heels. slipper also can! hehe.

i ate like a pretty big breakfast omg. feel so bloated. in addition to it being the time of the month. urghhh. gotta get my hoochy off the chair and do something! but first i neeeed to go to far east. todayy

2004-01-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

uhm hmm. juls gotta blog! but theres really no point adding her link here cuz tmr ill be transferring everything over to the new one. hmm. todayy. went for lunch..chinese again and after tt me and val went to passion to do our hair.. man it was like the Ding familys lady reunion mann..hhaa.. me,val,bec, my 2 aunts..grandmother.hahaa..anywayy. i rebonded my hair again..omg i sat there for 4 hours mann. butt was damnnn pain. val streaked her hair blonde and dyed the others blueish black..hahha omfg the people doing our hair were like damnnnnn funny..cuz my aunt always goes there and she knows them so theyre not shy lahh..damnnn fucking funny..theres a new guy Sam..omg he did my sisters hair..both of us were like laughing like mad damn loud..hahahaaa...and cuz he did my sisters black hair dye..so his hands became all black and it stained so it couldnt wash off..hahahaha.. then he was like "omg! valerie i hate you! chinese new year how to take biscuit!!!!?!" hahahhahahahahaha. omfgggggggg... soo funny. hahaaa. damn im laughing now just thinking about it mann. hahhaahahahhaa. damn. ok. calm downnn.

whoo. ok. haha.aa. ok.

wha my stupid sister right.. never do her homework so she made me sit there for half an hour sticking pieces of paper on cardboard and writing dunno what shit there mann. wtf. labour. should get her to payy mmeeeeee. muaha. anyway. tmr i have a meeting with my counsellor and christina at 9am.. so i better get goinnggg! mwuahmwuahmwuah*

2004-01-11T09:23:00.000+08:00

alrighty. ended up not going out fer dinner last night..cuz my cousins had another dinner and i was having baaddd allergy all offa sudden..my whole face was firing up. haha yesterday when we went back to becs house i was upstairs with mel and jazryl..haha omg damn funny the things jazryl does..haha she has this like pronounciation problem omfg hahaa. no she doesnt but she sounds like it..hahaha. esprit becomes ee-spirit. hahaha.. and bvlgari is booger-ee and shes like " boog..booger.. ahya shit lahh.." hahahaa.omg damnnn funny i swear.. patrina smsed me last night so i was talking talking..then she replied back one time "no trina wants to watch tmr. watching lord of the rings now" so i was like huh.. then i asked who it was.. it turned out to be her mom!!!! omgomg i almost died mann..her mom types like a normal teen damnit. my goodddddd. haha pai sei pai seii

we were spossed to watch school of rock later but my parents came back from america this morning so my dad wants to go for lunch. haizzz. buraapapa. ohhh yeahhh. yknow rightt. i created this new diaryland one..so tt i could change to tt when school started ..then i just read chriss blog and realized shes also doing tt! chris if youre reading this arhh dont say i copied you cuz i created it long time aggoo! yeah just wanna get tt clear.

wheee ooo. tmrs orientationnn. then tuesdayyy!!!!! school starts. feels so wierd. humhumhum. gahhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rui called me this morning mann telling me she has a stomachache and shes farting everywhere. ooops was i not supossed to say tt? OOHH YEAHH this retard bec also arh..sms me saying shes farting and damn smelly. whallannn its like i CCAARREE ok nvm i shouldnt complain cuz i always tell people also. hahhaaa.

2004-01-10T17:22:00.000+08:00

urghh. cant stop sneezing. my blanket smells like piss cuz my dog pissed on it and im too scared tot ell the maid cuz right before she changed it the dog pissed on it also..hahaa.. so now i have to use a damnnn smelly blanket. damnit. anywayy. this stupppiiddd bec arhh. we go to heeren. which took like 20 minutes cuz of the traffic jamm..then half an hour after we get there..she has to ruch back home cuz she forgot she has tution. whallaoo mann. haiz. shortest time in orchard ever.

oh yeahh! we were feeling ditzy so we decided to take abit of every flavour of gummies in the gummy shop.. 20 bucks..haha. orchard seriously getting damnnass boring mann. oh yeah this morning i picked bec up and we went for breakkfast at tanglin mall macs. and i bought tt stupid orange monkey haha. whoo. tonights italian dinner. hope theres no seaaafooodddddd.

2004-01-10T08:11:00.000+08:00

omgggg its like. only 7+ now. feel like im going to school already.. but i havent! so. hehe. school started on the 5th but im only going on tuesday. miehehe. but now my brain calendar is all messed up cuz i keep thinking its still before christmas...damnnn. yesterday i got asked a question like when did it happen..and i was like january (meaning 2003 january) ..and damnit it is january. hemhemmm proves how dumb i am..

mellys bday partayeee 17th...! woohooo finally something not boring.

it hurtsss. :0-*screeeaaammmssss*

ana

behibak

2004-01-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

oh yeah. i feel like i accomplished something today cuz natalie called me just now and we talked for awhile and i asked her about her boyfriend and stuff.. and she said they were having problems cuz the school shes in now is like 70 percent lesbians..and her boyfriend doesnt like it but he doesnt want to break. so i gave her advice..told her to talk things out with him cuz if they keep going on like that..itll never work out.

wheee! feel so nice. hehe. im pleased with myself. i hafta do this more often. ill be the psychiatrist! heee-haww!

2004-01-09T23:11:00.000+08:00

went to check the school out with chris just noww..left after about half an hour or so..the school i really huge..i think ill get lost. gahh. dropped chris off cuz she needed to be back by 5 or something..and by the time we got there it was 445 cuz it takes like a fucking half an hour to get there. then i went home..and after 20 minutes i went out again. hahaaa. aint tt fast? anywayy..went to meet mel..tits..adrian....and mels friends at far east. did something naughty today. muahaha. hemhemhem. went back to mels place at about 7ish and went to eat sharks fin with my people. hemhem. but it was seafood damnit. so i ate like.. 1 mushroom. and one piece of chicken? haha. talk about being FULL.

patrina called me and were gonna hang out tmr. havent seen her for pretty longgg. but ill be seeing her in school..her mom has this badass impression of me. like..yeahhh seriously. i meann..our parents know each other so she cant hate me that bad.. but. ahh fuckit. im seriously tired..normally id be sleeping now..so im sooo beat im gonna go right up to bed after this. and then id be awake at like 3 or 4am damnit. urghhh. this entry is sooo boring im boring myself just reading it damnit. hopefully ill be able to write some stuff actually interesting when school starts

2004-01-09T14:25:00.000+08:00

just had lunch. macaroni in mushroom soup. i remember i used to eat it whenever i came home from school and mom wasnt at home to cook. at least 3 days a week.. but sometimes we'd both be out. so its become one of my favourites now..how ironic aint it?

ive changed a whole lot..like. emotionally and psychically..i find myself sometimes crying over ..nothing. id be in bed..almost asleep..and tears start to fall..or id be in the car waiting..and i start crying my eyes out without a reason..and just now.. my maid was mopping the floor in my room and i walked in..jumped on the bed. and just stared. stare stare stare. staring through the walls..through the windows. through everything and i couldnt focus.

this might sound ridicolous but as she was mopping the space i was looking at.. she missed a spot..and my eyes could tell between the shiny wet surface, and the dry. i found myself pondering at how she couldve missed it, why didnt she see it..and when she would make the dry spot wet and shiny. isnt that ridicolous?

yes, maybe i sound disillusioned. or maybe its depression....? is it depression? i never wouldve thought id ask myself that question..

i need a fresh new start. i wish i couldve done this all over again..but i cant so the least a could do is forget about the worrying and clean my mind of the past. 2003 was pretty cool tho. alotta shit happened. but it was cool.

this year, oh no, last year should i say. has been a hell offa joyride. ive changed alot too..meeting new people..realizing how i want to live and what i want to do. getting in trouble. setting bad examples. been judged. but i had my share of fun. but one thing, the latest situation i got myself into. to me at first, was to maybe bring me and my parents closer and learn from this. but actually now.. three of us are miles apart. things between my mom and i..are farfar very far. we shout at each other..we expose to people what is not supossed to be exposed. and right now i dont have anymore respect for her. in the future tho, i know everything that happens now will be to her how she handled me and watched me and she probably will say thats all part of growing up. but is it? and then..me and my dad.. have become. a little tinge closer. note the tinge. we've spent time together..we treat each other fairly. hes happy. im happy. we're both happy. hee-haw.

why cant everything..stop? i dont wanna spoend my last breath full of hate. cries. tears. nothings.

i mean, seriously. nothing ever goes my way. ok yeah i myself know i sound so.. spoilt to say that. but really. the whole world revolves around my sister in this family. shes the oldest. she supossedly knows more..acts older..is more important. yeah, whatever. she always gets what she wants. sure shes this part animal..with the super hot body and the coolest clothes..but her personality doesnt match her sweet face. nonono. her face is fierce. wild. her personality nothing compared to sweet.

do i sound jealous? maybe. sometimes. yeah. never. umm. am i?

dont you wish you could be older most of the time? like. you think the older you are the more priviliges you get? in some cases thats true.. more freedom. more trust. but its hard to grow up. which reminds me. im 13 in three months! is that good? bad? hmmmm.

my childhood wasnt really close to normal..we children got the privilige to travel around the world..buy the cutest clothes and eat all the expensive food..but thats what killed me. my grandfather would treat us to dinners so regularly..i remember he always came into my room to give me candy..when i was sleeping ..hed put it on the table next to my bed. wed buy new gowns for every birthday dinner. especially my grandparents. theyd have great big parties..lots of people.
these are lil pieces of being a child.

the choices i choose are always wrong. why cant i get anything right for once?

2004-01-09T06:21:00.000+08:00

im awakkeee and dyinnggg. yesterday me and chris decided to go eat macs and tanglin mall.. and then she told me she turned vegetarian..hahaha. so she ended up eating a mcflurry. yepp then we went to cine..wanted to watch ju-on2 but wasnt showing or something..saw chermaine and xl..so we walked to heeren to buy gummies ..and on the way there i saw pugjelly's adam! mels friend val has a suuuppeerrr crush on him..haha... yeah and we sat at the fountain stoning..hahah..then walked allll the way to somerset mrt for nothing..and decided to take mrt back to orchard mrt station which was.. one stop.

haha cuz i was gonna teach chris how to take mrt ..and i thought i brought my ezlink..so i taught chris how to buy one cuz she didnt have..then after she went through the barriers..i opened my wallet..and my card wasnt there! hahahahaha. chris was like... "you idiot! that is ssooo not funnny".. hahahhaa. omg so i had to run back to the entrance to buy one for myself ..haha. and then once the train started moving..i realized we were going the opposite direction ..hahahhaha. we ended up in doby ghaut..then had to take back to orchard..hahaha.ah well it was fun..haha. then we walked all the way to far east and walked around..bought ice cream..then we took a cab back..dropped her off first and went home. and right after i got into the house..my brother and my cousin came in a cab..and right after they got out of the cab..my aunt came..hahaa. yepp. and we all ate dinner. yeah.

tmr. oh no wait. today we're gonna go play tennis..or check out the sch..or something.i dunno. we're both ssooo extra boorreddd! anyone wanna offer us a free trip to paris?or maybe a free shopping spree? huh huh huhhh?!. sch only starts on tuesday for us dude! were having orientation together on monday at 9.. omgomg. i neeeed to dooo somethingggg. i missss girls night outtsss :(:(:(. hannahhh julieee jiaaa alllyyyy come savveee meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2004-01-08T15:14:00.000+08:00

alrightyo. im back in singapore! left yesterday night..just went to sch to give mrs lee my prime donation card..i forgot about it and im the last one who sent it in. oooops. anywayy. me and mrs lee were like talking for awhile..yepyep and shes all..happpyyy and jumpy and ...humm. yeahh. i wanna go out but theres no driverrrr. my brother just went out with my cousin.. oh yeah. my cousin adrian came here from australia..to seeeee. not gonna say. anyway they went out to watch juon2 with her..im ssoo damn booredddddd. omg fuckit mann

2004-01-06T04:24:00.000+08:00

hohum. maybe this entry will be longer.. oh yeah. britney spears DID have sex with ustin timberlake actually..justin hinted in an interview tt britney wasnt so innocent after all..and then britney admitted or some shit like tt..it was on the news yesterday..like everybodys talking about it. whatever

omg im becoming a total freak.. im saying whatever. god. yeah ok anyway...im going to be starting sch on 12th..like christina..but im tooo damnnnn scaredddd! so nervous so nervous. but ive got patrina..and christina..and . ho hum. who? lenny? priscilla? my cousin? theyre a year older......! blooo. my dads sick..and he used a whole shopping bag fullll of tissue. snot king. :( tt means i cant go shopping for awhile..im leaving on wednesday most likely..my parents might be staying later so if they are i told them id leave ealier..so i dont know whats gonna happen. i neeeeed someone to talk to damnit. i need like a counsellor or something. damnit. i love you

2004-01-05T12:29:00.000+08:00

caught another fucking rat this morning..jesus. but it was toooo cute. it was really sad cuz the clip was right between the head and the body.. and it was just looking up with its beady eyes. ok ill stop disguisting myself.

anyway. oh yeah i did my nails yesterday.. so now theyre green with yellow white and black stripes..abstract art..? yeahyeah whatever. i hate the weather here in winter..its just tooooo cold. and whats worse is the house is tiled with marble..which makes it even colder. damnit. went to niketown today..and gotta snack at Chipotle after that..some kinda mexican grill..yumyum the burritos were yummmmm. did everyone here tt britney spears got married like. 2 days ago? to some jake anderson guy or something.. i think its just sooo stupid cuz she probly just wants to get married so she can say she didnt have pre-maritual sex or something. yeahyeah whatever.

i really wanted to write a long entry..but my moms being jackshit annoying..so i gotta go.. mwuahmwuahmwuah*

2004-01-04T10:38:00.000+08:00

yozaas!! its saturday 630 here..we just got back.. oh yeah did i forget to mention last night when we came back.. i saw a rat in the kitchen.. so we set up traps..and this morning my mom went down and started screaming damnnn loud she woke me up and i was sleeping upstairs..haaha..and she saw a rat trapped in the thing.. then i came down and saw like only the head inside the clip.. and it was jumping here and there holy crap.. damn gross. haizz. cant wait to get back....! too bad i wont be able to feel what secondarys like. damnit. anyway. today was a pretty crap day. didnt do much either.. ahs. im coming back on wednesday-ish..starting sch on the 12th. see yall.

2004-01-02T15:52:00.000+08:00

yep. im still here in LA...was spossed to leave this morning with my brother and my sister..then my dad told me he cancelled my ticket..i was like wtf damnit. anyway. last night was new years eve... we didnt do anything much..after dinner me and my aunt and sis went to the playoy mansion... to look at it.. they were having a party..but theere were fences and everything so you couldnt see anything inside.. ah well. this morning..or after.. i got up at 3..haha..yeapp. had lunch and me and my dad drove the Mondial Ferrari out to beverly center..whoo havent sat in tt for awhile...did some shopping..and bought another corset! damn. its my latest obsession, besides oldies music..shoes and hot pink and black.. yeap.

then we went to UCLA but the tennis courts were closed...so was the riviera courts..so we drove to malibu just to drive by the ocean... haha..then we went to buy KFC.. or what my dad calls kentucky fucking chicken.. hahaha..he bought a bigass load of it damn...anyway. then we came home.. me ..my mom and my aunt just came back from a walk around the blocks..pretty scary. its about 11.30pm here..yup. at first i was prettttyyy angry at my dad cuz iw asnt able to go back.. but now i guess im ok with it.. cuz he told me the reason why he didnt let me go cuz he wanted to spend more time with me here..i can understand that.. and besides.. i get to go shopping with him! tts the best thing you could ever do with him.. he doesnt care what you buy..hahhaa.. but sometimes he can be a real bastard

anyway..i bought my Nemo! bought my cole haan bag..my chuck taylors..my blablabla. but i still have things to buy. damnit. last night i asked melly how her new years party was.. she got the band Caracal to play at it..damnnn wish i couldve made it damndamndamn. but when i get back to singapore we're gonna join forces and have ANOTHER PARTY! woohoo. the chinks on one side..the americans on another.. hahaha.. hey, sounds pretty cool to me. -beatriz

2004-01-01T10:21:00.000+08:00

damnit i just almost set the house on fire..i left the stove on cuz i was cooking chicken noodle soup..and i left the wooden spoon on top of the stove and when i came into the room the spoon was on fire...hahahhaa. so now. its not a spoon anymoree..hahhaha. whoops.

anywayy..i lost 4 kg! but tts because i havent been myself lately..i havent been eating in the last week..cuz i either feel sick..dont have appetite..or i have gastric..i have no idea what the hells happening to me..i feel crummy everyday..i think its because of the big change i knmow is gonna happen in sas..like..yeah..

but. i dont know if im really confirmed going to sas..like.. my mom..tells me one thing.. and another minute she tells me some else..damn her man.. anyway..i went to do my eyebrows today.. its not as nice as the one i did before..cuz its too.. squareish.. but anywayy..then we all went to century city to go shopping.. since its the last day here.. my dad was feeling genorous and told us to get whatever we wanted and hed pay...damnnn. and yesterday he scolded us for using too much..hahah. didnt really buy much today anyway.. my mom was being a total bitch again and took my remaining 100 bucks away..so my dad secretly gave me another 100..hahaha ..anyway ill see you guys soon yall -beatriz

2003-12-31T15:59:00.000+08:00

damnit. the house alarm just went on 10 minutes ago and it wont stop.. its freakyy damnit. anywayyy...i bought my Converse shoes today! found out theyre called chuck taylors. hehe. damnittt. imagine a shoe called... beatriz dings hahaa..nope nvm. im going back the day after tomorrow...arriving on the 3rd at 2am.. me and chris are gonna go to orientation on saturday..damnit mellys having a new year party tt i was spossed to go to.. and shes getting Caracal to play..hahaha..tits was soooo jealous i swear.. he was like "damnit they suck..if i see them im gonna bash them up.. i wanna go to see how bad theyre gonna be" ahaha.. moron.

