.oOo.

oOo feel pretty..stretched now..haa.cuz i went for dance class right after i blogged just now..and since my mom isnt here...a phoebe picked me up with junior and cordelia..then at 3..we had jazz..which was based on ballet..and omg. i sucked so bad.

as if that wasnt bad enough..we had to do like 70 crunches or something in all these different positions...omg.i was dying on the floor.haha.i was lying there half the time..then after and hour of jazz...we crowded around and watched the instructors do a jazz performance ..and..omg..theyre so damn good.and alecia..my instructor..did like 7 fortes in a row.holy damn. anyway, after about 10 mintues...we had hip hop..which was the same basic stuff since i already go to the hip hop lessons.and in the middle cordelia went home..and then after another hour..they did a hip hop performance..which was also damn good.then a phoebe wanted to stay for salsa..haha. so what the heck. we had an hour of salsa.which was so wierd ...cuz lionel..the salsa instructor (who also started the whole JazzCats company) made the guys and girls stand in 2 seperate lines..then asked the guys to ask the girls to dance..i was like oh fuck.haha anyway.this guy came up to me and he was "so you wanna dance?" i was like... hahahhahahaha. and he was probly like..20 or something and he didnt know i was 12..he probly though i was like 16 or something..haha.k anyway, so we did like 20 seconds...with the basic steps including the turns and stuff. (where the guy twirls the girl around). and the guy, i think was shaun or jake or something.. was really good..cuz he was in the intermediate's class. shit. i was such a klutz cuz i havent done it before..hahah.cool tho. anyway..then lionel made the guys rotate..like rotate partners..so each of us danced with like. 8 or 9 nine guys i think. hahah. damn. i think i just made us sound like such whorebags. haha .jkjk. anyway, then we did another rotation, with basic steps...and 2 turns. the girl turns once and the guy once too. so that was pretty fun. i managed to NOT step on anyones feet. which was cool. haha.anyway, i came home at about.. 6 or 6.30..and i slept for awhile cuz i was so tired..but it was kinda gross cuz i slept without changing or anything, hha.whoops. then after dinner cordelia came over again for something. then i watched punkd which was pretty funny shit. haha. anyway,so ..yeah. i guess. haha.wwhooopp!!

.bleugh.

hrmz.a week gone by already eh?sigh. review of the week:

tuesday: the usual...had ET still 2.30..then had tution.boring.

wednesday: went to far east after school to have lunch with xue hui,fushang,kelly and rachel. haha. it was really funny cuz xue hui and fushang were funny without even trying or knowing..hahahaha. damn. then i got sweet chilli sauce all over my jacket...and i still dunno how..then i sent rachel back and went home..then had dinner at mandarin hotel that night... supposedly for my grandmothers birthday which is tmr but since my parents were going to japan they had it then. and theres supposedly a revolving restaurant on the top level of mandarin hotel...aint that cool?

thursday: had ET... and was supposed to go have tennis lesson but it rained...so me and my dad went to four seasons to play in the indoor courts..and my dad let me steer the sports car all the way to the main road! haha.

friday:parents left for japan in the morning...then sent jia,julie,van,char and lauren back after school..(BISEXUAL! lol julie..)had tution with glenn at 2...then was supposed to have chinese class (with the woman who has baddd breath)but i told her my eye swelled up and i couldnt breathe cuz my nose was blocked so i didnt have lessons in the end..then i slept the whole evening..

saturday went with julie to that stupidass joshua ang audition shit. what a waste of my day. went there at 12 or 1..and waited till..like...4.30..and i was still outside...cuz there were so many people you couldnt even get in..that was so stupid i swear. then went to holland v to buy bubble tea haha..and i sent julie home..then picked up my bro form orchard...and went to holland v again..haha. cuz that stupid boy wanted to eat subway and buy dogfood that he was spossed to buy 4 days ago or something... then i waited for so long and i needed to piss so bad..cuz daniel's mom wasnt there yet... and i saw leanne ..then went back home.. then had dinner at lawrys at paragon..and leanne was there too. after that we were gonna watch a movie at cine...but no movies to watch...so we went back at ...11 or something..i cant remember.then .yeah

blog again tonight

.ultimately you.

giah lumpah chut tom to'deng.hahahhahha.shouldnt say what it means here.dads back from indonesia.but going away with my moomie on thursday.i dont see him much actually. like.... 1 and a half weeks in a month? yeap. but heck.. my parents are going away for a week! but. my grandpapa and grandmamas home. sigh. ah well. i wannnttttttttttttttt a piece of cake.craving for it the whole day. anyway..had ET (extra tutoring) today..and it was just a waste of time. we do nothing but sit there and listen to her explaining shit. im tired.gonna go take a nap. and yes, i know its 8 at night.-beatriz