i still have pretty much to do...i needa buy hwee lis earrings..get my cole haan bag..get the hat from urban outfitter on melrose..orer the stuff online..get the pants from express.blabla. damnittt.but im happy to be going back.. yepp. tmr morning have an appointment to do my eyebrows at 11am.. wonder how im gonna wake up.. we went shopping today.. at beverly center..and before tt all 3 of us gotta bigass scolding frm our parents cuz we had no more money to go shopping. and we cried. haha. yeah. anywayy..i bought a pair of jeans.some skirts..some shirts..haha i gotta shirt form Bebe.. that says "bebe". yesyes, self inflated ego... hahhaa..i wanted to getta playboy bunny shirt but i had like only 10 bucks left...shit.

we just came back from dinner at Houstons..damnittt the barbecue ribs are yumyumyum.. miehe. ok nvm im talking about things you dont really care about..haha..yup..gonna go now..catch yall soon hunss jag alskar dig

2003-12-30T17:54:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo..its 2am cant sleeeeeeep damnitttt. al green rocks ma socks damnit! humhumhum..i miss someone :(. mahal kita

2003-12-30T13:03:00.000+08:00

heylos..today my outfit was totally ^punker mannn..miehehe.all hot pink and black..anyway..snoozed till like 1pm..then we all went out to montre park to eat...ended up eating vietnamese food..and then we went to Petmart for fun..was looking all around for the snakes..but they didnt have snakes!!! damnit. i wanted to get a crocodile gecko..but everyoe else thought it was so nasty. fuckit. then we went to target..then me and my sister went to wash our hair..my sister did hers curly while mine was poker straight..i miss having straight hair. :(.ook yeah...i have straight hair..tts cuz i rebonded it.. but its growing out naturally curly again.. damnit. i neeeeed to rebond my hair again when i get back..which is in like another 2 weeks or soso..

note to self:
-rebond hair when i go back
-buy my Cole Haan bag
-finish buying christmas presents.. (yeahyeah i know christmas is over..)
-go to abercrombie and buy more offems coolass shirts
-buy new Converse high-top black and pinks
-order Dashboard confessional messenger bag for sch
-order rock steady ring
-confirm Pacsun shirts

yup thats about it for now

2003-12-29T14:18:00.000+08:00

wasshhhuuuppp ma niggass!? im sudddenly on the kick listening to Al Green and Frank Sinatra..yep. tts just mee...o0o i love "baby its cold outside"..its such a cool song..damnit. well tts it actually..besides tt we went out for dinner with the quee family..yupyup.. cant wait to get back to singapore amore

2003-12-29T07:22:00.000+08:00

just ate lunch..its about 3pm here..me dad mom and tits went to farmers market..but before tt me and mom went to pick some stuff up and buy her things..damnit. people were staring at me all wierd cuz my pjamees were like pink white red and orange stripes hahahah..anywayy..ooh yeah last night after we ate javaneese food..we walked out of the restaurant and the wind was sooo strong.. they had this board on the roads to advertise..and the wind kept blowing it away..hahaha..so my dad tried to stop it but it blew onto the street and broke into 2...hahahhahaa..damnit. my sisters such a bitch goddamnit..she acts like a freaking 7 year old..arent older sisters supossed to be the cooler understanding matured ones? maybe she was spossed to be born last damnit. -beatriz te quiero baby

2003-12-29T02:32:00.000+08:00

heyhoo again dearies..im dead bored.its stilll like 10 or something here..ive been up for 6 hours damnit.im using my dads laptop in his room and damnit the words are like teenytiny i have to squint to look at the words..and i wonder how he sees cuz my dad is like.. half blind.. hahhaa..oh yeah.. damnit id i mention tt my sister and my brother saw shaquille oneal? DAMN YOU IF YOU DONT KNOW WHO HE IS! hes like the coolest basketball player ever..his house is hhuuggee..he has to drive around his garden just to get to another part of the house! haha..oh yeah..my sister met cameron diaz too! aqnd yesterday we went to bloomingdales..and sarah jessica parker walked past me! yep she was pregnant again damnit. shit. i keep saying damnit. kayy im going to attempt rapping

when i move you move..just like that?
when i move you move..just like that?
(one more time)
HELL YEAH HEY DJ, BRING THAT BACK

how you aint gonna fuck, bitch out me
im the goddamn reason you in VIP
ceo, you dont needa see ID
im young, wild and strapped like G ALI
BLEUGH! we aint got nothin to worry about
whoopass..let security carry em out
watch out for my medallion, my diamonds are reckless
feels like a modget is hanging from my necklace
i pull up, with a million trucks..looking smelling feeling like a million bucks-AH!
pass the bottle, the heat is on
we in the huddle all smoking tt chee an chong
whats wrong with the clubs and the movies boy?
im just looking for a thick young lady to pull.
one sure shot way to gettim outta yer pants
take note to the brand new dance, like this

MIEHEHE. o0o tt feels good. hahha. wtf. me and mom are gonna go to farmers market in awhile...im still in my pjammies..but im just gonna go out inem cuz its AMERICA BABY..noone gives a fuck. haha...goingsta buy ma fresh STRAWBERRIES ..hehhe. hahhaa omg.. my dad just started dancing to this nastyass jazz music..hahahhahaha whheeehhaha

2003-12-29T01:12:00.000+08:00

heyhoo huns!!! urgh. its 9am here..ive been up since 4 watching the sunrise..so romanticcc! kk i dont know in wha tway tt was romantic but ...haha ok nvm. anyhoo..last night was the first time since i came here tt i bought something.. miehehe..bought another corset..im suddenly crazy over corsets! damnit. theyre so cool. anyhoo yesterday we wento to play tennis..and it was damn fucking freaking cold goddamnit.

yknow..im so overly psyched about sas..but at the same time.. i wish i had gone to monks hill instead..dunno why. its probly cuz im just too used to local sch and im not used to the diea of international sch .. -yet. hot american guysss!!!!! LOL. hey, i gotta have SOMETHING to look forward to.. hahaha. juls is being a nigger..haha... heard tt you stupid nigger....hahhaa..damnit i miss everybodayeeee :(:(. DAMNIT.
te quiero

2003-12-27T06:11:00.000+08:00

i see the sleigh bells ringading dingdingdingalingdingg.
ok i dont know the words...woke up at 8am this morning..surpriseee! hehe. called juls and talked for about an hour..oh last night my sister saw a freaking rat downstairs..and everyone was sleeping upstairs cuz it was like 1am..but we didnt see it again..so its probly living in the guestrooms toilet or something haaha. me my dad and my aunt went to play tennis this morning too...but it was too sunny we could hardly see..yet i was freezing..haha.damnit. so we left after awhile and me and my dad went to the supermarket..damn cold too..then we came home and i had this bad stomachache so i went to sleep.and i had to come down to eat lunch..my dad just made this wierdass lemon sorbet..with mango puree onnit. yeah, my dad cooks. haha. [i can see the look on your face]. except when hes experimenting chilli sauce with orange juice..hahaha.. wonder what schs like..humhumhum. ....?.cant wait to go *beep* my *beep* miehehe. MIEhehehehe..im so happy...dunno whyyyYyY..hahaa have you ever heard of someone lying down to sleep..and when tt person hasnt even touched the pillow..hes already asleep? HAHAHA. yeah tts my dad.. hahahhahaha.. hes such a freaking ..freak. hahahaa. anyhooo. gonna catch my ZZzzZZzs now. see ya around chicas
aloha wau ia oi

2003-12-26T14:40:00.000+08:00

yeah. i had to go..we ended up watching cheaper by the dozen..then went to get icecream after tt..tt movies pretty damn funny..but at one point when the dad found the kid tt ran away in a subway station i started crying..i mean not tt bad but..yeah you get my drift. haiz..i slept at 6am this morning..cuz the room was too hot and the radio was too loud..so i woke up at 3pm..yeapp.i dont exactly really have anything to sya. im just boredd..i hate christmas here.

2003-12-26T07:50:00.000+08:00

REBECCA CHEONG YOU DO MYMYMYMYMY TRADEMARK EVER AGAIN I WILL MAKE SURE YOU TITS ARE IN VERTED!! MUDDAMUDDASCREWYOU whoooo. anywayy..actually i didnt really mind going to monkshill i can tell you..cuz i was thinking of studying harder..and get to the top of express students..which is gonna be so easy cuz theres oly 1 class of express 1 class normal..then i can get a higher chance of appealing out ..righttt? haiz. but nvm..cuz im not gonna go to local sch anymore..weeehahahha!! my freaking roaming hasnt been activated so i cant sms anyone yetttt...! whalanehhh! (ahlian talk) haha..anyhoo its christmas and we're doing nothing..as usual..like..every year we end up driving around on christmas eve looking for a place tts open for dinner..and then on christmas we always tay at home..the whole family not together..uurghhh. it wouldve been so much better if we just went back every christmas..not tt i hate LA or anything..but christmas and new year here is the most boringest thing ever..cuz noones here..haizz..anyhoo gonna go nowws..

!

2003-12-25T10:42:00.000+08:00

whoo! okkk i arrived here like a few hours ago..lost track of time cuz i fell asleep.whooopss.anyhoo its still christmas eve evening nows..haha..urgh..my sisters sleeping too..dad and my brother are either sleeping or out..my mom is with her sister cooking. damnit.im hungry..friendster is all jacked up. damnit. im gonna go eat something..ciaoo.. -beatriz

ps. yoyo everybodayee gonna miss ya'll bitches aiights. call me sometime we HAVE to hang out more often..je t'aime amore

2003-12-24T07:39:00.000+08:00

omgomgomgomgomg..in a huuggee rush..im going back to LA..coming back on the 5th..cuz im going to SAS!!!!!!...totally random..my mom rushed into my room at 6 in the morning..told me to get my ass outta bed and pack cuz the flight was in 3 hours..damnit! im still kinda dissapointed about not seeing my friends for christmas and new year...but haizz..but ill be seeing you guys soon i hope. xoxoxbeatriz

2003-12-24T00:32:00.000+08:00

i think this is the greatest song ever..

I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

2003-12-23T21:39:00.000+08:00

yayy. bought my dress today..i actually wanted a pink satin one..but everyone said i looked fat innit. :(. its just a black dress from Guess..with a lil lace above the v-neck boobs. ok nvm i dunno how to describe..haha..but. yeah. walked around paragon with my mom after eating....and my heels were SO killing me..the worsest pair of shoes ive even worn...anyway...then we went my aunt and my cousins came.. then we went to dfs..and pinky was there..didnt buy anything tho..haiz. not exactly in the mood to shop.. but i wanted a diamond butterfly ring..which is so damnnassed cool..but its 22000++ bucks mann! yeah..you read it right.. twenty two thousand++..haiz..

oh yeah wanted a bvlgari wallet..and a burberry.. but..i think the prada ones better. damnit. shit the perfumes giving me allergy..perfumes are so cool!!!! i tested so many perfumes but they all smelled like shit..except still jlo but my senses are kinda dead today..and my nose is so itchy omfg...friendsters all jacked up.. asking me to sign in again every 30 seconds..urghHhH.itchy itchy itchy..gonne go next weekened to pierce my BEEEEP! and now my uniforms not so see through..hehehe. PRO liao...oh the uni skirt is like so damn long..im gonna change the uni upside down..gonna wear the shirt tucked out..folded up sleeves..shorten the skirt and turn it into a MINISKIRT..hahahaha..and wear skateboarding shoes...hehehe. so cute righhtt? muahaha. yepyep. might as well have fun while doing what i wanna do for once right ? and hopefully theyre not a every strict sch..yupyupp. haizzz. my eyes are swelling up..omg i hate perfume.............! ciaoo -beatriz ich liebe dich

2003-12-23T12:34:00.000+08:00

things went pretttyyy bad today..went to monks hill in the morning..well ill admit..im getting a lil used to the idea of going to sch there..but i guess i just didnt want to go ther cuz i wanted to be with my friends. yepp.and ruis mom was nice enough to come with us.. yupyupp. anyhoo..then after registrating..we went to see st. margs..saw stephanie there but didnt get the chance to talk to her..but i got there and told my mom i really didnt want to go to st. margs..so we went to chij tao payoh..but my mom didnt like it. haiz. i mean..she wants to pt me in a girls sch..so i said chij..but she said monks hill is better.so what to do?! and now at the rate we're going i guess we're not going back to LA anymore. damnit. i left most of my clothes there. yeah and then we went to MOE cuz my english peper..i remembered i shaded 5 questions wrong but its correct on the question paper..kayy tt was very confusing i know..but they said its too late to check the papers..cuz there was a short periood where we were allowed to check our psle papers in sch.. but ms heng never told us about it..whalao..so we couldnt do anything..haiz.

yepp. so tmr we're gonna have to get my monkshill uni..and my books.blablabladeeblabla. hur..todays juls bday..but i feel so bad cuz i dunno wether i can go out withem..

yup ok cant. moms being a total fucker..she doesnt have what i takes to be a fucking understanding parent mann..she doesnt understand anything. cuz shes a fucking loner with no friends.yeah im so bad. but hey. too badd.. making me so frustrated.blaming everything on me.. ok yeah its partially my fault.. but if she put a better sch than monks hill then it wouldve been so much better right? at elast i wouldnt have to worry so muchh. gurghh. wtvr. gonna go... lock myself in my room. maybe ill try something new..like. suicide.

2003-12-23T07:41:00.000+08:00

its nerve-wrecking..im sittting here thinking.whats sch gonna be like from now on..everyones gone..urgh.its unexplainable.like..just. yeah. cant imagine anything else....its so fucked up seriously..my mom thinks ms heng didnt want to take me back..but i dont know..im not sure if im even willing to study harder or make an effort myself..because in situations like this i just dont care. then in the end i regret. regret.regret.

well..yesterday after sch..we ha juls cake..happy bday juls btw, then everyone came back to my house..jia,juls,hannah,rui,mei ping,elissa,jazreel, jia en, germaine baby,pei hui..yeahh..and jia ate like 14 packets of my cornnuts i swear..then everyone left..so me rui hannah juls and jia lazed around and we decided to go for lunch..so we went to cine and ate yoshinoya..then went to heeren..left after awhile..yeapp.oh last night i was talking to shaun for like 3 hours..jeez. my bills gonna be no just a bomb..a killer bomb...damnit.in the last 6 days ive been talking for 8 hours already..damn. haiz. ah well. gotta enjoy my friends before theyre gone huh? yeapp. anyway. we're about to leave. nervousnervousnervous..my stomach feels like its all wrenched up inside..urghhHh.

2003-12-22T19:09:00.000+08:00

im upset. extremely.

lets just say from now on im a monkshillian. how bad is that? i mean fucking hell..i had all my hopes up for sc..and now it comes shattering down..urgh. tts it. my life is just. urghh.

i regret everything..regret not studying and everything..regret not caring about psle..urgh. sucks. im dissapointing everybody.. this feels extremely bad. it was worse when my mom started crying. ok tt was BAD . urghh. what if everyone theres an ah lian? what if i get raped.? what if everyone turns out to be bitches....???????!?!??!?!!!!!!!!!!!!"2;'2pw;ikegl dds kfglkdr.

my mind is just going crazy. i need by questions to be answered. imm going out of my mind. i need some answers. i need to hold on to my pride..but its gone..to tt one markk..its just.... gone

2003-12-22T09:31:00.000+08:00

just came back from sch.. after being there for like..3 whole minutes..woohoo! record. anyway.. my mom made me go cuz she was too out of her head to find out the results..but ms heng said she couldnt tell her even if she knew..so. obviously the results hadnt got in yet...yknow ms heng has this black patch on her face and she tris to cover it with so much makeup..its becomes all.. pasty and..just gross.

[shudderr]

veryvery nervousss! hahaha on friendsteer..damn you should read natashas testimonial..to me..hahaha..she said i was insane and completely crazy....HUH!!! ok yeah tts true...hahaha..cuz this lifes too powerful..to let it go..or something lydat..nelly furtado has the most amazing-est eyes..one greeen one bluee!!! soo cooool! oh yeah this morning i woke up at like 5ish and i started writing testimonials for people..i wrote like..5 or 6..hey its hard work thinking of what to say...haha..hahahahah.haiz. there i go again.. wrote one for ...peter..rhea..judy..natasha..ezra..danielle..derrek....whoa man..7..hahabwahahhaha. haiz. im insaneee!!!!! kayy byebyeee! so nervous im gonna pass out...oh yeah i feel like going..dancing, karaoke-ing, dancing,dancing,puking,running, shopping, weeeeeahahahaha -beatriz

2003-12-21T11:00:00.000+08:00

woke up at like 3am.. mom came back from america..haiz. feeling so tired..ive been sitting her since 8..and its 11..shit its 11 already.......! damnit. i rather have mom NOT here. she takes over everything. haizz...whatever lahhhs. eeeep! i said whateverrrr!....did i mention i hate people who say whatever. sheesh. anywayyys...friendster is so slow. jesus. i need to eat manNnnn. haiz... tomorrows posting day!!!!! damnit. what time to go? haiz. gonna go now. -beatriz

2003-12-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

just a quick update before i go up to sleep again..damn jetlag. went to eat lunch with dad at funan.. had thai.. and it was so hot i started crying.. hahahhaha. funnyfunny..went to pick bec and mel up..went to cine..wanted to watch a movie but was all wierd times..and we missed the lido one by 20 minutes.. so we walked around.. did starshots.. pretty cool..turned out kinda good..but we had to wait 45 minutes so we walked around again..mel bought this extra cool dice lighter for titss christmas pres..anyway..after tt walked to heeren.. saw shumei.. and i walked over and was like "hey i saw you on the 17 cover" and she just smiled and didnt say anything.. so i was like.. righhhhtt. and i just saidd bye and walked away..haha.yeahh. tabi mustve twacked her head up. went to heeren..and went to the piercing place..thought about it..but needed ID..so couldnt do it.. and sat down at spinellis talking..i look kinda gross today.haiz. i look like a japanese wannabe.. not intentionally..haiz..OH! i wanna go to the sentosa countdown party 2004..its lik 31st 9pm..till 7am on new years day or something..theres gonna be a foam party and fireworks and everything.. but im only gonna be able to go if my cousins go i bet. HUH!. tickets are 25 bucks..anyhoo exhausteddd!!! ciao -beatriz

2003-12-20T11:23:00.000+08:00

im so crapped out. no energy. urghh. went for tennis training..3 hours of exhaustion and slavery. haiz. got jing xuan and jillians number..and there was this new p6 girl from nan hua..which means shes obviously going to SC next year.. and the 2 whatever-their-names-are people came.. and theyre part of the group tts gonna decide whether i can go back to SC or not. haizz. so i took out my earrings and dumped it on the floor.. but i forgot to erase my black nail polish......! 2 days. 2days. 2 days. im scaredddd. and screwed. eeeee! sheeeeesh. i need water..my thigh muscles are throbbing. theyre aching. they hurt. they suck. ..oh and this moron of a bec got 2 abs before meee! assshole.

thinking of what to do today.

2003-12-20T06:32:00.000+08:00

whoo. went to united square to meet mel and bec again..im under fricken house arrest!!!!!!! nnnooooo. sheesh. i can only go out with my cousins. so i might as well yah? haha they got so offended.. they think of themselves as my last resort.. hehehe. cant sleep..been up since 4.. rui fell asleep on meee...so now im bumming around. with friendster..im so boreddd. sheesh i haven said tt in a long time huh..sighh gonna go now.. ciao -beatriz

2003-12-19T13:29:00.000+08:00

when the going gets tough...

GO SCREW YOURSELF MUTHAFUCKA!
haha...just felt like saying tt..haizz..this entry is just to vent..so you dont have to read it cuz youre gonna find it boring but here goes..

cant help it...but..tt song keeps reminding me of him.. sighh..no wait.. its not even a song... its a fucking RINGTONE!..how fucking lame is tt? cant stop myself from thinking about him when i hear Espionage...a ringtone..how can a ringtone control my thoughts?

its wierd isnt it? how i used to think he was my everything...he was my secret.

but now its nothing. an evanessence. a wonder.

but its over now. i dont want to force myself to think of it...but i just do...i cant stop myself..no matter how hard i try...keep thinking..then i remember..about all the times he was a betraying little fuckface. but whats done is done..nothings changed. it wont ever.

why does everything happen to me? when i think my life is perfect because of the privileges i get to being beatrice ding hui qi...my life comes sinking down..below my feet..below existence. my life can never be perfect. ive done so much wrong..so much to dissapoint..so much to laugh about.. so much to cry about.

im caught in the middle

i got out a new notebook..[yes, i have many cuz i collect them].. and i started writing out all my feelings..it was pretty cool to be reading i complete sentences what was all mixed up in your head...sometimes..i cant understand life at all..cant understand other people..and the way they think. tts why they say everyone is different..what would you be doing..? if you thought you werent..attractive enough...or funny enough..or popular..or enough to be somebody? youd think life was a mistake..tt you belonged somewhere else.

how can people think like tt? ok ill be honest..i do tt to.. but god didnt create people to let them think of themselves as an ugly piece of nothing...right?..............right? then youd start cutting yourself..or abusing your mind. and drugs? yknow..if it wasnt for the anti-drug...half the people doing drugs right now wouldnt know what new types to try..right? like the commercials will say... "cocaine isnt good for you... support the anti-drug campaign" or something.. and the person... if, for example didnt know what cocaine was.. he would know now.. and hed try it...its just dumb..somethings work....just not how people plan it..

and some people are so self absorbed..youd wonder how they made it a point to think about other people..the world is just....shmucked up...

ok enough of my pschology shit.. now about my personal life....
my grandparents.. are so...urgh. my grandad put me on house arrest..my grandma calls me every 5 minutes to check if im still at home..my sister left for LA this morning...my grandparents are in malaysia..my bro and mom are in LA.. and my dads at work... my moms coming back on sunday...joyy. the playboy bunny is really cute..its so fun to draw haha.. oh at guitar center did i mention i saw the playboy gibsons? theyre so extra superduper cool..me and rui were talking again just now.. she asked me to guess what she got me for christmas..last year she got me nipple warmers from new zealand. HAHA..yeah..and no, i dont use them.. ;) haha..yeah i dont.. i feel like going dancing ..time to get sexaye..sweaty bodies up against mine..feeling the groove..the beat of the song..
yup.
but not now -`*beatriz

2003-12-19T09:22:00.000+08:00

heya! IM BA-ACK!..hehehe...know you missed me *thankyou,thankyou* ..haha...i came back by myself!!! so proud of me.. haizz.. hahaa. had jetlag...so i woke up at like 230..and talked to rui and julie till 5am...! lols.. then julie had to go.. so me and rui talked for another hour..i neeed to go out...i miss orchard... :((...its my baby..

i wanna do so many things..but dont have the time.. anyhoo.. yesterday arrived at noon...went home then after i took a shower i went to paragon to meet bec mel and michelle gg.. im now officially her maid. .... haha yeah..ate lunch and walked around.. i finally bought my bras... MUAHAHA. oh yeah in las vegas.. we were on the way there.. and my brother was driving.. and halfway we stopped to get gas.. and when he got off the seat.. there was a chicken bone on the seat... hahahahahhaa... we were like wtf who ate chicken? but noone did.. and tt was seriously damn frikken scary...anyway..im gonna go get some breakfast.. i havent ate for...20 hours.....! -beatriz

2003-12-16T12:02:00.000+08:00

barabubabuhh...im lovin it
k nvm tt was lameee... anyhoo.. im in las vegas nowss! but damnassed boring.. cuz the resort has NOONE! its deserted mann.. cuz its the week before christmas so theres not alot of people...haiz. yeah anyway.. yesterday we drove up here in the morning.. took 6 hours..and we stopped at the outlet malls on the way.. didnt really buy anything..yeapp..then we arrived at Caesers palace..shit i have no fucking idea hoow to spell tt word...

yeah then we watched celine dions concert thingy at 8.. its was pretty cool actually.. they have WINGS! the dancers.. yeahh..oh then haha after tt me and brother went back up to the room...and on the way to the room he hit me.. so i used my plastic bag to hit him back...and hit him on the face.. then tt idiot ran and locked me out of the room..and didnt want to open it for 5 minutes...i was so goddamn pissed...and i was banging on the door and shouting and the room next door was like complaining...and this old couple was staring..then after he let me in i was like wtf is your problem.. and i started punching him.. so he punched me back.. and i was like wtf grow up fucker..and i walked out of the room.. hes a seriously big jerk.. haiz whatever anyway..this m.orning we went to this mall..and i bought 2 pairs of tightass shoes! from zara and joey..they have zara in las vegas! damn. ... yeahh..and today we came to ritz carlton resort.. which is so fucking boring i can kill myself..theres alotta shops in this italian-lookalike village... but theyre all empty.. HAHA. yeahh..tmr we're driving back to LA!! woohoo. but im going back to singapore tmr night so.. yeahh.. cant wait! then after christmas were coming back to LA.. damnn..

DASHBOARD CONFESSIONALLLLLLLL!!!!!!!! theyre so yum.. the singers so hot.. damnit. im gonna go now..-beatriz*miss all of youuuuuuu!

2003-12-14T07:41:00.000+08:00

heyas. its saturday afternn heres..havent been doing much lately.. bumming around..sleeping..haiz..wel tmr we're gonna drive up to las vegas...hehe.oh but bummer.. i dunno how im gonna get back to singapore!the flights are all full..and it takes 2 days to get back.. and i have a week to get to posting day! damn. ah well. then too bad. yknow its really sad here cuz on every street.. theres a homeless person sleeping on the ground.. yeah its really saddd..haiz.

its the first time ever.. and i actually miss singapore..miss my friends..my dogs.. my house..girls night outs... haiz. everyone else is having fun in singapore while im stuck here washing dishes and crapping around. and the worst part.. after posting day. (if i even get back in time).. on the 24th im gonna have to come back here for another week.. tt means ill be spending christmas on the fucking plane!!! how gay is tt? im so fuckstrated. ok frustrated. my moms so ridicolous. she hates me. she literally wants to see me die and go to hell...not tt i dont mind being away from her... but i rather see her suffer.. then die . like maybe i can put her on a bed with plugs attached to her mouth.. for a month. muahah. whoops shes back.. see ya soons -beatriz

2003-12-11T15:18:00.000+08:00

rudolph the red nose reindeer..had a very shiny nose..

haha im in the christmas-sy mood right now..cuz i just watched Elf with my brother.. HAHa damn its a goodassed movie..i was laughing so bad..yeah you can imagine tt huh. haha yeahh..yesterday me and my mom went to Urth cafe again.. had brunch.. cuz i woke up at lunchtime again.. and my brother went driving again.. yeah so i just ate a bagel and got so totally pissed with my mom.. i mean seriously..she never lets me make my own decisions.. which im old enough to..and she never takes no for an answer.. which is totally annoying..then we went home for awhile.. my brother came back.. and we went to play tennis in the evening.. and it was so cold and i was there standing in my thin mini skirt..haiz. yeah before we left i got into another huge fight with my mom. a real dumb one. i didnt bring my tennis shoes.. so i told her..and she totally lashes out on me.. like "WELL THEN GO FIND ONE!" i was like.."jeez chill..where am i spossed to find any tennis shoes?" and shes like "WELL TTS WHY IM ASKING YOU TO GO FIND ONE!" i was like "damn..fine..stop shouting ..sheesh" and she looks at me all pissed and shit.. what the hell man i was just telling you i had no shoes.. so i go to the back and i find one pair of shoes..bring it to her and say "are these tennis shoes?" shes like "NO! THERES ANOTHER PAIR!" i was like no. and shes like "THEN GO UP AND FIND ONE!" blablabla.. damnn. shes got serious shouting problems.. maybe shes like menopausal or something.. haiz. whatever. anyway. OHYEAH my god.. my maid found out my dog was pregnant.. like 7weeks pregnant.. damnn. anywayy.. they took the baby out of her stomach cuz she wouldve died if they gave birth to them. damn i miss jellybean. yes, jellybean is her name if you dont know. haha..i dunno..my dad said he wanted tt to be her name cuz she kept jumping up and down........? my dads kinda loose in the head anyway so...yeahh. im freezing my butt off.. ciao -beatriz

2003-12-09T13:34:00.000+08:00

wassup homieeez.. haha..did i forget to say tt we saw simon cowell and tt woman diane something from the jlo movie.. damn.. if you live in LA youll see like at least 3 stars in a month..which is so cool ainit? yeah anyway..we went to westside pavilion last night but we had 30min till the shops closed.. so tt sucked..anyway i was looking at the C4s in the vans store..damnnn theyre tighhttt..but i was broke so i went out looking for my mom and my brother but i couldnt find them so i walked around till everything closed..oh bought some presents in ltd*too.. hannah youre gonna like your undies. hahass.. yeapp.. then i saw my mom and i got screwed cuz she couldnt find me and my brother went to look for me.. haiz. anyhoo today we went to Melrose again.. me and my brother walked up and down the streets..bought some shit but some stores just smelled so bad we had to walk out.. and after tt we realized they were 2nd hand shops.. damnnn..yo ill blog tmr morning.. im tired as hell -beatriz

2003-12-08T05:51:00.000+08:00

yoyo everybodayeee! its sunday noon here...we just went to the farmers market again.. bought some fresh strawberries and honey and stuff. YUMMM! anywayy..on friday night me and my brother went to watch Honey.. OMG its fucking good.. the music was so cool i wanted to stand up and dance...! haha.. anyway. yeah its really cool and jessica alba is so purtyy..shes hot as hell yeah then we went to eat dinner in hollywood.. drove up and ate thai food.. there was these singers and haha one of them was elvis.. like with the shining stuff going on...haha and 20inch high platformss.. lols. yeapp.. then yesterdayy.. we went to ...where? urmm oh yeah we went . oh shit i forgot. well last night we went to bayside.. and i bought some cool shit in american eagle oufitters.. damnnn i miss shopping in LA. theres so much more shiet .. american eagle..abercrombie..von dutch..pacsun..vans...GURGH. i wanna live here mann.. whats the point of having a house here when you only stay in it half a year? and everytime we come.. either the house or the cars or something needs to be fixed..something always needs to be fixed..

haiz. whateverrrss...yeahh oh my brothers always crypt walking.. so the other day he bought a tape on c walking.. and after tt he didnt dare to crypt walk in public again cuz the tape said if you crypt walk in america.. you might get shot.. hahhhaha.. cuz every gang in america has a different style.. LOLS. yeah so now he chickened out. OH YEAH when we washed the car the other day i drove it! hahas. yeah for like.. 20 seconds. lol. cuz my bro was too scared id get caught by my mom or id crash. yeahhh. hrms. ah wells. tata fer nowws! -beatriz*te quiero

2003-12-06T11:18:00.000+08:00

heyys finally went to lawrys last night! yumm..OH and the waitress thought my nails were cute! MUAHAHAHA hot pink and black ... anywayy we drove all the way to burbank/vannuys just to eat krispie kreme! so good..bought a dozen.. and 3of us sat there eating and when we were leaving we bought another dozen to eat tmr morning.. haha..oh yeahh the scariest thing happened today.. we were on the way back home after breakfast.. and then we were at a traffic light.. and there was this car which was like.. slanted halfway on 2 lanes..then we saw this policeman on the side and a lady like really reall frantic..then we looked inside the car and the old lady tt was sitting next to the lady was dead in the car.. jesus tts so scary...i mean like.. imagine youre driving with your mother and she suddenly dies right next to you in a freaking car... damnnn. anywayy. shit i just freaked myself out.. anywayy.. yeah then we came back home and me and my brother washed the new car.. OH YEAH did i forget to say tt last night we were locked outta the house? yeahh. my mom left the key inside and she closed the door.. and she already put the alarm on and everything.. so my brother drove us down century city to a locksmith.. so we went back and the locksmith guy came..and he had to drill open the door.....haha yeah. jesus yknow when he bent down.. i was standing behind him.. mann you could see his fucking asscrack..i was like..damn..yeahh. it was fucking cold and i had to stand there for like 20 minutes or half an hour yeah it doesnt sound tt long but sheesh when you stand out there it fucking freezes your boobs. um. yeahh. anywayy.. i think we're gonna go down to century city to watch Honey. YEAH! -beatriz

2003-12-04T11:14:00.000+08:00

woohoo got my lowdunks!

hehehe..pink and brown yo! miehehehehe. anywayy..yknow i hate my habit of saying 'jesus christ'...cuz everytime my mom does something stupid wihch is pretty often i always shout 'JESUS CHRIST WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM??' haha.. then i start laughing.. and people start staring cuz theyre probly offended...and theyre christians...oh.. even worse..staunch christians ...uhm hmm. anyway..yeah my brother managed to get his driving permit today.. like.. after another 4 hours of waiting...yeah hes happy.. acting like a retard laughing more than usual..but anyway we went to the grove yesterday.. bought some cool shirts.. PINK AND BLACK! haha..MUAhahahahhaa..hahahha... yeahhHh. kinda losing it now...ate apple pan for dinner last night! yumyum.. the guy like... always remembers our family cuz my parents have been going there fer like...15 years.. before i was born.. cool huh? haha..yeahh...went to melrose today..bought a van dutch cap! woohoo. then my brother stole it. they had some cool shit but they were all like 40us for one friggin shirt so i didnt get anything.. tts like.. 80bucks sing for one? yeah about there. damn.

o0o i love the commercials here..theyre so damn funny.. haha.. anyway..then we went to the supermarket... my brother thought he saw seth.. seth coen. tennis camp. totally hot but totally short. HAHA. tt sounded jacked up.. but yeahh..then we went to Urth cafe... saw tt actor... urmMm. the black actor..forgot his name.. yeahh Urth cafe always has all these celebrities going there.. cooool huh. then went to buy lowdunks! yayyyyYyYyy. cool shiet. OH but i was gonna buy my black and pink vans damnit. nevermind. ill have both! woohoo. im on this WOOHOO roll now. oh shit. i think my brother just drove the car out with my mom. damnit. without me. damnit. -beatriz*

2003-12-02T11:25:00.000+08:00

LOL went to disneyland yesterdayyy!!! hahaha..damn funn!..yeappPp...went with tits and kat..lol we went to pick kat and her mom up at the hotel.. and halfway my mom ate some mints.. and shes all like "ew i dont wanna smell like toothpaste" so she opened my window.. and jesus..the window couldnt even close.. and i was fucking cold ahh..kayy anyhoo we went fer lunch... then went back home and we went to disneyland! haha.. the ride there took like a fricken hour.. we used to go there like all the time when we were young.. then we kinda outgrew it.. but it was SO fun..we took the rollercoaster like so many times...sat right in front the last time on tt ride.. and christ.. after we got off i couldnt feel my face... hahahaha...it was so fucking cold..yeahh... i wanted to buy my big Nemo.. and my wierd hat.. but i didnt wanna walk all the way backk..cuz the last ride we took.. was this water ride.. and we didnt know we were gonna get that wet..haha..sheesh my pants were all soaked..CHURROS!! gahhHhH...yumyum.