.sadd.

being sadd and depressed...listening to sad and depressing songs...so i decided to mix a cd...called..sadd and depressed. aint that sad? -beatriz

.baby got back.

yoyoyo people in dddaaa hhoooueeessseeee. eh. oops sorry forgot how to spell. hhoouussseeeee!!!! sup foos.omg forbidden city is like... damn. its friggin boring i swear. getting a lecture right now so im getting all pissed off inside. anyway,had my exam this morning till....12? then... charmaine wanted to get a lift to holland v. and i needed money from dbs so what the heck. so we went to kfc and ate lunch.. and i got some monaye..and yeah. well after charmaine went off for tution i went to pick up hannah... and my sister...and we went back home and i swear to god i needed to piss sooooo badly. i was like holding it in for 15 minutes and i was freezing and i needed to tkae a piss. how bad is that? anyway..after i changed (and pissed) me and hannah went to orchard...and izzie and amanda were there in the line already... and after we got her autograph and stuff me and hannah walked around heeren and cine and taka and shit... and we were sooo borrreeedddddd.this entries getting boring. so..yeah! then i went back at like 6... and yeah. -beatriz

.owiieeeeeee.

oow. i gotta piece of glass stuck in my finggeeerrr.cuz, you see, my mom has this piece of glass that cracked yersterday..and me, somehow amazed, ran my hand over the crack. and WHAM!a piece of glass got stuck in my innocent little index finger. owie. now it cant stop bleeding and the whole plasters filled with blood.ew.hate blood.

anyway, i took out the pics of the shoex cuz they werent showing up. damn. ah well. you can trust my taste buds. theyre off da hooook! haha.yeap. anyway..gonna watch Forbidden City at eight later on with my momma..shes dragging me along to watch..not that i wanna watch myself (obviously).yeap. so im all dressed up! lol.got ma little short heels on...and ma errrrrrmmm. earrings on?!?! haha. dunno. anywayz, tmrs like the psle listening comprehension yeah? so.. just dig ya ears tonight and ya'll be finnnee. oh come on, listening? damn.thats a breeze man. (for me chinese aint tho). and the teacher in charge of my room is friggin ms. durat!!!!!shes out to get me i swear..shes like hell bent on destroying me...so she can just join forces with ms...MR.loo and mrs.tang-the-principal-wannabe (she hates me too as you can tell) and ms.yeeeeeeeeee! sheesh. every teacher hates me. ah wellz.

yeah. and after that maybe ill be going out fer lunch with becs or soemthing? dont know yet but at 4pm kelly clarksons gonna be there for her autograph session...? yeap. might be meeting vanny or hannah or whoevers going there. yeah. i neeeed clothes. i wanna wedding gooownnn! i get all happy when i see a wedding gown. lol. yeap. anyway, going to go change my plaster now.. all corrupted with blood. -beatriz

.oohlala baby. (btw if the pics down show up..right click on em and click "show picture")

haha.sorry my last entry was a booorreeee. dont think its gonna be any better this time but heck.ooh i love this vans shoe.. skateboarding shoeee. been eyeing it for moonntthhsss. so cool.looking at it on the website now.

k i just saw it.. and so many other cool shoes too! shit.. dang. but they only sell these shitz in america. howw?!?!?!?. hrmz. ah wellz.haha yo im gonna sign off now.. gonna go look at more stuffzz. -beatriz

.ow.

so this is what it feels like to be dying. my stomachhh.. owwwiieeee.ya know when you wring a towel? thats exactly how my stomach feels right now.it feels like someones ppuullliinngggg my stomach back. owowowowowoow.it felt so nice when i was all cuddled up in bed against my soft furry blanket.but nnooo. my mom had to do her stupid manicure in my room.bleugh.ow. k i shall stop. but my stomach hurts. yeap. i shall stop whining completely.sigh.

oOo i cant believe i actually wrote so much the last entry.. hahaha. funny tho.yeapyeap.i dunno ward to sayyyy. ow. and my braces cut my lip and ow. it hurts. so its swelled up a little now. ooowwwwww. i hate pain.. find it gross. yesterday my dad accidentaly stepped on a nail ...and blood squirted everywhere.so gross.he lost like... alllooottt.of blood. from one small nail it spread all around like 8cm wideeee....! so grosssss.......!!!!!!!!!!!!! yuckyuckyuck.so now theres a hole in his heeel.yuck.

i miss playing tennis. i swear if i dont play tennis this week im gonna scream. sigh. im tired. have tution in half an hour..and i still have hip hop class at seven thirty. *yawn*.sorry if this entries shit boring but thats the way my life is. -beatriz