went there fer like...6hours..but it was too dark and cold..so we came back home..oh and bought those lollipops.. yknow the swirlyswirly ones? haha yeahh..tittys bought the bigass one..cuz he liked the color haha yeahh then all of us wanted to go to pinks.. but the line was so super extra long..so we went to this japanese restaurant..oh yeah today was such a waste of time.. we went to DMV.. my brother was gonna take his written test for his drivers permit.. waited 30min in line for a queue number.. then the lady said itd take another 3 hours to reach his queue number...sheesh so we went to eat lunch at this small ribs place...yumMMm...cornbreads good.. anywayy..then we went back to dmv..and my mom just HAD to drive the car with the screwed up window..gahh so she made me sit in the car waiting for another hour..so i had to go to the newpaper stand to buy a fricken newspaper to read...then they came back and said tt he couldnt take it cuz my dad wasnt here to sign this shit dunno fuck..what the fuck right? whallaoooehh...haiz. so dumb. but ah well..so tmr my moms gonna try again. but its not gonna work anywayy so i dunno why the hell she bothers..

sheesh everyones getting new emails now im so confused..i dont know who they are...damnnNnn. i neeeeeddd to go shopppiinnngggggg. kayy im too cold..gonna go eat dinner -beatriz*missyall!*

2003-11-30T02:37:00.000+08:00

HELLOWEEE!

damn. still cant believe im back..anyhoo0o yesterday we went to eat krispie kreme at century city fer breakfast.. YUMMMM! damn good.. its really nice doughnuts..anywayy...all 3 of us sat there eating doughnuts drinking coffee yumyummm then we went into macys..bought real cool initial things.. every shop almost is doing the initial thing.. they make shirts bags underwear everything with crystalled letters onnit.. whoo tt was confusing anywayy.. then went to abercrombie.. stuff aint tt nice anymore cuz its winter but bought a shirt saying LOVE MORE haha.. then we walked out and saw kat and her mom.. bellas sister.. and anywayy then we went to the supermarket... O0o0ooOo0o i lovveee the US supermarkets theyre so cool.. muahahah...yeahh then... TOFURKEY!!! lol... i kept saying tt over and over again yesterday cuz its so funny.. its like.. a vegetarian turkey.. made of tofu... HAHAHAHHAAHAHA. haha.. funny..yeahh then me and my mom went to do our nails.. did it BLACK AND HOT PINK bwahaha...but it looks pretty retarded cuz the whole nail is hot pink and the tip is black.. but i wanted black then hot pink at the tip.. but ah well..its still black and hot pink.....!!!!!! bwahaha.OH YEAH im wearing black and pink nowww! muahahhahaa. whooooOo having bad jetlag..fell asleep at the nail parlour yesterday and i couldnt wake up.. OOPS. haha..oh yeah did i forget to mention tt i saw jaz and jia at the mrt station before i left fer the airport? yeah i did.. my mom wanted me to go to popular to buy books to study over the hols.. so sad right? must do sec1 work on HOLIDAY MAN..but i wont do it i can tell you.. cuz she asks me to do 3 hours of work everytime i come.. but i never.. haha..cuz she doesnt even remember wtf... haha

mann theres such cool movies showing here... jessica alba's in Honey.. DAMN cool.. saw the trailer.. shes this dancer.. and the movie has all these cool dance routines...then Paul whatshisname from fast and furious in Timeline.. HES SO HOT.. and blablabla but i gotta go eat breakfast nowws! ciao -beatriz**

2003-11-28T12:18:00.000+08:00

happy thanksgiving everybodayeee!!!

hees. just came back..and the radios playing adam sandlers thanksgiving song... "turkey...turkey..i love to eat turkey! yes, i love you too..turkey for me..turkey for you..lets eat the turkey in my big brown shoes! wrap turkey in aluminium foil.. my brother likes to add some baby oil.. turkey for the girls and turkey fer the boys..my favourite kinda pants are corduroys "

hahahaha...its funny shit.. anywayy, the flight was 20 hourssss! damnnn..haha watched a whole lotta movies....dickie roberts:former child star, how to deal, freaky friday ...damn i cant remember the rest.. anywayy, damnn its so good to be back here..its pretty cold too haha...but the house is pretty creepy cuz theres mouse traps like..everywhere..cuz we had this problem with rats..and they like..scratched our doors and everything so its pretty sick...i was too scared to go to the bathroom cuz the rat mightve jumped out and bit my ass.. LOL. haha yeahh..watching simpsons.. LA TV IS TIGHTTTTT..yeahh i like the commercials hahaha..kayy nvm im wierddd..anywayy, hannah and julie came to send me off at the airport.. they went to watch Duplex at 10 in the morning WITHOUT ME..went to plaza sing WITHOUT ME and took mrt to the airport WITHOUT ME ..hahaha..yeapp..i wont complain cuz they were sweet enough to even send me off.. i mean WHO would wanna send me off? ME? ME?!?!? hahahahhahaa...im being so damn lame. godd.. kayy anywayy, go check this out..yupPPpp.. gonna go nowws.. its like ermm..bout 815 nowws..KRISPY KREME! KOOKOOROO! LAWRYS! IN-N-OUT!! PINKS!!! muahaha...catch ya laterz! -beatriz

2003-11-27T15:22:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo everybodayeee http://www.geocities.com/shefukkenlurves_me/shoutouts.html

not everythings done yet.. in a big rush.. gonna leave nowws! buaixz will update soon! -beatriz*love you!

2003-11-27T12:37:00.000+08:00

i gotta tan!!!!
woohoooo. anyhoo. went fer tennis yesterdays...played for like eight hours...tiredd lahss..tts why i slept at like 830 last nightss..haha anywayy..played at east coast with the sch team..lol it was pretty funny cuz i was the youngest one there... so all the secondary girls were like..tooo nice and hyper..haha kayy anywayy...met alotta people too... ann marie,cheryl,jie zhen,jerusia,kelly,jing xuan,amanda,adelyn,shu mei and urgh all those others cant remember theyre names.. but ann marie was like reallyreally hyper..lol..she laughs soo much anywayy..we played a few games then a few of us walked to macs fer lunch..and it was by the beach!! hahass..

julie and jia you still owe me a trip to the beach

anywayy...after that we played more games...reminded me of tennis camp.. damn i wanna goo backkkk...haha yeah played 3 more games and after tt sat there eating apples haha...i realized everybody hates the coach.. cuz they find him an arrogant asshole.. i mean yeah he is haha but hes kinda nice...but heck..he shouts at everythingg..anywayy...after training... went to paragon to pick mom up and saw mong yi, stacey and vanessa...lols..yeahh..then went to ruis house.. cuz her mom wanted to give my mom some bibles.. LOL.. my mom..reading bibles?!?!? haha.after tt just went home showered and went to sleep..URgH.

in exactly 5 hours from now id be on the plane to LOS ANGELES BABY!!!woohooooo...yeapp leaving today.. sadd righttt? gurgh gonna miss everyone..but ill be coming back in 3 weeks..so dont be THAT sad.. lols jkjk..yeahh..my blogging inspiration is gonee... i have nothing to writeee... shitt. kayy wells see yaz soon babess! -beatriz*luvyoudears!*

2003-11-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

t h i s i s m e

dunno where tt came from.. haha.. anyhooo..ally hannah jia and julie came over after lunch and we went to heeren at like 430ish and it took like a hella lonngggassed time to get there.. traffic was so ..like..huge.. haha.. anywayy..i bought icecream sandwich once i got there :) yyummm. oh man the sotong sticks and the curry puff from old chang kee are so seriously yum.. o0o now i want somee... hahass.. kayy anywayyy..we walked around abit.. took like 4 neoprints.. oh and something totally wierd happened.. i was like throwing away my drink before the last neoprint.. and once i turned back around this girl appeared behind me and she was like
"hello are those your friends?"
"urm yeah.."
"oh okayy..hello im stacy! you are?" *shaking my hands*
"urmM beatrice.. yeahh"
"oh okayy.. how old are you?"
"um twelve...?"
"okayy..are you a local?"
i was like no..
and she was like "oh okok. then. thanks. nvm. i.... mistook you for someone else"

LOL. madness. anyhoo.. then after tt we walked around again.. but me being broke [im the only one who goes out with ten bucks in their wallets] we walked to taka.. but i bought another icecream sandwich. [yumyum] ..haha and we sat on the stones stoning.. hahass.. yeahh.. then we hahaa.. ally put her sweatshirt on backwards.. so we made herput the hood on cuz it was in front and made her walk from the back of taka to the front.. hahahaha... bwahahhaha...yeahh.. OMG yeahh then ally and hannah were seeing who could stuff the most big marshmallows into their mouths... and ally opened her mouth real big after 7... and everything just totally regurgitated from her mouth into her hand.. it was disguisting.....then hannah was just gross cuz she chewed it all up.. and they both ate it back up from their hands.. fucking sickass people..yeahh...it was...urghhHh. SICK.anyhooo...tmrs have tennis camp... 9-3 at east coast.. thenn.. then what... either jia ally blabla or mong yi and the other p5s......lol.. tt p5 girl mong yi and stacey and shannen and vanessa are like... calling me everydayy... hahass. yeahhHhs.. tiredd. -beatriz*sexy is my middle name bwahaha*

2003-11-25T12:06:00.000+08:00

Oh, it's so hot and I need some air
And boy, don't stop cause I'm halfway there

It's not complicated
We're too syncopated
We can read each other's minds
One love invited, two bodies sychronizin'
Don't even need to touch me, baby

Just
Breathe on me
Yeah, oh baby, just
Breathe on me
We don't need to touch just
Breathe

yeahh britney in da houssee. man how can such a good song be wasted on her.....cant sing for fuck..tt songs stuck in my headd...geee..celine came over to get her camera... gave me like 3 cards lol..anyhoooo juls and hannah coming over nowws. goingstabe going out..but whereEeEeeE? damnnn my mom gave me a bigass scolding about my supposedly bad attitude..and shes gonna ground me i think.. cuz she doesnt know tt theyre coming overr..oh we're leaving on thursday fer CALIFORNIA SEXXAYEE!

but im only gonna be there fer like.. 20 freakinn days cuz i have to come back fer the posting thing... damnNnN. scared..sighHhh. a babys gotta do what a babys gotta do.bwahaha. okayy i literalllyy have nothingg to sayy...but its the joyy of blogginnnggg. wahahaha. -beatrizz

2003-11-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

hrmSsSs. tt kim wakerman woman my godddd. hahasss. it was prettyyyy funny shiet when anna forgot what to say..LOL. saw hwee li, hannah ally bernice ann charmaine izzie elissa kai ling and all... lolSsS. im shit brokeeeeee. whyyYYyyY. anyhooooo after tt went fer dinner at this wierd place.. got damn pissed at my mom so walked out with tits to coffee bean next door at like 1030ish. then chermaine and douglas camee...then val came and kelly just ran over and started strangling me. she smelled like. stuff. haas shes pretty .. loose. in the . never minddd. my key board is damn blardy conking on me...grrRrr. anyhoo. kelly damn farnee...she was complaining she didnt have any friends cuz she saw one of her church friends so she called out his name.. then she said hi..and he was standing there and was like "erRr. do i know you?" LOL. veryyy funnaaayyeee. she was all like... HUH! hahass. yeahh. i dunno larhSSsSs. im soo tirredddedd...blahh. then went home like...awhile laterss...WOOHOO im so happy with what i bought todayyyy... tho i wish i couldve got tt olive green halter which was DAMn BLARDY nice but noooooo i just had to be broke. GAH this fucking keyboard can go fuck me mann. -beatrizz*outrageous

2003-11-24T20:01:00.000+08:00

today was pretty badddd. ms heng scolded me instead... bahh. "now, i want no more mobile phones, no more breaking of rules and no more bad company". yesyes. three guesses. ahHhH. omg yknow im so fucking pissed at my mom. i chose all my choices.. i agreed, my mom agreed..it was alll good. but nnnoooo. my mom just HAD to change them without me knowing. MONKS HILL. fucking blardyyy monks hill kayy. can you fucking believe. as FIRST CHOICE. URGH. and i have NO idea what the others are. fucking helloffa pissoff isnt it. yeahh. anywayy, fergeddit not gonna talk about it anymoree. then rachels mom over and told me not to worry cuz id have my friends support and everything...shes nice..known them fer like.. since kindergarten..! after tt...me, jia en , and hui fang were walking along the corridor going down.. and then saw hwee li, kim kan, stephanie and heem hian.. oh godd. it was real sadd. i told them i might not be going to chij withem anymore... since my mom changed everything.. and complained about monks hill.then kim kan started crying.. godd.. hugged her and she just couldnt stop crying.. then hwee li started crying...after i hugged her heem hian started crying.. damnNnnN. [dont worry babees ill call yall soon kayy? love yaz] ....anyhooo, after awhile they went to hand up the option form and i went back to the canteen..then said bye to jia en and everyone.... then went to macs at lido with xue hui, fush and rachel..lolllll realll funny...ate alott.. altogether we ordered like 6 meals or somethin... kayy anyway..after eating we walked around fer abit.. then walked to heeren... took some neoprints.. and wasted money on one of the machines cuz it SUCKS kayy. waste moneyyy.yeahh.. then i went to meet hannah.. and she gave me this reall extra nice cute cool tile..which she designed herself.. like with pics of us and stuff.. and she wrote stuff onnit. damnn nice. [thanks hannah].. then we went shopping!!..bout alottt... spent like.. 120++ hasss. officially broke nowss.. three bucks left.yeapp.

went to livia and both us bought friendship undies ... lol!!!!! also bought a pink tube fer the corset and a damnn nice toga!! hannah got the darker blue one but its not as nice. bwahahhaha i stole it first. thennn we found out we were dead broke... i had 11 bucks.. and she had...well she had enough for her stuff.. then i said to hannah "damn im hoping someone i know would just walk by so i can borrow money"... then she started laughing.. and jolyn chin appeared outside.. hahhahaha. was soo funnyy..hahass..so borrowed ten from her... yeahh.. went to 37degrees and bought 3 shirts... one fer yvonnes bday present..bought temporary red hairdye and this really nice eyeshadow set from basicbeauty.. and we got the heer card!~.got some free shit too..bwahaha. yeahh..bought one pair of damn nice platform shoes..those ones with the laces tt you tie around your upper ankle .... YUM!..thennn bought ermmmMmmmM...yeahh. i cant remember.. hahass.then ally came ... and we went to eat crepesandcream.... chocolate fudge sundaeee yumyumm..after tt walked around fer awhile again and went back home cuz i was like.. about to leak right there and thenn hahahass.. ;) OH which reminds me...last night.. went with my whole family to eat this chilli crab thing at east coast... and after tt...i stood up.. and my whole damn skirt was ALLLLLLL blood... damnnn embarassing... noone really saw.. but it was a hella lot...haass. ooops.yeapp.. then ..yeahhh gonna go noww.. gonna watch anna on gao xiao xing dong nowss! vote fer herr!~ -beatriz*

2003-11-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

veryveryyyy hungryyyy. waitinggg to go out fer dinnerrr.. anyhoooo..my moms starting to think im like this screwed up depressed child cuz i used to go out everyday but since yesterday ive been locking myself in my room crying and all tt shitt and i dont wanna go out anymore... hahass yeahhh.. oh i went out fer lunch today.. surprisesurprise.....accomplishment ehh? hahasss. yeahhh. went to this restaurant with my family but there was a long queue [yeahh i had to ask someone to help me spell it] so we went to this other place and decided to da-bao [lol] back home cuz my mom had this reddish pinkish stain on her butt and i thought it was period but when after we bought dinner and went home it turned out to be pen ink...lollllsssss. im back to my own self..hahahhha.as you can tell. cuz im laughing way too much again... waahha. yeappp. was watching the mtv europe awards when i was eating...it kind sucked..christina aguilera talks so retardeddd..and tt purple thing and tt silver shit on her head was just spazzed. and britney spears [in the zone] kinda sucks....like theres 2 good songs outta 14..badddddd. badbadbadbadbad. anyhooo. sleepings funnn :). slept this whole afternn again... shheeesh.. gahHhhhHH. have to go to sch at 8..then after tt tennis training till 11...gahhHHhhhhhhHh. -`*beatriz *im gonna miss all of youuu trueluffneverdies*

2003-11-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

cheered up abit..thanks to everyone..ill thankem in awhile...i think ive beaten everyones record fer crying the most number of time in a day... 14!!..yeah you can imagine how swollen my eyes are..anyhooo [what a cool word] haha..after much slacking around..when to starbucks..bought my caramel frappy and oreo cheesecake and here i am now eattiinng bwahahha. sighh...kayy i shall go on to thanking all you babys! :))

thanks to those cheered me up and everything..messaging me to ask if i was ok and stuff... germaine [my whore!!! luff yazz! never gonna forgive you fer makin me cry..hahass] + jessie [see yaz in guitar soon kayy] + hannah + shu ying + rhea + hwee li [nvm hwee, youll be with the others kayy? cheer up dearr] + stephanie + jazreel + izzy + beverly + celine + van seah + heem hian + xue hui + kimkan + jia jun + bernice leong + bernice lim + especially rui [thanks dear luff ya foreversss kayy?] + julieeeee [love yazz baby] + jia en + anna + kelly + rachel and sarajoy + and just everyone else who cheered me up.. this entrys dedicated to you.. luff all of you kayys? gonna miss you guys so muchhh...gahh. im sorry i screwed up and let yall down..ill see all you soon kayyss?

friends are forever -beatriz*mwuah!

2003-11-22T16:00:00.000+08:00

kayy im officially a screwup...this morning after i woke up i went to pick up jia and bought macs..then stupid jia said breakfast ends at 1130.but it ended at 11...kayy anywayy..then we went to sch..damn fucking scaredd...at sch..everyone was hugging each other again..yeahh then it was time to give out the results.. :((..omg. me and jia immediately burst out crying..she was so happy she got back in..she was the first one i hugged...gahh..kayy im starting to cry now again.. yeahh my mom wanted me to leave...so she could screw me in peace but i wanted to stay with my friends..she talked to ruis mom..i couldnt stop crying..everyone was crowding around me saying it was okayy and everything..gahh. cant believe i screwed up...anywayy..mrs lee..mrs tay and ms kwok came over to talk to me as well. one mark. gee. i just couldnt stop crying i swear..then me jia rui celine ally hannah and juls sat in a circle and started talking. godd. cant believe how much im gonna miss them..left after half an hour..and then mom gave me big screwing..it was all my fault..my mom was blaming me.my dad was blaming my mom... gahh. cried for 3 hours straight..then people started smsing me asking if i was okayy which made me cry even more cuz i love them so muchh and now ive lost them all. fell asleep fer awhile..then mom came in and told me tt it was okayy...cried again after she left...then called hannah..who was at paragon with ally juls and izzy and stuff...then went to ask mom if i could go meet them...godd she said no can you believe ? i mean..everyone agrees tt friends will help you pull through everything right? godd. she just doesnt fucking understandd. it was so selfish of her. cant believe it. after she said "you still want to go? arent you embarassed? and now theres nothing to talk about!" i was so pissed i was like "what? i cant believe you okayy forget it" and i just ran up crying again...i mean what is her problem...shes so fuckingg selfish. stoned on the bed for awhile...then came down to use the com..and once i saw ruis screen name i started crying again.. omg i regret not studying..i regret living life too much on how i wanted...regret taking friends for granted. oh god.. my dad just came in and i just started crying again..godd. feeling so awful noww.

wanna thank all those who came over to hug and console me and everything..i luff yall kayy? especially those who also didnt get back in..dont worry ill always be there fer you.. :) especially jia and rui.. thanks kayy? love ya to bits -beatriz*tearshavefallen..nowwhat?*

2003-11-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

sobb...today was like the saddest day ever...i cried so badd...my eyes hurt so badd...gahh..omgomg it was just the saddest thing everrrr..the first part of sch was just shit..our whole class was dead..prudence were dancing..generosity were dying too.anywayy..we had to go to the hall..cuz mrs.tang was leaving..i mean everybody was practically happy but me jia juls hannah and clapped and screamed when she started crying on stage..it was really sadd...then heem hian started crying..gahh..then anywayy..people were pretty supportive fer mrstang even tho everyone hates tt little fat bitch but haha anyway then blablablaa...everything started happening when i was in prudence and i walked out..cuz everybody was just too happy in there..then germaine walked towards me crying badd and beatrice and stacey behind..yeahh..so i hugged her real tight and asked her not to cry..but everybody was just real sadd so i started crying...like BAD. i think tt was the first time i cried and really meant itt...anywayyy..then hugged beatrice cuz shewas really crying badly..then walked back to courage and saw juls on the way crying too so we just ran and hugged again...gahh it was fucking sad okayy...we couldnt let go..... :(. hate graduations theyre so sadd.. anywayyy..then walked into courage and gahh everyone was crying really badly and especially hui fang...hugged her then jiaen then germaine again then like omg just anybody who was in front of me...then i walked to generosity to find rui jia....then they followed me to courgae they were like "omg be youre crying!" gahhh. haha..then everybody started crying. everyone was just hugging each other...then the saddest thing was when hui fang refused to turn the graduation song off..everybody was just....crying theyre eyes out..so we all formed a circle..holding hands and singing [if they could even get the words out] and just totally crying okay...omgomgomgomg damnnn saddd. people couldnt believe i was crying..hahah...everyone was just staring at me i swear...yayy my whole shoe has signatureesss..yayy..yeapp..and just spent the rest of the day hugging everyone...and the p5s were like watching us laughing..haha they couldnt understand why we were crying so badly..then after sch...we were waiting for my driver to pick us up then these 3 p5s tt i didnt know started saying to me "haiya if you want to cry then cry...dont cry and laugh at the same time lah..make up your mind!" hahah..then i started laughing..anywayy..started talking to them abit..then they were like bombarding me and celine with smses...hahass..theyre really nice..

yeahh..then all of us went back to my house.. `yvonne,jia,juls,ally,hannah,celine`..ate lunch then went to cine...watched "wishing stairs" ..fucking dumb fucked movie....no story line at all..yeahh its scary but its just..dumb..movie ended at 5ish and after tt walked around..and i did a scorpion on my leg!! yayy so nice..and omg..there was this fucking cute guy okey...like cuz we were walking back and forth the entrance doors..and in front of the door there was this teens magazine booth..so when me and jia walked back..another guy gave us a flyer and asked us to come to the teens mag party tmr..so we tk the flyer..and the guy sitting down was so cutteeee!!!!! GAHHhhH.. see juls..even hannah and ally agree.. oh and yvonne.. bwahaha.. then i told jia tt he was damn shuai and he kept looking at ussssss! bwahahah. hes so damn cute i swear. anywayy..then we walked back to heeren but everyone thought i looked damn retarded cuz i couldnt walk properly cuz of the tattoo..hahass..then saw like all the courage cryers lol.. walked back out to the youth park to send jia out at like 7ish then walked back to heeren..met germaine all those again and tk some neoprints and stuffees..there were like 20 people i think.. hahahass..gahh they were going bowling and watching wishing stairs after tt..gahh.then after tt juls ally and celine and me went to macs to buy dinner..went back home and started talking.. hahass...damn. gonna miss them so much i swear. EEEEEEEeeeEee!

results tmr..i swear to godd everyones gonna start a cryfest again..just hope ill see everyone again :)) -beatriz*omg i love all of you to bits im gonna miss you so much kayy?? dont ever take friendship fer granted. see you soon guyys..*mwuah!*

2003-11-20T19:58:00.000+08:00

yeahh..GAHHH!! graduation tmr omgomg im so sad.. :(((..im gonna cry..screw my whole class man..we were supossed to practise auld lang syne to sing tmr..so me jennet and yvonne were trying to make them sing..i mean.. fucking graduation is tmr and they didnt even fucking care..they just sat there dying....what the holy fuck kayy...fucking pissed me off...only 3 of us were singing in the class and they just sit there playing stupid fucking board games...yeahh im very damn pissed...fuck them stupid putos...anywayy..before we were let out..since sch ended at 1130 right after the concert...i got so fucking pissed again cuz this fucking kelly yvonne and jessica were so fucking irritating..then they dragged hwee li into it tt made me even more pissed...fuckers.....but tmrs graduation so ill forgive em.....see im so freakin nice right...and i was spossed to go out with yvonne and hannah..but i just walked out of the sch and went with rui to united square. yvonnes such a fucker sometimes. so is everyone else. anywayy..we took a cab down to united...and in the toilet saw abigail and julynn..then this lady came out of the toilet with this small girl.. so i went in... and i accidentaly swung the door onto this other small girl inside..omg..i starting shouting...and even the mother was standing there laughing..my godd..the girl was like "ow"...yeah and someone choked the toilet so it couldnt flush..whoops.
yeahh...then we went to eat macs..god ate so much i was so full...after tt bought ya-kun and we took cab back to sch.. then asked the driver to pick me up from sch at 1.10..see im so smart right..then went to tanglin mall on the way to buy flowers fer everyone tmr...bought alotttttt...like 25stalks...but each stalk is pretty bigg... heeee...then went home...mommie wanted to bring me out fer lunch but i said i wasnt hungry and went to sleep.. haass..woke up at 6ish and started writing the notes...gahh..i think ill cry tmr..nvm ill cry with jia and rui.. :(( hrmsSSssssSs. im so sadd.. gonna play tennis now.. -beatriz*graduationloveallofyou*

2003-11-19T22:00:00.000+08:00

you got me lifted shifted higher than the ceiling
and oohwee its the ultimate feeling
you got me lifted feelin so gifted
suga how you get so fly

o0o love tt damn song..damnnn cool sia..haha kk anywayy..sch was pretty fun today...haha..we were like crapping around...so we were making fun of the p5's graduation dance..hahah then i decided to the split-jump off the stage... hahahhaha bad mistake..i think i like broke my heel. hahahah. k anywayyyy..then after sch me and rui decided to take a bus down to heeren to get jessies bday present...the bus was like.. jampacked i tell you..and it smelled pretty badd too.. haha yeah then we bought 2cds fer jess...and i bought 2 britney albums..one fer bec since she asked me to buy for her then tt idiot bought yesterday.gahh. k thennn we went mentally retarded in the neoprint machine...hahaha.....funnyfunnyfunnyyy.
expired milo
haha. urmMm.tt was totally OOP.. [out of point] inside joke.. haha yeah thenn we ate crepes and cream and we were like the only ones in there..hahha..and we ordered 'fiery wings' and the woman thought we said 'calamari rings' hahah so anyway we took it and it was fucking rubber...yeahhh.haha...then at 3ish rui took a cab back to sch and i went to pick up my guitar then went fer guitar lesson..omg darius ..is so lame..haa his jokes are like....retarded...hahahah..yeahhh..anywayy then after tt took cab back home and went to sleep....hrmss..then came down at 8ish and sat at the table rotting watching trl..then mia came....then like at 9 my mom came back [she went to shanghai]..yeahhhHhHh.. yeahh. hahahs. hrmssSSs.mia and calvin are going to sos without meeeeeeee!~. not fairrr..
i wanna go dancinngggggg-beatriz*callmeandillbethereferyou*

2003-11-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

hahahahha i was talking to joyce and she was like

"im scared to go to school tmr cuz im gonna have to partner this fat ugly girl"

hahahha then i was like "hi. im joyce...i have wild overgrowing pubic hair that always sticks out of my pants"

hahahaha....and she was like "yeah i dont think that helps... im gonna go up to the 8th graders and say `hi. i have big pubes` hahahhahahhahhahahhaahhahahha........ then she was like yeah and sometimes i have to partner this ape looking girl" hahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhaha

2003-11-18T20:52:00.000+08:00

gahaaa. okaeeyy...jia and juls are heeeeerrreeeeeee... jia wont be in 2 seconds. okkkkkaeeyyy....anywayyyyYyYy.went to buy macs and fell asleep after eatinggg...then went to pick up juls and jia.....thennsss hahhaha so fun.. we laughed [and farted] so muchhh hahhahaa. jia was like "its so cold! im gonna fart!" hahahha....she was like doing 5sec long ones hahhaha. k nvm ....ahahhah so goddamn fucking funnyyy....hahaaaaaa yeahhh then i stabbed my eye with the eyeliner brush and started cryinggg hahahahahh so funnnyyy. i have nothing sayyy hrmmsSsssSsSss. yeahHhhh..hahaha yeahh and swammm haha fer like 4 hours till 730...yeappp...hahaha so funnn....hrmmssSSs. yeahh i forgot everything damn thinggg. gahhhhh fergeddit -beatriz*imlovingyou*

2003-11-18T12:35:00.000+08:00

i have nothing to blog about but ill blog anywayy.. hahass...didnt go to sch..yvonne and jias gonna kill me...haha but i was too lazy to get out of bed....hrmsSsSs. yeapp. strawberry cheesecake haagendaz is GGgGgooOoOoOoODdDD...bwahahha..me and ally finished all of it yesterday... yumyumss...hannah and yvonne are so mean..................................they were gonna leave me and jia aloneeee last night cuz they wanted to go to far east after dinner to buy togas.......GAH and dragged ally in.........HUH. but they didnt go in the end....bwahahHAHhahHAh. thanks to my persuasion to wait fer me...muahaha. muahahhahahaha. im good. im goooooodddd. hahhaheehah. im feeling highh... i cant stop laughing. i just ate a bigass bowl of trix. tt must be it....ahahahha yeah it is.........hhHHrmMms. my friendsters all screwedup.......cant see some of my testimonials.. :(. jessies bday on fri! oh yeah..im leaving on thursday. or maybe sunday. or something. hahahha i told juls and she was like "thursday and sunday are ffaarrrr wide apart my friend" hahahhahahahaa. juls is a freak. yeahhh. freakooo bwhahahhas.......sighHhHh. JELLYBEAN IS SO CUTTEEEE bwahahhasss. im so bored. fergheddit im gonna go eat macs -beatriz*

2003-11-17T21:56:00.000+08:00

hrmmMMs. raped the supermarket again last nightt...FUN. k anywayy...today was thrift shop in school...hahahsss so funnnnn!!!!! hahasss...so hectic and frustrating but it was reallllyyyy funny ...and poor von lost her voice bwahaha. haha anywayy...i promoted the powerpuff girls shit by singing the powderfluff song...hahhahahaha...soooosooosooo funny...during lower primary recess and all the kids were running past me laughing at me.. :( hahaha.. funfunfun...then the choir people were practising and i was doing ballet..hahahha..and they couldnt concentrate and couldnt sotp laughing on stage ahahhahaha..soo goddamnnnn funnyyy.... hahha..the C girls were getting so pissed cuz i accidentaly ripped the soft toy off the wall and it kept falling off hahaahha. ok anywayyy..after sch we stayed back till 3++ thennn carried all tt shit up to backstage and von hannah and juls followed me back home.. then ally and jia came..i dunno we were just pissing around again...hrmsssSsS.. it was sooo funnyyy. but i forgot everything tt happened today. hrmssSSSSs. shit.went dancing in the rain. was going to go watch wishing stairs but stupid ally and jia didnt want to. yeappppppppPPppP. today was so funn....but i still havent went out fer like ....5 days...... haha ive been sleeping everyday omg. sighhhHH.hrmsss. im tired... yawn. -beatriz*hugx`kissex*

b

2003-11-16T16:03:00.000+08:00

+*`I feel my wings have broken in your hands,
I feel the words unspoken inside...
And they pull you under,
And I will give you anything you want, oh
You are all I wanted,
All my dreams are falling down,
Crawling around and around and around...

+*`Somebody save me,
Let your warm hands break right through it,
Somebody save me,
I dont care how you do it, just
Stay, stay
Cmon, Ive been waiting for you

+*`I see the world has folded in your heart,
I feel the waves crash down inside,
And they pull me under,
And, I would give you anything you want, oh
You are all I wanted,
All my dreams have falling down,
Crawling around and around and around...

+*`Somebody save me,
Let your warm hands break right through it,
Somebody save me,
I dont care how you do it, just
Stay, stay
Cmon, Ive been waiting for you,

+*`All my dreams are on the ground,
Crawling around and around and around...

+*`Somebody save me,
Let your warm hands break right through,
Somebody save me,
I dont care how you do it,
Just stay (stay with me)
I made this whole world shine for you...
Just stay, stay
C'mon, Im still waiting for you

2003-11-16T15:45:00.000+08:00

came back from priscilla and patrinas awhile ago...haha. yknow i just went blogging and webbing and reading people guestbks are so fun cuz somewhere there in every guestbook theres bound to be flamers and flooders and people just dissing everybody else...bwahahha.. so damn funnyyy mans.. k anywayy..went to their house yesterdayy.me and pat went to serene to rent videos....then spent saturday night watching 3 scary vids..bwhaha..got damnnnnn fucking scared k...watched

-`*ginger snaps
-`*chuckys bride
-`*darkness falls

hahahaha..damnnn fun.. then stayed up till 1...and we were still too scared to sleepp...the tooth faerie in darkness falls ..whalao her face damnnnn scary kayy....hahhaha..then this morning we went to church..this australian girl cant stand her thinks shes so smart kept shouting dunno whats...sighh..then we went fer lunch at sushi tei @ wheellock place..........i felt sooo sick cuz i ate so much..yyeahh then we went back to their house and crapped arounddd..yeahh. basically tt was my weekendd...finally going back to sch tmrs...haven been back fer a week or something..