.blingbling yyoo.

yoyoyo ladiez in da hoouuuussseee! yep. sorrayez.just realized i havent blogged for quite awhile yeah? haiya my life very boring wan lah. anywayz, ooohhh yeah. about the layout? its all screwed up. i know.the backgrounds spossed to be the lesbian making out but i cant get it to show up. grr.dunno.so its gonna be stuck like that till i figure out how to fix it. anywayz, about my week... watched pirates the second time..lol.dood. kiera knightley is friggin chioooooooo. unbelievable! hahaha.sorry.nothing.reminded me about my childhood.thing.urm.yeah.back to the point..the biggest thing of my week was last night.. LOL. mellyz and becz...haha.damn. we all went to zouk for this 17 mag party shit. but it was hella boorrriiiinnngggg i tell you.we spent the whole 2 hours walking up and down the vip thing to the pit ..then back up again...and then down again..and we couldnt even drink! shit. and one of my cousins friend got kicked out cuz he tried ordering a drink..but obviously didnt look 18..haha...anyway, it ended at bout... 10? yeap. so me, melz,becz,gayle..and sarah and debra walked to great world..expecting to watch a movie..but there was no friggin moviez...so we went to bistro chameleon..at mohhamed sultan..(dont ask me to spell properly cuz i dunno how). and hahahaha.shit.im actually embarrassed to say this.. i drank one strawberry daquiri and i got all giggly and smiley and like... i couldnt stop laughing! haha. damn. that was ssoooo funny.

i just remember feeling all hot and i suddenly burst out laughing..haha. and i couldnt stop for like 45 minutes or something... hahahaha. everyone was starrriiinnngggg at me i tell you..haha. at least i could walk straight..haha.but half the time i didnt know what i was saying...hahahaha.but it was funny shiet. anyway ...

haha..then we went back to melz crib..and we had like 4 more bottles of hooch...hahaha. and becz? god. never give her a bottle of that sutff... cuz she takes a lifetime to finish that bottle...haha. it was so fun tho..haha.we were suppooosseddd to be sleeping at like 2 am but that idiot kept friggin pulling the blanket away and kicking my vagina! hahaha. so i pushed her onto the floor and she landed with a friggin loud THUMP. hahahaha. and it was silent for like ... 3 seconds cuz she just sat there on the floor...with her hair all over her face wrapped up in the blanket..and i started laughing uncontrollably again...hahahaha. sooo funny man.then we took these stupid photos..haha.hahhahahahahhaa.sorry.and i woke up like at eight in the morning... haha. and stupid bec set the fucking alarm clock at 5 am...the fuck. and she bloody slept through it ! stupid. and i woke up and it was so fucking loud cuz that idiot put it right next to my ear...and i threw it somewhere and it landed under the bed..haha...dunno lah...and i was looking through my messages this morning and last night i was sending these stupid messages to some people that were like "honey..blablabla" ..and like "goodnight baby" and stuff...haha there were more but i deleted them....and i forget. but hahaha. damn. i cant believe i actually said that... sigh sighsighhhhh. it was funny though....... haha. and just now we were wwalking past taka and this guy comes up to me and starts asking all these stupid ass questions for this interview and another guy was right in front of my face filming...

and the questions were like "what do you feel about girls nowadays being self-conscious" and "do you sometimes feel self conscious about your looks and image" and ..."what od you do to try and cover it up" and omg these shit questions..and i was just standing there...like.. shrugging my shoulders to every question.hahhaa.dood.im such a moron. and the only sensible answer i gave besides "i dunno" and "urm" was "they should just stick to what they have". haahhaha. oh man i wanna slap myself. -beatriz

.bring it on.

yeap.over these few days ah been looking at all these templates searching for the perfect one.i chose this lesbian one with these two punkers making out yo.pretty cool.but i lost the link..now to go searching for it againn.watching alias right now and damn i wanna be an undercover spy.haha youll probly never hear from me again.omg you know last week i spent soo much time writing shoutouts and i posted it but didnt publish it and i cant find it anymore here!.arghhhhhhhhh.wadafak.anyway..i went to watch pirates of the carribean on sunday which was so friggin tiiiite ya'll! damn you gotta go watch that shiet.yeah and we all went out cuz it was ruis birthday at great world.haha painted her this photo frame with me and her in it. god you know haha everybody gave her a photo frame? coincidence huh? damn everything in my lifes a coincidence.

my sexaye people list..
-beyonce
-J.lo
-paris hilton
-rebecca romjinstamos
-the ralph lauren model. damn shes hot.
-mandy moore
-brittany murphy
-camreon diaz
-ahsanti baby!
-kiera something...that girl in pirates of the carribean.
-tara reid
-ana defranco haha add more lataz -beatriz