SERVICE-EANS THRIFT SHOP 17-19
COME SUPPORT US!!!-beatriz*screwtheretardwhoinventedtampons*

2003-11-14T22:09:00.000+08:00

did i forget to mention tt life is a fucking bitch hunting me down? yeah. i think i did.

first of all i fucking didnt go to the fucking party in the fucking park because of fucking everything and everything fucking sucks. sucks shit. after i went to the dentist i went to forum to give vtae her bag and money...ate some fries and left to go pick my up my dad from the office which took life half a fucking hour.. then after tt he made me wait another 20 minutes..then he made me go to vals sch to watch val dance again.. which tk another 45 min..and by the time we got there her fucking dance was fucking over. it was such a fucking waste of time. then my fucking cousin called me and told me tt she wasnt fucking going. omg fuckinghell. then dad didnt let me go either. omg fuckinghell even more. then he fucking made me go to fucking east coast with him to eat. which took another hour... then we went to calvins chalet...then left after like 2 fucking minutes...what the fuck man this sucks shit.

everyone can go fucking suck my shit for all i care

2003-11-14T12:07:00.000+08:00

gahhh just had power failure and i typed so much shit out its all lost noww... WHHAALLAAOOOEEHHHH anywayyy.. wha damn tired mann.. just came back from tennis at sec... damn tireddd tiredddtireedddddddhahahahsh. hrms. sorry lah abit madd. IM GONNA DIIIEEEEhrmss..anywayyy........so happy. cuz tonights PARTY IN THE PARK BABBYYY!!! haha. hrmss. gonna wear black corset with pink bikini top and tank inside ....and low waist jeans tt i wore yesterday [yesyes im dirty dont say anything else] anddddddd yeah! but my jeansll probly fall off..yeahh..thennnnnnnnn YEAH!! but should i go to the show first..or the chalet first??..my dad wants me to watch it again cuz he didnt go yesterday.. but if i do ill be watching it like..THREE FUCKING TIMESSS. joyy. hrmss. how ahh....???k nvm. anywayy. later got dentist at 4..then have to go forum drop off vtaes handbag+money.. then watch go vals sch watch show at 6-8..then go to PARTY IN THE PARKKKK!!!! woohhoo its the weekend baby!!hrmss. oh yeah yesterday i went to pick up hannah after she finished sch in my pjs barefooted and eating yoghurt BWAHAHAHAHA... haha.thenwent to serence center fer macs and bought momma a bday cake [see im so nice]..haha. yeahh..then we went to see lion king [my 2nd time]..then she left at intermission with my mom..and i was there with lenny and his parents... he kept taking fucked up photos of me and sending it to my mom.. ahh. then they left awhile after and left me there like a dumbfucking loner mann. anywayy...after tt waited fer cordy and val.. then sent cordy and sam home.. sams so wierd... he suddenly turned around and waved to me.. hahaha. wierdo.

this sarah soon damn wierd also.. on the court she starts laughing at dunno what and cannot stop.. haha sounds like......me. hahaha. k im being damn super extra RETARDED..........................WHAlLAlalalas.hrmss. yeah k then after going home went with my family to great world city crystal jade fer moommies bday dinner **HAPPPYYY BBDDAAYYY TOO YOOOOUUUUUUU********* bwahahahhhaa. k thennn.....then ward ahhs? yeah. haha. k i stink. gonna go take a showeeerrrr!! whahahahaha. -beatriz*trustyourvoicewithin+TE QUERIO BABY!*

2003-11-13T12:59:00.000+08:00

ahh haven been going to school but sleeping for 3 days in a row..anywayy by the time i got to vals school her dance was over. whoops. then went to play tennis last night.. yayyy. sighh. going fer tennis training tmr morning. i thinkk. should i go????? lifes getting so boring. i havent even went out fer like..........3 daysssss! surprisesurprise!! gahh i should go out today. but its my moms birthdayy. k ill go out tmr... GIRLS NIGHT OUT!!!! hrmsss. yeah i should go now. -beatriz*saya cinta padamu*

2003-11-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

ahhh. just woke up. nothing to say..but gonna have guitar then meeting val for her dress rehearsal..shes doing lion king this year. as a fucking elephants butt. bwaha. anyway, i know i said this before but i gotta say it again...

be at perfect 10 and cocacola's chihuahua dance party
14th nov friday 8pm at fort canning green
entry is free

-beatriz*je t'aime oncore*

2003-11-11T22:54:00.000+08:00

gahh..fell asleep crying. as some people know today was a fucking waste of life. i couldve invented a new fucking ice cream flavor and earned a million bucks if not fer today. first there was the mom thing then tt bussing thing then tt maid thing. gahhhhhhhh. life is a bitch waiting to hunt me downn. anyway. i swear to myself im not going to sch this week anymore. if i hadnt gone to sch today and yesterday i couldve gotten my drivers license and ran away from this shithole called home. cried 3 times today. joy. locked myself in my room for 7 hours till half an hour ago. nickelback can really get the anger outta you. arghhh. im locking myself up in my room tmr the day after and till i die of total depression..i called vanny. didnt talk much cuz i just needed someone to talk to...didnt really think she could relate but..yeah. watched fucking anastacia in sch mans. how fucking stupid is tt its a show fer 5year olds not 12 year olds goddamnit. ughh. anyway after sch we were planning to go out but my mom appeared in the carpark to come pick me up..so i had to follow her fer awhile. and then she had to bring my brother to do tt ic shit it was such a total waste cuz she said i HAD to go cuz after tt my dad wanted to bring us out fer lunch. and then after we finished his ic thing we DIDNT go fer lunch omg i was so goddamn pissed. i waited 3hours fer tt woman and...UGH. and then i wanted to go meet jia and julie. then they fucking left without me already and they didnt want to wait for me. and they didnt get off at any stop so i couldnt fucking meet them. then at home my fucking maid put all my shit dunno where and read all my fucking old diaries.. UGHHHH. i shouldve just slit my wrist and died of loss of blood like i told vanny i would. -beatriz*perfectionisalie*

2003-11-11T00:26:00.000+08:00

ahhhs. slep the whole day todayy. then went to play tennis with tits chermaine and dadee. saw kellyenes brother kelvin...whalao 2 months become damn fat..not fat chubby..no not chubby..like..meaty.. ahhh fergeddit hes fatter anywayy. still got damn alot of freckles..whalao chermaine play damnnnn good sia..and im damn pissed at them cuz theyre going up to costa sands resort come friday cuz theyre having a freaking party WITHOUT MEEE! . stupid bitches. whalianah my mom is damnnn irritating mansss. i got like 7 bags to give to thrift shop then tt woman scold me fer giving everything away.. whalao then yesterday you still scold me fer keeping so much shit in my room. fucked upp. then my dad came in my room lie down on my bed and eat my ice cream.. then started lecturing me about results.. then i started laughing at what he said which made him lecture me even more cuz i mean...who can take a fat man lying on my bed eating ice cream and licking chocolate off his fingers seriously? haha. its like....damn. ahh. wellwellwell. yeahh tts all fer todayy. thanks fer watching. -beatriz*te amo*

2003-11-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

went to sch today fer like. 3 hours.haha. cuz i had...stomachache. yeahh hahah...oh yeah did i forget to mention tt julie decided to be a sugarcane drink maker when we went to newton the other day she slept over at midnight to buy satay...hahha.. then she was standing there watching the old man squash the sugarcanes and she was so amazed. hahahha. OMG im never ever taking a shower in the morning ever ever ever again.. its so fucking colldddddddd it freezes your vagina. hahahha. yeahhhhh. OH YEAH IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARK IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARK IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARK BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA. yeahppppp. got hannah to go with me and bec and melly. and whoever else is coming CUZ IM GOING ANYWAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! muahahahaha..

btw miss you-know-who-you-are if you dont bring back my hat for me then you better get down on your knees and pray tt youll still be alive the next day

yeah IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARKKKK BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAA. and its FREE oh and fer 15bucks you can get a shirt the chihuahua dance party cd and a RADIOCARD!!!!!!!!!!!! i dunno what the fuck tt is but WHO CAREEESSSS CUZ IM GOING TO PARTY IN THE PARRRRRKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! muahahaha. -beatriz*watchoutpartyintheparkCUZHEREICOMEEEE*

2003-11-09T13:31:00.000+08:00

haha...last nights entry was damn screwed up manss. too tired cannot think liaosss..kayyys. haha....AHHHH i want jia freakin juns room manssss...its purple and pink!!!! and her sisters blue and greeen...whoop! its damn nice... damn damn damn damn damn damn niceeeeeee. ggaaahhhhhhhhhhhh. should i say how much it is? nope. i shouldnt right. yeah. shouldnt.hahass. oh yeahhh haha yesterdayss when we were taking neoprints...we were designing them and this whole bunch of malay guys with piercings all over their face hahaha...they like opened the curtain and put their head on the arms and pretended to be very interesteddd...hahaha. then there was this one called lesbo love...and me and hannah were on the top licking each others tongues..hahah then the guy saw and he started woohoo-ing and he stuck his finger between our faces and was like "yeahyeah! very good! very good!" hahahhaha...it was damnnnnnnn funny manss. hahahhaha.. then they were telling us which one was nice and all tt shit..hahahhaha damnnnn fucking funnnyyyyy....hahahahahha...hahahass..and jias dog tried to fucking bite off my fingers.. it was this damn huge golden retriever...and it was just lying there...then i pet its head and jia saw and she started screaming asking me to go awayy...hahaha... then suddenly it jumped up and tried to bite my fingers...omg hahhaha i was scared shitless and it started chasing after me... hahahhaa..shit lahss. ahahahahaahahaaaaaa damn farnniiiiss.....bwahahhhaaha. omg yknow friendster is freaking me out.. i was looking through the gallery and i saw all my sisters and brothers friends and people i know and blablablabla... like singapores so small youll know almost everybodyy...yeah. true ward... last time i went out after dinner fer dessert with fergot who then i saw these 2 gays on a date.. and i saw them 3 weeeks later walking together again outside a hotel.....hahass..sighhh. im so tireddd...should i go out todayyy. stupid jias gonna go swimming again..hrmss. i need to get a fucking tann -beatriz*tequerio*

2003-11-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

hhhheeelllloooowwwiiieeee!!!!!!! just came back from jia juns NEW house mannssss. damn niceeee. anywayyyyy..me and julie didnt go to sch yesterdayyy..haha then i asked julie to come to my house to sleep in the morning.... hahas anywayyyyy..after sch...hannah came over with my famous amos then jia and julie came..then what happened? gahhh. cannot remember...sorry very tired cannot think..oh we swam again.. and i suntanned... and when i got into the sun.. the sun goes away.. when i get out of the sun .. the sun comes out again.. haizzzz. anywayyyyy...thennnn..we were gonna go out fer dinner again budden we didnt cuz.... i dunno why... haha.. then after jia left my dog almost died cuz it chewed up my soft green pillow and ate all the fucking shit inside... GgrggGRgGRgGR AHAHHHhhhHhhHHHhH. thenss.julie slept over.. haha so funnn.... then this morning me and juls went to buy macs at KAP and went to jias house.. damn nice siaaaaaaaaaahh..im damn jealous mann. especially her fucking room kayy.. at night when you on the lights its damnnnn niceeeeeee. anyway we swam again fer like the 4th day in a row.. haha....AH her 2 kittens damn cute... so small.. like the size of....a..a....a.... aiya but damn small lahs damn cute.. one yoda one dunno what.. cringle or pringle or crinkle or dunno what shit lahss... then we went back to orchard at 7 something.. then went back to her house and 9...hahassssss. omg saw this american or latin lady with her husband.. walking around and she was in this black spaghetti.. which was probly like 10 cm short.. and a miniskirt as short as her tank..haha and she exposed her whole belly and she put this damnnn long silver chain as her belly button ring.. and platform shoes like damnnn high. and tattoos everywhere...sighh. whats the world coming to??anywayyyyy then ate at jias house again..haha spongebobbbb..hahahhaahsawejglfhsefgjsdkfgksdjfh. ssighhh. oh i found out how to use friendster liaos.. yayy i so smart.. hahaassss. whalalalla. anywayyyy.. then after juls left and i was the only one dere at like 10 or something my dad decided to abandon me there and not pick up his phone....so i stayed till likw now.. then he come and call me and scold me why i never call him.. haha...hahahah when we were waiting fer my dadee me and jia were going crazeeeeee mansss... then jia go send this stupid messages to julie...haha :

sorry i am bored. my bikini is falling down. i am spinning on the chair.im gonna throw up.i am the bed purposely to fart. like alone only the two of us. i am a crazy lunatic. sniffff..i have lice and i go newton and dandruff in my head. it is very itchy.my dad is going to die. im never giving him my ice cream again.

hahahahha. retarded. hahaha. okayyy im tired i dunno what im typing gnights.. -beatriz*ichliebedich*

2003-11-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

TONGUE LICKIN!!!
hahah.nothingnothing.inside shit..lolsss.wah cannot breath manss..just came back from girls nite out v.3!!!.anywayys..went fer guitarr...today spent alot more time talking to darius than playing guitarr..hrms. anywayy..after tt..i cant remember what i did. hrms.

anywayyss. didnt go to sch todays again..then momma woke me up at like...12ish and went to eat lunch at paragon sushi tei.. and bought alott of shit from blood brothers...damn cool. very nice fer going dANciNG.. :):):) ..muaha...thenn. hannah and jia and queefanana called me during lunch and told me they were goingsta meet me at paragon.. then they called 15 min later and they were still in school.. haha stupidd..anyway..so they wlaked to my house.. hannah jia queefanana celine and ally..then i went home and banged the door on hannah..whoops sorry...hahasss. then we shitted aroundd...then we went swimminggg...bwahaha..thens calvin was having band practise so i went to disturb them and sang horribly offtune ..haha i started shrieking..bwahahah..then showered and shitt...messed up my whole room..

girls nite out v.3

then at like..730ish we went to eat dinner at heeren.. but we went to take neoprints ferstt....tk 2...ally was moping cuz she said she lkd badd or somethingg...dunno lahss.. but she cheered up :)..thenn we went to eat marcheee... o0o saw esther... mommas manicurist.. o0o saw her bf.. very ttalll.. wahlao esther damn chio..her face damn cuteee...hees anywayy...thenn after we finishedd...we went to the magazine store.. and the indian guy was talking some gibberish to us..o0o wierdoooooo.then we went out to sit at the stone thingyy.....thennn went back homee... which is noww..the [naughtynaughty] ..bwahahhaha..nopenope nothing...haha.thennnnnnn hannah spat sprite and a whole lotta saliva all over meeeeeeeeeeee....im all sticky now..it just totally exploded over mee...grosss. yuckk my whole house smells like ass.. bwaha. should i go sch tmrs. -beatriz*lickylicky*

2003-11-05T13:54:00.000+08:00

whalalas. just took a damn nice shower. heeeees. went ter the fricken zoo today. reminded me abt primary1...haha. actually quite lahs...like alot of other schools were dere also.. anyway..went with von and jess those people lahs.. and walked alotttt...haha and we walked into this snake thing..a walkthrough snake cage-y thingyyy .. hahas damnnnn funny..and blablablasssss.. saw lynn from bowling.. and tt very tall skinny guy...o0o i like trains *calling all angels*. hahas just came on the radio damn nice... anywayyy.. ate roti prata...hees. yummy. they all think my style of eating rotaprata is damn gross..haha cuz i tear it.. then roll it..then dip into curry.. then dip into sugar and eat it.. bwahahaha. what?? nice wards.omg yuckkkk i hate kym marsh shes such a fricken wannabe..

anywaysss..thens saw jia and followed her instead.. haha. they said i was mean cuz i abandoned them.. :(. haha anywaysss. thens we saw this damn big crocodile.. like longer than a car...my god.. rui kept screaming. tt pig. hahas. then we went into the duck enclosure shit.. the walkthrough also.. hahaha. this cute squirrel kept following us.. haha so cute!!!! then i saw chicks and rabbits.. and started carrying it.. OH YEAH i played with a pig :))) it was so damn cute kayyyy..it was black summore.. and this other really bigg pig.. and some lambs...and sheepp.. theyre so mean.. they pierce the sheeps ears and put plastic tags innit. so gross. juls new names queefanana.. whalala.anywaee. then we went to the playground.. hahasss.. and theres this playpool thingy.. and stupid rui wet my whole damn dress.. and after we ate we went back... yeah tt was our zooday..hass. so funn... i thought it wouldve been lammmeee and borrinnng but we ended up being allowed to go aorund ourselves so tt was pretty funn..oh god tt wang lee hom dunno what shit is so wannabe... my goddd yuck the fucking radios playing his fucking shitass song...yay evanessence..anywayy...got guitar with jessie.. bye fer nowss -beatriz*hugx+kissex*

2003-11-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

:( heem hian said i wasnt nice :(. anywayyy hahah just nows so funny cuz char accidentaly walked right into the bedpost.. so she got balakoo on her forehead.. then after everyone left..my maid saw and she went crazy mans.. she was like "omg! what happened?? " then she was like running up to get ice.. and she told char to rub her hair on her bump so itll go away.. hahahahaaa..and she was like asking me to "lend" char my hair.. hahahahahah.then she started rubbing chars hair on her bump and char fell back onto the chair.. hahahhaa..and hahahaa.. she was either crying or laughing.. or both.. hahahaha. damnnnn funny.. hhahaha. i wanna go party in the park -beatriz*mwuahs*

2003-11-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

bwaahahahahahahahahaha. me julie jia izzy and char and van went to watch uptown girls todayy. at great world. lets see. the movie was funny touching sadd happy and cutee. bwahahaha. yeahh damn funny mansss. izzy is reading this now standing like a hawker showing everyone her vagina. hahahhaa.yesyes. and we were 3min late but oh wells. nice movie anyway. EeeEEEEEEeE. the guy is so cute. bwahahahahaha. jia agrees with me. bwahahahaahahahHHAhAHAHhahHA. im evil. after the movie we went to eat kfc. i ate too much cheese so i have headache. anyway everyones back in my room like messing the whole place up playing in the dark. hahas dont ask. whalalala.i like john mayer. hes ugly but i like his voice :)) damnnn sexaye mans.. muahahhaa. i wanna go to party in the parkk. -beatriz*bwahahaha*

dont just love me,love me

2003-11-04T13:06:00.000+08:00

o0o. schs such a waste of time...didnt go. theyre gonna go to sch and drink tea. wtf. anywayyy. i kinda had 3 choices...
-just go to sch
-tennis training at secondary at 8
-tennis lessons with my mom at sicc at 7
ah well. i didnt choose any of them. bwahahahaa. hahaha. oh vanny and me were having this hella funnnnnyyyyy convo last night..on msn with these pple... omg it was so damn fricken funny...i swear..and thne my dad came in halfway ..like not wearing a shirt.. and i was laughing cuz of the convo so he started laughing.
right. and then he picked up my devil stick and tried to stick it up my ass again..hahahah. but it was soosooossooosooosos funny....bwahahahahahaha. im eevvviil. *winkwink* bwahahahahahahah. nothingnothing. inside jk with me and vanny. oh yeah vanny in case your computer conked up last night and you didnt read my gnight message here goes..
**nightynightsleeptightsdearwinkwinkbwahahaimevillyesiamluffluffyouanywaeeeeeetightesthugx+sloppiestkissexmwuah** -beatriz*winkwink*

``considering wether i should go out today or not.. :[

2003-11-03T20:16:00.000+08:00

!!ATTENTION ATTENTION!!
wanna spend the evening with hot, sexy, sweaty bodies with no walls to restrict you?
!!come to party in the park featuring the chihuahua dance craze!!
!!14 november 2003 from 8pm onwards doors open 6pm!!
!!fort canning green!!
!!entry is free!!