.cry my tears.

i finally feel empty...after those few months, ts felt good...felt good to feel those big drops of salt pour out of my red eyes, and roll down my stinging cheeks, only to crystalize on the roof of my lips.like a flood after the rain...the raindrops collecting on anything still and lifeless.then to slowly roll off...due to the quivering of my jaw.i could smell the salt droplets...the smell made me realize that it was quite unrecognizable. something that i havent remembered for a very long time. but then again...it smelt good.although it smelled close to a cross between warm sweat or the sea spray on my face. i could appreciate what doesnt come very often.like rain in the desert, or warmth in the Antartica.i stared, and stared. he stared back,yelling harsh words along with his piercing expression.i was angry, i mean, yes, of course i was angry damnit.i knew i deserved it man.but the rebellious side of me yelled back unthinkable words.but of course, silently.in my mind, a typhoon of all the complaints, mixed feelings and shit that ive kept bottled up all this while whirled around,swirling everything together,chaining them into one word.fuck.but i couldnt defy him.i couldnt do anything about it.nope.
cuz next to him i was lifeless.i looked at him,screaming his words of anger,waving his arms around.to me, he was just another man in my life standing before me and shouting, telling me what to do.with his temper rising up, i looked around the room, trying to avoid his deadly stare. realizing that at that moment, i hated him.getting my ass whooped is not one of my strong points,as you can tell.i decided to get through with it. i tried to hold back the tears welling up,to show him that i was stronger than he thought. but at that point i was too weak.weak to the bone.i shuddered as i fought the cries for help back down.i fought hard.my efforts paid off.he gave up.he threw his newspapers down on the floor with disguist and walked out of the room.slamming the door behind him,leaving me leaning against the wall for support.i let all my energy flow and slid to the floor.but i was proud of myself....-for crying.

talk about experiences.

.hoobastank.

haha.i was actually too scared to go home.but.its allll gooood.yeap.listening to 3 doors down now.so relaxing horrrz?sighsighsigh. went for home run just now.the whole cinema was booked for us..! haha.yeah and the guy acting in it... joshua ang and jack neo were there... haha.eeeeee, he buttugly yo.actually..hes not that bad.haha.ahem.yeap.and some of us got into sooo much shit cuz we were ten minutes late and we held up 2 buses.whoops.watching the osbournes now.and i saw kellys butt.hrmz.walalalala.so anyway...bbq night tonightttttt. did some shitass line dancing but i didnt even know what the fuck i was doing.bleugh.dood i wanna say stuff but i dont wanna type it out here..what to doooo.k nvm.im fucking bored.i dont knowwww what to sayyyyyyy........................................... fuck. -beatriz

.bleugh.

so its already thursday huh? dang. my week wasnt that interesting..didnt go watch pirates of the carribean cuz it wasnt out yet..till today..bleugh.ah wellz.cant really remember what i did this week actually.slept alot tho. ahhhh.but today i went to taka with hwee li and bernice. was spossed to go to tha dentist but.some idiot cancelled my appointment...making me go with her again on tuesday.bluegh.anyway..haa.went with em to devils bar to rehearsal..theyre singing cant help falling in love with you on sunday night.haha.hahahhaa.ooops.sorry.k back to the point.yeap.todays rui's bday.happy birthday! haha.yeap.hrmz.im so bored i have no friggin idea what the hell to writeeeeeeeeeeee.arghhhhhhhhhhhh.

whattowritelahwhattowritelah. oh...played tennis just now? haha wadafak am i sayingggg.fuck.yeap and tmr theres the bbq night and i have nooo friggin idea what im saying cannot think properly so feggheddit. ciaoz. -beatriz

.second chances.

so..most of my weekend was spent sleeping.yeaps.how productive eh?lol.ah well.didnt do nothin much yesterday..played tennis in the morning,,went out for breakfast..went out for dinner blablabla.i was spossed ta go out and watch a movie with melly after dinner but there were no fucking movies to watch..and she had to go buy lanterns.haha.sadsadsad.dont think she went in the end anyway.yeap.and this morning..me and my mom walked to the park to meet my aunt ..melly..and her dadee for breakfast..had some real fattening french toast yo.my momee really needs to learn to chillllllll man.keeps shouting at me for no friggin reason.yeah wellz.slept again today.haha.what else.nothing.and im so pissed cuz my dog pissed everywhere in my room..like 3 different places.grossed out lah.yeap.thats all i did.sad eh? at least tmrs a hol..gonna go catch pirates of the carribean with melly -beatriz