-broghttoyoubybeatriz

2003-11-03T20:02:00.000+08:00

aha. slept again..sheesh. im suck a pig [high5 rui].but i was like lying down on the bed already and then clara asked me to go fer tennis training tmr.. then sarah and yingyi joined the convo and they kept me awake fer like anudder hour. haiz...so slept at 4.30 only till 7ish..and in bed i was bored so i startedd eating twisties..i ate 3packs of twisties..5pieces of icecream...and i ...k hold on

k back. my dad was gonna bang down my door. and when i opened it he said bye. wtf. anywaez.
yeah the point is im eating toooo much. im toooo fat. i have a lil tummy already.yeah i know everyone has one but..mine like sticks outt. sighhh. o0o i like michelle branch *breathe* damn fuckin nice siaaa.

ive been driving fer an hour just talking to the rain..you say ive been driving you crazy and its keeping you away...blablabla if i just breathheee ..let it fill the space between ill know tt everythings alright. k humdeedum. after eating took a shower. and here i am being bored. oh i found a lollipop stick in my shower rack. lol. i used to eat lollipops in the shower. muahahahHAHAHAaaa. im eevil. o0o invisible just came on. i think the subaru dunno pretsa comp is really moronic mans. stand there till you cant feel yer legs with your hand on a car..damnnn sutpid mann. but i like the car.. ;)..my moms manicurist has it..black color..damnnn cool. i like those cars in 2fast2furious..all those personalised stuff. hummm.eee i wanna play tennis. my dad just asked me to go play tennis budden i just tk a shower and im too lazy nowws. too sleepy ;) omg theres really something wrong with the way im typing k..all messed up. oh bernice intro-ed me to tt friendster thing...my sister has it but i dunno what the hell it is so i didnt bother.. k gonna sign up laters.OMG i just remembered. when i was talking to clara yingyi and sarah they told me tt tabi has RETAINED..so shell be in MY FUCKING YEAR. omg. im so. insulted. GAGGGGHHH (pronounced as gah) -beatriz*insultedbutistillloveyounother*

2003-11-03T14:18:00.000+08:00

omg school was so funny fer some reason today..as some people know we went to botanical gardens fer field trip today and...hahas it was just the funniest day of my life probly...fer those who didnt go like vanny too bad cuz it was hella fun..anyway.. we got there at like 830 or something.. and it was really hott.. and i brought so much damn food which all dissapeared now. gross theres mud on my hand. hahas ill tell you why after..anyway so me+von+jess+shuying+sarah+rhea+leanne+hoiguen+kim+i forgot who were on this friggin biiiigggggggg mat..and we were just there eating and shitting around then ally+hannah+stephanie+carrie+izzy+amanda and all came and sat next to us and hannah was eating kim kans bee hoon.. muaha. retarded k anywayyy..then after awhile me and julie (she was sitting with jia they all like further down the hill) were having a competition like who can shout queef the loudest hahah. she was like QUEEF! then i shouted QUEEFER shes like QUEEFIST im like QUEEFIE hahaha damn funny manss...hahasss. then we chilled out [under the sun] then i was like running around like..retarded. and i went to kelly and sat on her tiny tiny mat..accidentaly crushed sarajoys feet+rachels cards+basiccaly everything was messed up after i sat down.. hahahaha. damn funny. oh then i gave kelly her birthday letter...and she thought it was really pathetic cuz i was just talking shit in dere...muaha. then went to jia's mat and stuff...o0o yeah after a long while like five of us jia ally hannah izzy and i cant remember who we went to crap around on the big stage.. and i was totally digracing+degrading the school cuz i sang cheeky girls and limp bizkit and stuff and yvonne and me were shaking our asses like cameronn diaz in charlies angels muahaha so funn. then they got off the stage and i got the whole thing to myself muaha so i did a "ballet recital" i call it *ballet under the stars* muahaha. then i ballet-ed fer like 5 whole minutes omg it was so tiring. how do people do so much ballet? damn. hahaha. then everyone who saw started clapping and laughing they were all like BOO and stuff but it was so funnnnnn. hahahas. oooh yeah then geraldine [iz tt her name..i dunno they call her hooker haha] came up to my and she was like "omg! the elite model search thing!' haha so we all walked all the way up to the orchid thingy..and saw like a damn lot of chio girls man... all the models. omg theyre damn freaking pretty i tell you k. damn hott sia.. i was so jealous i wanted to go home. yeah then one of them was from singapore [they were all mixed] and she was only 14 and she was like...damn freaking tall like 3 heads taller than me i swear...damn tall. but not as pretty as the others. whalao they were damn chio. im so jealous. im so jealous. im so damn fucking jealous.

k anywayys. haha then the models went into the orchid thingy.. so we tried to get in but you have to pay so we sneaked in by the other side but we lost them cuz they went into another trail.. sighh. so sadd. but alot of them were damn bitchy stand like got attitude problem..and one of them was wearing a skirt as long as ...a..a what. a shoe. yeah k. like a 15cm ruler. but she was damn chio. i think i said tt many times but still. damn chio. man. so jealous. anyway...then we sat on the stairs making a hella lot of noise..haa. sighh the rest of the time i forgot what i was doing...hrms. oh. found out andrew-the-bus-drivers name was actually henry. people only thought his name was andrew cuz he used to have long hair and he thought he looked like the singer ah-du.. so everytime people got on his bus hed be like "da jia hao. wo shi ah-du" but it sounded like andrew. so yeah. i should seu him fer sexual harrassment. and i found him smoking on school grounds so i cant SUEEEEE HIMMM . muaha. im eeevvvil. -da jia hao wo shi beatriz*

2003-11-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

found this pretty interesting web on love.. love stories and 100 different ways to say "i love you" in different languages here :

English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha wau ia oi
Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female)
Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (to male)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te ubesk
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe

yeapp. my fav one is te quiero (spanish)..haha.. once i read it i thought of enrique iglesias's song. i hate tt guy his mole annoys me.. sighh. went to carrefour just noww.. bought alott of chips fer picnic tmr.. bought alot of hooch+bacardi breezers cuz its time to PARTYYY. hehaxx. o0o bought my pineapple tart also. sighhs. well yeah. gonna take a shower. -beatriz*ilovelove*
what i did fer love
a touching love story

2003-11-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

hahas. watched bubble boy last night..damn fuckken funny movie mans. its like a old jake gyllenhall movie <--dont make fun of me cuz i cant spell his last name

anywaysss. woke up at lunch time again today..i hafta stop making [waking up past breakfast and merely over lunch] a habit. yeahh.im not eating right..hahas. anyway.. momma cooked couscous and veal today. saw the new nickelback video *someday*...felt like crying but couldnt cuz i dont normally cry when i watch stuff.i kinda missed the first half but based on the second half i guess i know what the story is.. its like..[from where i started watching] this girl starts crying standing in front of a table where the guys sitting.. and theres a spilled glass of milk on the floor.. and a newspaper with half of the words covering and the pic of the guy on it..and the girl starts walking out the door carrying her luggages and stuff and she steps in the milk.. so it leaves footprints..and the guy follows her asking her to come back and he steps in the milk too but he doesnt leave any footprints..and she gets into the car and starts crying and the guy stands in front of the car making her stop but she just drives and the guy starts chasing after the car..and in the mirror you can see the guy chasing but when she looks at it you cant see anything..and then she runs through a red light and a truck runs over her car killing her..and her spirit comes out and hugs the guy. then at the end of the video you can see the whole newspaper tt says "boy killed in tragic bridge accident" so sad right?

yeah. ok tt was loong.. hahas and me and my sis watched american pie the wedding again. then she stopped halfway cuz she needed to go up and take a shit but she restarted the whole damn thing.. haiz. gonna go to carrefour to buy shit fer tmr. mondays botanical gardens fer picnic...tuesdays tea culture..thursdays zoo and fridays science center..yeap. damn lame right. zoo summore mans. i went there in p1. and now were p6. wahbiangah. -beatriz*alienonbroadway*

2003-11-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

crap. i think tonight was the scariest night of my life..k see me and my family went fer dinner at raffles hotel..some steak place. when we walked in..this halfdrunk australian said something to me i forgot what....then we went in and ate..and there were 4 courses..and the first 3 courses had wine with it.. so everyone got wine..and there were 6 glasses each person.. and my mom drank too much..and i think it mixed with the oil..cuz the steak was too oily.. so when we left she felt really sick and she was all red.. (which i got from her so when we drink we go completely red)anyway so she felt like throwing up so she went to the bathroom but she decided to go home..and we were waiting fer the lift and this fat indian woman came and she already knew my momma didnt feel so good. so when we came out of the lift my mom couldnt really walk.. and she was stumbling the whole way and she was gonna lean aainst the wall but she just blacked out and collapsed..it was really loud cuz she fell back flat..and she fell on her head damn hard..i was damn scared shitless mans.the indian lady saw and helped me pull my mom up..and she cant even remember anything nows... anyway so i let her rest on the bench.. and i called my brother cuz he and my dadee and my sis were at the carpark.. but he didnt believe me..so my dadee only came after like five min..then the waiter of the bar was damn nice and gave my momma a glass of water and axe oil..so she felt better.. then after 5 min we started to leave..and i went to put the water and oil back but the waiter was gone.. so i put it on the table.. and this other wierdo kept talking to me.so i was like damn and i walked back with my parents..and we walked past this group of people.. 2 girls and 2 guys.. they were damn sluttish mans.. one was wearing this loose and damn lowcut thing half of her boobs were hanging out and the other woman was wearing a black shirt like cut all the way right below her boobs..haha.but she pierced her belly! whalaos. i damn jealous. haiz.my mom was like..uuhhmm. hahas.

anywaeee forget my scary night. its saturday night and im stuck at home. pooey. im grounded!!!!!. pooey. haizz.oh yeah happy belated bday ed ..(hes born on halloween) not fair right? he told me just now..haiz. hope yer out having fun clubbin or something while im stuck at home..haiz.k i think ill go watch a movie in the basement or something. and eat my halloween candy. yeahh. -beatriz*scarrriiee*

2003-11-01T18:19:00.000+08:00

yeahh so here i am on a perfect dark saturday...WASTING my perfect dark saturday at least. listening to *paper heart*__all american rejects + *feeling this*__blink182 over and over again..before this i was strying to find tt blog. trying but i cant so practically giving up right now..blink182 has a new album..*feeling this* if you dont already know...just watched the video. hahas. shows older teens either in jail or theyre insulting boarding schools. yeahh. well theres one part where this girl and a boy see talk to each other in those places where the visitors talk to them in jail? yknow? and they start making out-with the glass between them hahahha. then they start taking off their clothes and etcetc. its pretty amusing.wells. had to wait another 20 minutes fer my mom to come back before she could drive me to tanglin mall... she was spossed to wash her hair and i was spossed ot buy my lunch and wait fer tt woman.

and she asked me to buy her coffee.so i was paying and she called me to tell me tt she had to wait 20 minutes and shed come down to drink it..so i sat there waiting fer her like 5-8 minutes and she calls me and shes like 'whered you go?im sitting here waiting for you and i saw my friend can you come now' i was like wtf im waiting fer YOU. ughh. so tt delayed my lunch by another half an hour..bought my macs and went home. yknow. you either like your job or hate your job. people who serve you at macs with black faces totally just not wanting to take you seriously bug me..they like do things anyhow as people call it.damn. well tts just how i think. so entertain me.

im wasting my life. life is a bitch. bitches screw. screw you. youre queef. queefs gay. gay is happy. happy i am. i am happy. im going nuts. i need to do something. but i just ate like a double cheese burger large fries apple pie and orange mcfizz. yeah tt was my lunch btw.

lunch at 530.gaygaygaygaygay.now i know what it feels like to be fasting. tho you have to get up at like 4am before the sun rises and wait fer the sun to rise then you can eat. damn. dont think id survive. but happy fasting everyone. im gay. im talking crap. i shouldnt be. but now i should. i think i wanna sleep. but ive slept fer 14 hours in the morning already..ah wells. going out fer dinner laters. yeahhh. saturday night tonight eh? very the boring eh? whalao. im spending saturday at homeeeee. so saddd. i miss the freedom i had before i turned all like...well yeah i wont mention anything about my past except if its uh. i dunno what im saying larhs.i want flowers. i want a wedding gown. i wanna go sing karaoke. hees. funn.

please just dont play with me. my paper heart will bleed. this wait fer destiny wont do..be with me please i beseech you..simple things tt make you run away..catch you if i can. tears fall down your face..the taste is something new..

blablabla. i like tt song. paper heart. so nice. yum. -beatriz*youremystar*

2003-11-01T15:39:00.000+08:00

just spent an hour reading other peoples blogs.wasnt planning on blogging but decided to use some time to actually do something and not sit around and bum. hrmz. well first off woke up an hour and a half ago..in other words 2PM..stayed in bed using the laptop..chatted fer awhile and went to take a shower. tho i couldnt use my own shower cuz the dog made a hellaoffa mess in dere. newspapers and piss everywhere..totally disguisting.. so i used the shower in my parents room.. blasted the music [all american rejects] and spent a good 30minutes in there...couldve spent longer but the hot water was running out.. :(. which leads to right now. bumming around..home alone since im grounded and i cant go out cuz of some stupidass reason.yeahh. totally bored now. totally feel like kicking my moms ass right now. cuz of her i haven ate breakfast and lunch. and she wants me to wait fer another half an hour before i can go buy lunch. ugh. cant wait to get my own drivers license. well yeahh tts about it i guess. i wanna go out. -beatriz*youremycandy*

2003-10-31T23:45:00.000+08:00

haha last night me and my dadee stayed up till 2am eating baked beans and cup noodles. muaha. im fat
sighh im all alone cuz hannah and ally went home.. and julie's going to jias to sleep fer the night..and queefievon went home too. sighh. but ah wellx we had damn lots of fun todayss. after school (we went to chinatown todayss) jia and julie came back with me but ally hannah and vonnie decided to abandon us and go to ally's [fine..hang with the cooler kids not us] hahas and omg by the time we were in the car we were already going ccrrazzyy. julie brought her white big cloth which was so damn nice cuz her sis helped her sew black bats and pumpkins and stuff and sewed red beads on it.. damn nice.. and made holes onnit fer the eyes and stuff... so julie was like wearing it in the car and we were like opening the window and shouting happy halloween to people we didnt know and teachers cuz we were still in the schools carpark. muahaha. hahah damn paisei but so funnnn. thens we went back home and they were like totally disrupting my whole room. they were throwing my new cushions around the room.. and they kept tickling me and i rolled off the bedd and ended up like..a meter away from the bed...hahahas. damn funnysssss. thens we ordered pizza which we still haven finished... sighh. and then ally hannah and vonnie came..hahha. havoc. we all took showers and shit and changed.. i wore a black miniskirt and black racerback and the purple and black see through cloak (i think tts vannys or something but dunno how it ended up in my house..) and black stocking...von said i was kinda like a seducer..or something lydatt. and hannah was a witch (as always) but like.. a kinda cool and hip one.. cuz she had the lace choker and heelys which kept making her trip and spilling her candy all over the floor. hahas yeahh and jia was a pirate..hahahh with her big chunky shoes with broke..vonnie was like.. i dunno.. a what? a sorceror or something.. and ally was a whore. muaha. sorta like...i dunno. she was gonna be a waiter with the macs tray tt hannah stole from mcdonalds but she ended up as a slut. i dunno. with my sunglasses cuz she cant stop touching them
yeah so we got to wdlands at like 6.. and it started drizzling..damn. anyway we were like one of the firsts trick or treating...we got some pretty good candy tho. my mouths all..blue. anywayyy..o0o saw auntie phoebe too.. her friends were like pulling my costume and everything haaha. she was all excited haha...we left at like 8-ishh.. and we went into the gas station in our costumes and everyone was staring hahha..sang to my driver.. and shouted happy halloween to everyone we drove past...haha. damn fun lehs. we saw this girll.. who was like a hula dancer and coconut bra and everything...and then we went into a house..and the girl was there.. and the owner of the house was like "MICHEAL!" hahhahaha. omg it was a fricken guyyyyy...hahha... all of us were like what the fuckk.. hahah.yeah saw some really cool costumes... saw ozzy..scream...and all these other wierd people.. hahah. haha yeah so we came back to my house and played speed and shit and ate all of the candy... hahha then when hannah was the only one left..she accidentaly sat in the paint....and ahhahaha omg i opened the toilet door to let my dog out.. and hannah pretended to be scared of the dogg... so she ran to my table and jumped onnitt. and i was like wtf so i pulled her off... hahhaha and she landed on her asss. and the tables like more than a metre off the floor... hahahhaa....damn funnnnnnnyyyyyyy. hahhahaha. shit hhahahaha. loolllsssss. sighh.yeapyeap. gonna go eat satay laters -beatriz*lovemakestheworldgorounddd*

2003-10-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

sighh slept till 12..woke up and talked to vannyhunny and she added me to the convo with jillian.. then i didnt know she was in school.. so i was like saying stuff about these 2 other sec1 girls how i saw them and they started staring at me.. then jillian was like im in the computer lab and they were standing behind herr.. haha. paiseipaisei..so they were like apologising and stuff. dunno lahss. anywayyyyyy.so thens went to ikea with moomie calvin and bryan..ate lunch dere..hughlyn came.. and saw tt p3 girl who lks like my age... and bought a really cool picture which my mom thought was really horrific..its like a hand painted completely red.. and you know when you do tt thing with yer index finger and your thumb and theres a hole? well yeah inside the hole was an eye... dman cool siaa.. and bought a black frame ferrit too.. o0o0o0o also bought like 4 pink orange and red cushions..damnnn nicce. \thens the driver was waiting outside and we were like blocking up the whole lane cuz we had to put all the shit in the trunk.. and like we had 5 people.. haa. damn pai sei lehs.

thens. eh tmr halloween lehss. im gonna be.. i dunno. ill just wear all black and wear tt cloak thingy..hrms. and be a... i dunno. yuck the macs fish mcdippers taste disguisting mann. so gross.and noww they have tt gross wasabi sauce shit. gross.i wanna pierce my nose.. my dad said if i do. hell make me wear a big ring connected to a chain so he can pull me around hahas.o0o tmrs sas's peace concert. sighh. hhah talking to izzie noww. deciding what to be tmr. hahhaha and shes telling me she has fairy wings so i say then be fairy lah wear white dress white skirt white shirt white bra white undie white socks white shoes white braces white earring blablabla ahhaa then shes like no i wanna be angel. then im like then be both lah aiyo who cares.. and shes like.. no! i dont wanna be some mixedd up thingyy ahahahhaha. and then she wants to be a devil and a superstar and a dunno what shit lah wadafak. cannot make up her mind. o0o i like tt song *fortune faded* by red hot chilli peppers.. its NEW! muaha.o0o and *breathe* by michelle branch and tt one by ludacris.. goes like "when i move you move..just like tt" o0o damnn nice sia. oh and tt *hole in the head* by sugababes. o-O damn nice.. OOH and *pump it up* joe budden.. and ..and...and...

o-O i like my jeans.. its just plain dark jeans but it says HONEY on the ass... o0o damn cool. haha omg you know tt stupid commercial on perfect 10.. tt bimbotic jamie yeo thing. my god so stupid.. shes all "well its not my fault.. i just dont know how to work the radio. i mean.. theres just so many buttons and knobs and stuff" haha wadafak mann sigh.o-O. k izzy decided to follow my great advice and be an angel-fairy. haizz. k i was bored..

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2003-10-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

ive decided tmrs a holiday for MMMEEE only fer MMEEEEMMEMEMEMEMEME muaha. sigh. after school went home blablabla went fer guitar..jess was all retarded hahaha. darius thinks shes soo wierd. haha. cuz she kept mumbling something and when he asked what she said she was like "oh nono nothing nothing" like so many times and she was soo blurr. hahahhaa. so funny. and she couldnt stop laughing so she couldnt playy.. muahaha damnnn farni mann.sighh. after tt my mom picked me up and she needed to go to the clinic or something cuz she said she had.. grogginess or some crap lydat..ands she went to far east (not tt far east) and i just walked off to zara. nothing to buyy lehhhh. haa thens i walked back and walked around like a dumbass talking to kelly abt *****. muahaha.whala. thens went back home and slept fer like three hours and blabla. sighh. o0o my life is really...exciting huhh? JOY! -beatriz*luvyoubaby*

2003-10-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

whalala. vannydear has joined the cooool club and made a bloggie. hahaha muaha. jkjk.

sighh. im so sadd. i just got grounded fer a damn weeeeeeeeekk. no going out. except fer tmrs guitar lesson with my baby jess and i dunno abt halloween. o0o i like this diana krall song my mommas playing nowws. so nice.. her voice is so smoooooth and relaxing.. damnnn nice. sighh. IM GROUNDEEDDDDD. hrms. what to doo. anywayyy, i got grounded cuz my dad thought i was lying to him again when i came home an hour later than curfew and told him tt aither the drivvers or my phone had something wrong and he thought it was a lame excuse so he grounded me when i tried to explain. so much fer being an understanding daddeee huh? sighhh sighhhh sighhhh.

vanee you owe me something fer the help with yer bloggie muaha -beatriz*luvyoudarling*

2003-10-28T18:16:00.000+08:00

o0o0o.. sick of chicken rice.. last night went out at 12.30-ish (technically this morning) till 1.30 and ate chicken rice. hahas. thens went back and slept at 2am.. and school was a waste of time cuz we had lifeskills.. and today we had like cooking first..and then sewing or something.. and we cooked chicken rice again which tasted like shit and omg during sewing.. it was so boring and izzie was bugging me fer gum..so after she took it out iwanted to take the whole tube of smarties out.. so i hid it in my jacket. omg. everything came out..damn it was so funny.. the whole room became silent and and everyone was staring.. and i was like.. SHIT.. like damn loud.. the parent volunteers were like.. what the hell... and haha. then i threw the jacket onto the chair in front of me and all my coins came out.. hahaha it was sooo funny. kai ling was like eating them off the floor. hahahaha. oh yeah.. heard kai ling and anna got into the joshua ang finals? haas. anna can you even speak chinese? ahh no. shes like british isnt she. no russian. no..uh some wierdd thinggggg.oh and tt stupid fat bitchy vice principal scolded a whole bunch of us fer stopping outside the school..and holding up traffic and she had to give me extra bookings or something fer wearing ankle socks. and shes like raping me and shit and im standing there smelling her cheap perfume. i feel sorry for juls. the fat bitch is her neighbourr. hahaha. sighh so sad right? hahas . anywaeee after school me vonnie and jessie [took a bus] back to jessies house.. and on the bus ms bei and mrs ng was on the buss. lol. and we were totally like disgracing the school man....damn funn.hahha.then we stopped on the way at cold storage and met van poo..tsao hui and hoi guen.. hahas. [imitation chocolate] haha lol vanessa. then we saw cheryl there.. and like..i called my mom to tell her i wasnt coming home fer lunch. she was like totally bitching on me cuz she was gonna cook her dunno what spaghetti shit lah i dunno. ahya wtvr thens we walked back to jessies house and after von , being the extra, changed and shit complaining about her.. ahems. we tk a BUS down to far east.. and we started walking around like idiots cuz of yvonne and tk these super niceeee neoprints. damnnn nice. hahas.oh on the burger king window theres like the wwf girl in a feather boa and shes in a fricken thonggggg. hahas. i thought this shithole of a singapore was too strict to even make chewing gum illegal..still can put women in thongs in the middle of orchard.. haas this place is screwed up... then blablabla went back to jessies at likee.. 4++++ cuz it got so damn boringg. and like.. hahahhahahha. it was just so damn funny. yvvonee was like complaining abt her big ahems again and haha. i dunno lah. damn funny. o0o. yayy ally jia juls yvonne hannah celine izzie jessie and some other ppl.. were all gonna go out fer halloween and well totally be disgracing local school-ers cuz were probly going to wdlands.. and hahaha. yeah were just gonna make a fool of ourselvess hahas. sighhhh. but so funn. sighh. im talking shitsss. ldfhadgf whalaala. yeah. -beatriz*willieverseeyouagain*

2003-10-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

i hate my toes.theyre ugly.

MY: /Name: beatriz
/Piercings: 8 closed 5 left
/Tattoos: o0o. angel wings and stars
/Height: 160-ish
/Shoe size: 8.5-9ish
/Hair color: black kinda brownish. i dont like my hair. i wanna have soft curls..
/Siblings: older bro + sis
Last:
/Song you listened to: ashanti *rain on me*
/Song that was stuck in your head: shut up by black eyed peas (lol the shutup just shutup shutup part haha)
/Cd you bought: john mayer *heavier things* mandy moore *coverage* limp bizkit *results may vary* ludacris
*chicken n beer* /Person you've called: last person is baby vanee
Do:
/You have a crush on someone: haas yeahh
/You wish you could live somewhere else: hell yeah..i miss LA.. and maybe hawaii
/You think about suicide: ...no but life still sucks
/You believe in online dating: ...o0o. no tts fer despos
/Others find you attractive: haha you tell me
/You want more piercings: yeah my 3rd ones infected and its closing up.. gonna pierce it again before i go back to LA
/You like cleaning: uh not exactly
/You write in cursive or print: print..which sometimes lks like cursive anyway
For or against:
/Long distance relationships: if we trust each other yeah maybe
/using someone: against.
/Suicide: uhh for against. i dunno. haha
/Killing people: for and against haha
/Teenage smoking: for and against. i cant control what people wanna do with their lives.
/Gay relationships: theyre ok .. lah.
/Soap operas: theyre gay
Have you:
/Ever cried over a girl: yeahh
/Ever cried over a boy: uhh.. let me think. i guess.
/Ever lied to someone: haha yeahh. alot. but not to my friends cuz i luvem theyre my bitches
/Ever been in a fist fight: er.. dont think so.
What:
/Shampoo do you use: erm i fergot.
/Are you scared of : .....spiders. and stuff. and..getting raped. haha
Number:
/Of times I have been in love?: ill say this again... infatuations are the furthest i can ge to love. man i gotta whole life ahead of me.
/Of times I have had my heart broken?: none...?
/Of girls I have kissed? .....i dont exactly swing tt wayy
/Of girls I've slept (in a bed) with? my. mom. ew ok tt sounds really nastty.
/Of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? i dunno. i cant really trust anyone at this point in my life,.,.
/Of times my name appear in the newspaper: none
/Of scars i have on my body: alottttt
/Of things in my past that I regret?: oh god these shits keep asking the same damn questions. ill repeat it. many. cuz i was one of those people who you couldnt trust one time too so im glad i still have all of you. love yazz. *hugsandkisses*
Do you think you are:
/Pretty: ahaa. uhh. tell me
/funny: haha. i think. im either funny-sarcastic.. funny.. funny-corny or.. just. not funny. haha i dunno lahhh.
/Friendly: yeah i guess
/Amusing: haha.
/Ugly: yeah.
/Loveable: o0o. i love loveee! love makes the world gorounnddddd and rounndd.
/Caring: not all the time
/Sweet: haas uhhh yeah?? i dunno
Favourite:
/5 letter word: bitch. fuckk. fuker..hella. aight. hahhaa.
/Actor or actress: ...ummm .... ME! haha noos. uhh. sean william scotts just so damn funny and kiera knightleys just so damn hott..yeahh
/Cartoon: who watches tt shit anyway
/Cereal: ...o-o kokokrispies. the ones here tastes like crap tho. get the ones in america. yum
/Chewing gum: ......juicy fruit or something
/Color(s): hot pinkkk and blackkk
/Day of week: saturday and friday cuz its PARTAYE TYMMM YEHHH
/Least fave day: uhh.
/Flower: ooo0o000oo00oo i love flowers theyre so cool. and so prettyyy
/Jewelry: rings and my newest binge are those leather braceletssss so nicee
/Special skills/talents: being funny. haha. tts an accompishment huh
/Summer/Winter: both
Person who last
/Slept in your bed: ..my...dog.
. /Saw you cry: my dad. and my dog.
/Made you cry: dadee
/You went to the movies with: allybaby vanee and julie
/Yelled at you: my mom or something
/Sent you an email: junk mail
Have you ever
/Said "I love you" and meant it?: no. haha.
/Gone out in public in your pajamas: haa yeah.
/Kept a secret from everyone: haha yeahh
/Cried during a movie: close to tt.
/Planned your week based on the TV Guide: what a waste of time
/Been on stage: yeah and got stage fright
/Been to New York: no.
/Been to California: born dere. o-O i love my cali.
/Hawaii: i wanna get married on their beaches!!!whalala
/China: ....i think.
/Canada: uhh i thinkk
/Europe: yeah its hella boring.
/Asia: i live here
/Wished you were the opposite sex: uhh. no.
/What time is it now? 11pm
/Apples or bananas?: both. o0o especially when theyre apple-banana-peanutbutter-sandwiches. ooo theyre so good
/Blue or red?: redd and black and hot pink!
/What are you gonna do after you finish this?: smell my dogg. muaha
/What was the last meal you ate?: my mcdonalds.
/Are you bored?: no. yeah. no. yeah.
/Last noise you heard?: mom shoutingh
Last time you went out of state/province?: yesterday muaha
Friendship and Love
/Do you believe in love at first sight?: yeah when you believe in love you can believe in everything tt has to do with love
/Do you want children one day and if so, how many: ....i have a long way to go
/Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust and love. haha.
Other Information
/Thing you dislike about yourself the most: ....uhhHhHhh.my toes. i hate them
/Worst feeling in the world: heartbroken and ...uh. stomachaches. haha
/Who you love: o0o all my friends.
/Who i miss: not saying
You
Nickname(s): bebe...beeeeeee.
Initials: bdhq
How old do you look?: old. people say i look like 15-17. i dunno.
How old do you act?: not 12 i guess..
Braces?: yeah black and hot pink! whala. they suck butt
Do you have any pets?: 4 dogs..2 almost dying.. damn we used to have 30 rabbits cuz they kept giving birth but they all died or ddiseases and shit. my dog ate some.
You get embarrassed: ....
What makes you happy?: my friends.
What upsets you?: ..uhh. i dunno my momma
Finish the sentence:
I Love to: eat and sleep right after tt. o0o i like to crap too.
I Miss: ......uuuuuhhhh. cali.
I Wish: i owned zouk.
I Hope: i dont grow fat. haha i dunno
I'm Annoyed by: people like you
I Am: beatriz. the one and only
h I Want to Be: beatriz the one and only
I Would Never: not be beatriz the one and only
I'd Rather: beatriz the one and only
I am Tired of: .........nothing im just tired. tho i slept till 2pm todays.
others
Do u like to sing in the shower? haa. Uhh no
Do u like to sing in the toilet? ew no
Sign: aries
Sex: girlll
Righty or lefty: righty
What do you want in a relationship most? love! hee trust is important too.
Have you ever cheated on someone: uhh no actually
Martial status: singlee
Do you have a car? not my own
What kinda car do you want? o0o sports cars. lovem i wanna ferrarri and a mercedes cl500
Movie: .....ummMmmm. 2fast2furious dood i love her pink car
what school do u go to? scgs
have you ever taken drugs? nope
What's a major turn on guys/gilrs for you? funny,looks and personality
How far would you go on a first date? haha. depends.
Which 7 people do you trust and are open with the most? my friendss. mostly vanny kelly jessy vonny
what do you think of your "soulmates"/bestfriends? luvem
is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? no cuz its sluttish?
Are you happy? haha. uhhh.
What's an object you can't live without? music and love. im a romantic man!
Love or Lust? love...
Silver or gold? silver. golds too..ahma-ish.
Diamond or pearl? diamondss o0o.
Sunset or sunrise? both the same
Have you ever gone skinny-dipping: hahha hell no
Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no they make my eyes all itchy
Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? the person i love the most
What's your favourite sport? tennis
What's your favourite instrument? guitar right now since its the only thing im learning
What makes you happy? friends i love.
What r you gonna buy/get? urrm. i wanna... silver sony vaio. the new one. its soo small and soo cooll.
specs or contact lens? i dont wear any ofem but contact lens cuz i hate specs
What's the best advice given to you? ........love is cool. haha
Have you ever won any special awards? uurrrMM. shit. first in class in p1? yeah but the sums ar elike 1+2 haha. but now im the last in class so..
What are your future goals? tennis player for us open.. yeah. i dunno havent really thought about it yet.
Worst sickness u ever had? hate stomachaches but.. sickness? uhh dunno
Do you like Funny or scary movies better? funny + scaries
On the phone or in person? .....
Hugs or Kisses? o-O both.
Wat songs seems to reflect you the most? misundaztood
If you die tml who would u leave everything u own to? ...uhhh. i dont own alot. haha
Do you have any enemies? nope
Would you rather be rich or famous? both...ahha
Have you met santa? im sure.
what woudl u do If E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign asking to use your phone? say peace back
when did u last talkk to the person u like? lonnggg time ago
Whats your email address? crazy_nut113@hotmail.com
Are you an alcoholic? hhaa. alcoholic-in-training
what time is it now? 11.30pm.

2003-10-27T19:48:00.000+08:00

im mentally retarded. yeap. got back last night at like 8++ then i typed a whole buttload out and i erased it. omg am i stupid or what. anyway.. slept till 2pm today. didnt go to school. just didnt feel like it. so today was a holiday from myself. muaha. anyway.. after i woke up took a shower and stuff.

vanee. yknow everytime you call im always taking a fukken shower.

the point? you have bad timing. anyway, then after i took a shower went to united sq macs to meet vanee babee and julie babie. vanee bought a hamster. pudding. supposedly. haha. and she bought the fricken n-gage. tt phone is so stupid..anywayy..thens vanees sis came ..thens after eating macs we walked around and stuff bought blaCk and hoTpiNk pens and markers!! yayyyy. thens we went back to vanee darhlings cribb. hahas. watched american pie the wedding and she has the uncensored one. hahasss damn farnii. ands cher was telling us about their pet's names.. their snake is pookie..hamsters pudding..fish is peepoo(it died)..something else is poopee or something. then they have scorpions and rabbits and lizards and chameleon and blaablaablaa. yehh. they keep wierdd pets. and thens my momma made my driver come at five thirty.. hrms. so damn.. what. haha. and i went to buy macs again at tanglin mall bought like 3 burgers..2 apple pies..large fries a large coke and a small orange Mcfizz all fer myself. actually. my granpapa paid me twenty bucks fer the fillet-o-fish and my mom tk an apple pie. i still ate a shitload. hahas. thens sat on my bedd eating and reading magss.hha. im such a pigg. hrms.

anywaee about hong kong.. hella boringg. and only did shopping on the last 2 dayss.haha and when i was at my midget cousins house (joyce.. shes 11 and 2 heads shorter than me)..i was hungry so i ate her fries tt she told me was only from awhile ago.. but knowing her she probly left it there fer 6 hours considering the fact tt she never washes her hands after fukken taking a shit. hahas. yeah. so i gotta a stomachache when i went back to the hotel.. yeap. tt faggot. anywayy.after eating her fries i was still hungry so she made me walk twenty fricken blocks just to get to the supermarket..and it was uphill..which she said was just 3 mins away.. took like 15 mins.. anywayy. bought like.. a whole shitloadda candyy. hahas. so funny. and the supermarkets next to a basketball court and stuff.. so on the way back we got followed by these sakteboarders and bballers.. hahas. like these 3 15year olds. and halfway one of the stupid guys rolled the basketball and hit my feet with it.. and i almost frickenhell tripped mann. the hill was so steep.hahas. they stopped following us after tt. hahas. and thens my brother was asking me what the difference between a sanitary padd and a undie liner was back at the hotel. hahahah. damn. the blankets were so coldd. sighhhhhhh.

oh btws. decided not to go to europe so ill be spending halloween with vonqueefy and hannah and allybaby and whoever else is going. still haven decided what im gonna be yet. hrms. yeahh. okay i need to go take a piss right noww. -beatriz*luvyou*

2003-10-24T18:20:00.000+08:00

hey babayyeee! hahaxxx in hongkongerss nowss. yeapp in my little midget cousins housenoww. hong kongs boring. all youcan do here is eatt and shit. ahhh. haven been shopping much eitherr..hrmzz.boringss. only boughtt. 2 halters.some face shitt. velour tracksuitt.umm.chocolate.a beltt. yeahhhhhh.this isshit huhh.okiez. mighttype when i get back tosingapore this keyboard is so shitt. -beatriz*hugx&kissex=loveyouu!missyou*